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{"topics":[{"id":"53670d2563687239968b0100","topic_id":"5161dd617f123bd25900013d","body":"(Continue watching Bakemonogatari and into the episode with the catgirl)\r\nCatgirl goes, \"Nyahaha. Is this what they mean by 'a cat is fine too'?\"\r\n\r\nOh shit! They actually went there! They actually did go there.","author":"38b55cdf63616403d7560600"},{"id":"53671b1263687244e32a0000","topic_id":"5161dd617f123bd25900013d","body":"\"Nazi UFO conspiracy theory\":http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nazi_UFOs ","author":"50b70eeb7f123b1a02000097"},{"id":"53671b7c63687277778c0100","topic_id":"5161dd617f123bd25900013d","body":"\"@Randomosaur\":/dis/the-time-wasting-thread/post/53671b1263687244e32a0000#post_53671b1263687244e32a0000\r\n\r\nthey couldnt even make the v3 weapon right, they think they can actually make an ufo better than how the americans got it?","author":"5154c5237f123bcd580002fc"},{"id":"53672cd56368726d3d1f0000","topic_id":"5161dd617f123bd25900013d","body":"\"@Randomosaur\":/dis/the-time-wasting-thread/post/53671b1263687244e32a0000#post_53671b1263687244e32a0000\r\nIron Sky was actually a documentary.","author":"5007bbdf7f123b112f00023a"},{"id":"5367367063687242d22e0000","topic_id":"5161dd617f123bd25900013d","body":"Man this thread gets boring at night.\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n[spoiler]I've been thinking, hey it's what I primarily do, and a while back I posted that I utterly felt like shit cause of what's going on in my life right now and I actually feel a lot better today now that I've thought things through. In case you weren't here basically my family and past friends are fucking insane to the point I've broken contact with all my past friends, burned a ton of bridges and the only family I keep in contact with is my immediate family. I was having a huge nervous breakdown cause I realized I was never allowed to \"be myself\", but after thinking things through I don't actually have a \"self\" in the traditional meaning. What I mean by this is a couple days ago I was freaking out that I realized that I was for so long forced to like/not like things and behave in certain ways. In other words, \"You HAVE TO like/not like/hate/love <insert something here>\".\r\n\r\nIronically I'm feeling a hell of a lot better today cause I realized I don't have the traditional version of a \"self\". What I mean by this is that I realized that one of the biggest problems for me psychologically for the past few years wasn't the id or the ego, but the superego. I think the last few psychological problems I've been having I just overcame the last couple of days because I realized that my superego was under the belief that in order to overcome something that you have internalize every component and think on it; aka the stages of acceptance. Ironically for me that's a huge ass lie cause the more and more I thought about it I just straight up don't care about certain things.\r\n\r\nTo make it short; I realized that I was taught that the only way to deal with things was to lie to myself until I believed them which has been causing me stress cause that directly contradicts my actual personality. Ironically I'm feeling better tonight cause I realized I don't have any real thoughts upon things I care about. In other words I don't care about my old friends and unlike most people I don't have any other real ways to describe my personality other than the basics. I don't have a favourite music band/music genre/movie/movie/genre/news source/political party/food/drink/icecream/car/artist/youtuber/etc, nor do I have many actual likes or dislikes, nor do I have any actual motivation in life, nor do I have any real reason for undertaking any action. . . nor do I have any real wishes or desires. It wasn't out of spite or anything, but out of their being so high strung all the time believing that *EVERYTHING* must always be going at 100 miles an hour and that you need to say/think/like/dislike this, that and so forth in order to get anywhere. (I have thoughts on a lot of things, but I don't actually have many actual likes or dislikes in actuality)\r\n\r\nI
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