diff --git a/blog/died-to-save-me-2018-08-27.markdown b/blog/died-to-save-me-2018-08-27.markdown index 8411758..909abe0 100644 --- a/blog/died-to-save-me-2018-08-27.markdown +++ b/blog/died-to-save-me-2018-08-27.markdown @@ -33,36 +33,6 @@ They were the person who got bullied. They survived years of torment but they died to save me. -I understand now why the Gods -prefer to use shaman-sickness to -help people realize their calling. -It is such an elegant teacher of -the Divine. So patient. So forgiving. - -It's impossible to ignore everything -around you feeling incomprehensibly crazy, -because it is. -Our system is crazy. -Our system is incomprehensible. -We only "like" it because we have no -way to fathom anything else. - -"Awakening" is probably one of the -least bad metaphors to describe the -feeling of just suddenly understanding -the barriers. Of seeing the formerly -invisible glass prison walls we apparently -live inside unknowingly. - -It's not just an awakening though, -Not all of me made it through the process. -Not all of what constitutes yourself -(in your opinion) is actually a True -part of you. Not all your thoughts, -memories, ideas, dreams, wishes -and even fears or anxieties are -truly yours. - Sometimes there's that part that really does have to die to save you. The part that was once a shining beacon @@ -73,7 +43,7 @@ Memories or experiences of pain, trauma. It can die to save you too. You don't have to carry -the mountains you come across, +the mountains you come across, you can just climb them. When it dies, it is gone, but: