# November, 2014

## 11/08/2014 10:08:00 AM

> Do things to find yourself again and after a year Tulpas will seem like a distant memory. After all, you finally realized that a Tulpa is not what it seems to be and I'm sure the community will follow. Best regards, your friend Bluesleeve.

Yes and no. I still feel the aftereffects, even after the fact that i stop believing in tulpas. I still feel the effects of  possession, I still feel stuck in my head sometimes. And the dark thoughts i have still are not fully gone. Tulpas or not, my brain have not undone what I have done to it. There’s no off switch, It’s a healing process that will take awhile, am hoping that it won’t take years, but that’s a possibility.

Emotionally, when i Think back to everything I’ve done. I can’t help but to feel shame and embarrassment, And I regret Ignoring my doubts when I first started. I should have stopped in the first week. 

