# April, 2014

## 04/22/2014 04:54:00 PM

![](./04_2014_dark_entity.jpg)

This is a drawing of one of those “dark entities”, seeing stuff like this in real life was much more brutal. Funny that i never really been able to impose my tulpa, but i sure did got the pleasure of seeing these horrors.

I don’t really have to deal with stuff like this as often as i did in the past. I drew this because i was in the mood to “express” some of my darker inner feelings.

## Day 613 - One step onwards

04/30/2014 06:09:00 PM

Alright, another update.

I have gained a good amount of weight, am back to normal. Now i need to slow down on my diet and focus of healthier foods, I’ve also tried to exercise some, it’s not quite a habit yet but I’ve been doing it more often then ever.

I also been experimenting with some supplements to treat depression/anxiety (also been drinking tons of orange juice and eating chocolate). They seem to improve my overall mood in the day, I feel closer to my old self then ever before.Their might be some risk by taking supplements, I don’t want to be depended on them.

The control i have over my body has been increasing, which is great news. But being too lazy will have me lose control of myself, so staying outdoors and active is key.

My Tulpa has been in a dormant state, her influence fades. I feel like Oguigi is reversing back to an idea, a thought, and not an actual entity. But i can still talk to her, it’s kinda hard now, and when i do i can literally feel blood pumping to a certain area of my brain as if to resurrect something. If i wanted to i could have her back in a few days. but i no longer have the desire nor interest to do that.

until next time.
