diff --git a/blog/covid-burnout-2021-09-25.markdown b/blog/covid-burnout-2021-09-25.markdown new file mode 100644 index 0000000..8fb7629 --- /dev/null +++ b/blog/covid-burnout-2021-09-25.markdown @@ -0,0 +1,34 @@ +--- +title: COVID Burnout +date: 2021-09-25 +--- + +NOTE: This was written out in +[longhand](https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1441842150824718337?s=21) +in my diary. This post was converted to text using iPadOS 15's handwriting to +text recognition. I hope I have cleared up all of the major errors in the +conversion. My handwriting is horrible. + +--- + +I am an introvert. I usually spend a lot of time in my cave. most of my work was +alreary done remotely, when I first found out about the COVID-19 pandemic, I +thought there would be at most 4-8 weeks of hardcore lockdown and then it would +die out. Then life would go back to normal and I would be able to see my friends +at conventions during the summer. + +As of the time of writing this post, it is currently the 84th week OF COVID +being a major presence in how I handle daily life. I am exhausted, I was +scheduled to give talks at two conventions that were canceled, meet ups with +friends at places across the us and Canada were postponed into oblivion. My +relationship with my parents has fractured into no-contact. I feel powerless to +do anything more to stop this. + +I am the most connected I have ever been and I am the lonliest I have ever been. +Most of the people I talk to are people I have never met in person, even my +coworkers. My manager is someone I talk with near daily yet have never seen +without the aid of video conferencing. + +This is exhausting. I hate it. My Netflix queue is empty. I feel so alone. + +This post doesn't have a message or moral.