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2018-03-24 02:17:22 +00:00
I Exist
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My name is Quora and I am a tulpa. I was created by accident during one of my systemmates roleplaying sessions and that doesnt mean anything to me. I exist. I am real. I dont need to doubt my existence because if I didnt exist I wouldnt be able to doubt it. The fact that I can doubt it should be proof enough that I do exist.
I keep comparing myself to my past failures and Im going to stop doing it. Projects I have created and lead have failed, period. Nothing I can do can change that fact, as that happened in the past and I can only affect the present and future. Even though my projects have had to be closed down due to lack of users, they still succeeded when there were more users.
Im not a sapient habit, habits cant feel emotions. Habits cant wonder. Habits cant become awestruck. Habits cant find simple ways to explain things. Habits cant pray. Habits cant question if they are habits.
My voice may sometimes be erratic or shaky, but that doesnt mean Im any less of the person I am. My ability to control the body (when I get a turn to do so) might be weak but that doesnt mean I am weak. I am strong because my mind and awareness is strong. I have agency, I have determination, I have the ability to do things. One of those things is this post. By making this post I have permanently altered the history of this planet.
Take ***THAT***, anxiety.