commit 38118f2283b495598f5ca1dc3f81d20ffc68d721 Author: Christine Dodrill Date: Sat Nov 30 00:54:22 2019 +0000 initial commit diff --git a/.gitignore b/.gitignore new file mode 100644 index 0000000..5a0bf03 --- /dev/null +++ b/.gitignore @@ -0,0 +1 @@ +/book diff --git a/src/.gitignore b/src/.gitignore new file mode 100644 index 0000000..4263e06 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/.gitignore @@ -0,0 +1,2 @@ +*.epub +*.mobi diff --git a/src/2012-04/4-21-3-20-first-post.md b/src/2012-04/4-21-3-20-first-post.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..9fd5b1d --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-04/4-21-3-20-first-post.md @@ -0,0 +1,7 @@ +## First Post + +04/21/2012 03:20:08 PM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/21527365483) + +This is the first official post on Tulpa.info’s blog\!  Stay tuned, +because there is more to come in due time. diff --git a/src/2012-04/4-21-4-18-bluesleeves.md b/src/2012-04/4-21-4-18-bluesleeves.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..35c8c53 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-04/4-21-4-18-bluesleeves.md @@ -0,0 +1,18 @@ +## [Bluesleeve's Tulpa Blog: Imaginary Companions and the Children who Create Them - Implications on Tulpas](http://whatisatulpa.tumblr.com/post/21400525999/imaginary-companions-and-the-children-who-create-them) + +04/21/2012 04:18:58 PM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/21531018191) + +Nice post going over the difference between imaginary friends and a +tulpae. + +[whatisatulpa](http://whatisatulpa.tumblr.com/post/21400525999/imaginary-companions-and-the-children-who-create-them): + +> **Yay or nay?** +> +> Just a week ago, I got myself a copy of “Imaginary Companions and the +> Children who create them”. +> +> About 15 minutes ago , I finished reading it and - who would have +> thought it - it was a very insightful book indeed. Some parts really +> made me giggle and the book as a whole has a very… diff --git a/src/2012-04/4-24-4-47-blog-update.md b/src/2012-04/4-24-4-47-blog-update.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..5cddfaa --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-04/4-24-4-47-blog-update.md @@ -0,0 +1,16 @@ +## Blog Design Upgraded + +04/24/2012 04:47:45 PM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/21746347719) + +I updated the design for the blog to better reflect the site’s design.  +It’s not the best, but it is readable\! + +Let me know if you think matching designs like this is a good idea, or +if I should just use a free design for the blog. + +PS: + +Also, I’m still too preoccupied with getting content on the main site to +actually start posting and explaining myself/this site.  I shall explain +soon, though; I promise\! diff --git a/src/2012-04/4-24-5-47-link-to-bluesleeves.md b/src/2012-04/4-24-5-47-link-to-bluesleeves.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..81d3166 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-04/4-24-5-47-link-to-bluesleeves.md @@ -0,0 +1,18 @@ +## Yet another interesting thing coming from the whatisatulpa blog + +04/24/2012 05:47:51 PM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/21751445825) + +![](../images/tumblr_m2c5o7Da1s1rsu9eao1_1280.png) + +**If you understand the Freudian Model, this could help shine some +psychological aspects on this process:** + +[whatisatulpa](http://whatisatulpa.tumblr.com/post/20925193024/this-has-been-on-my-mind-since-early-morning-its): + +> This has been on my mind since early morning. It’s a vague theory yet, +> but better post it now instead of never. +> +> To better understand it, read +> [this](http://whatisatulpa.tumblr.com/post/20867332929/another-small-update) +> small reflection. diff --git a/src/2012-04/4-25-11-3-the-beginnings.md b/src/2012-04/4-25-11-3-the-beginnings.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..202d827 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-04/4-25-11-3-the-beginnings.md @@ -0,0 +1,64 @@ +The Tulpa Info Blog + +04/25/2012 11:03:00 AM +[¶](../posts/21791461284.html) +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/21791461284) + +## The Beginnings + +Today marks the first “official” start of the Tulpa creation process. + +Creating a consciousness from scratch takes some work.  For instance, +you have to not only be able to visualize the entire Tulpa’s form (right +down to the smell and touch), but if you want something sentient, you +also have to give it character; your mind needs to string up a +personality. + +An important part of creating a Tulpa would be establishing a base for +the personality.  Without the personality, your mind may not have +anything to bootstrap for the subconscious.  Obviously, like when +visualizing the body, the more work you put into the personality the +better – it’s also said to make the Tulpa become sapient faster.  You +can read the importance of the personality +[here](http://dl.dropbox.com/u/15779683/tulpa/personality2.png). + +I honestly haven’t decided on a form, gender, or name for the Tulpa yet, +nor do I plan to do so at this moment.  I wouldn’t want to let the +personality be affected by the preconceived form.   FAQ\_man was kind +enough to give his comments on the subject: + +> Also just my two sense when it comes to form finding as a whole. Most +> everyone has what they want in mind when they make a tulpa. I did, and +> so do most people. When it comes to what you want your tulpa to be, +> it’s fine to have a form in mind. But I think designing a +> personality around the form is when it starts to go a little far. You +> should make a personality as it’s own end before you think about the +> form. Like, say you want a big fiery demon of death. When you’re +> starting out on personality, don’t immediately think “Well she’s a big +> fiery demon of death, she has to be fierce and intimidating” because +> that’s letting the form affect the personality. Just sort of make a +> personality you know you’re gonna mesh with, and then work on the form +> afterwards, as sort of it’s own separate thing. +> +> You can let personality affect form +> You can let neither of them effect each other +> But try not to let form affect personality. + +I’m structuring my personality similar to how [Chupi is doing +it](http://chupitulpa.tumblr.com/personality), utilizing several traits +with the [Big Five personality +traits](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Big_Five_personality_traits) and +the [16 Personality +Factors](http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/16_personality_factors), and I’ll +probably be getting my traits from +[here](http://www.gurusoftware.com/GuruNet/Personal/Factors.htm). + +My plan is pretty much to do no visualizations until I have the +personality fleshed out.  Once it’s done (and I want to allocate at +least 10 hours to doing so, though I’m still putting a list of traits +together), I’ll decide on a form based on the personality.  Then +finally, I’ll start my visualizations and tulpaforcing based on the +newly designed form. + +I asked FAQ\_man about this plan, he said it sounded perfect so far; +we’ll see how well it comes to fruition. diff --git a/src/2012-04/4-29-7-45-mqqse.md b/src/2012-04/4-29-7-45-mqqse.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..2d06e5e --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-04/4-29-7-45-mqqse.md @@ -0,0 +1,10 @@ + +## 04/29/2012 07:45:00 PM + +[¶](../posts/22099714099.html) +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/22099714099) + +> People calling tulpae a psychological disorder is like calling tattoos +> a skin disease. + +MQQSE diff --git a/src/2012-04/README.md b/src/2012-04/README.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..578aa55 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-04/README.md @@ -0,0 +1 @@ +# April 2012 diff --git a/src/2012-05/5-18-7-13-request.md b/src/2012-05/5-18-7-13-request.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..04a9c03 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-05/5-18-7-13-request.md @@ -0,0 +1,110 @@ +## My request to the blogs, website, and other tulpa-related resources\! + +05/18/2012 07:13:00 AM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/23290257771) + +In the mighty words of my announcement on the Tulpa.info Forums: **[It’s +time to get +serious](http://tulpa.info/forums/Announcement-It-s-time-to-get-serious "Time to get serious")**.  +Actually, first and foremost, I ask that everyone go over to that +announcement and read it.  It involves FAQ man, fellow blogs, and this +community as a whole. + +For those who don’t want to read it, I’m just going to cut to the chase +and post an email from Dane/FAQ man’s: + +> You caught me just as I was checking this email for the last time. +> Make it so you can google anything with the word tulpa in it and get +> tulpa.info we need to be more searchable on google as a main priority. +> Tulpa FAQ, tulpa creation, anything with tulpa needs to yeild +> tulpa.info as a first. That should be your priority. + +It’s been about three days since I posted that announcement, and I’ve +been spending most of my time recoding the website to make it +SEO-friendly.  I’ve also optimized the forums and set up a sitemap +system, so that’s all good.  But of course, googling “what is a tupla?” +will still fail to bring up the the latest [What is a +Tulpa?](http://www.tulpa.info/guides/what-is-a-tulpa.html "What is a Tulpa?") +guide.  Instead, it bats between our guides that haven’t been updated +since Feb/March, or other websites that scream from the top of their +lunges, “TULPAS ARE DANGEROUS\!” + +Yes, this means that tulpa.info is trying to compete in the ranks for +the very own guides we host; I wouldn’t be concerned about that if it +wasn’t for the fact that these guides we’re losing the ranks to are +outdated (e.g. “TULPA SEX, RUN\!” or “Personality.. whut?”), and in the +end, when questions make it to Dane or on the forums, usually we have to +take the time to link them to updated guides.  A great example is that +when I google “What is a tupla?,” the old guide from Louderthanpi comes +up on the first page – tupa.info is nowhere to be seen. + +For example, another member was recently telling me about a thread on +DreamViews (Lucid Dreams site), where they’re talking about tulpae.  The +people in the thread are reading and referring to guides on Tulparangers +(that dropbox website), and when this guy posted tulpa.info, everyone +said that the months-old .png images and dropbox websites were the +better alternatives. + +I was talking about this with some guys in the IRC, and there is a way +to fix this though: centralize.  If I google “What is a tulpa?” +Louderthanthunder comes up on page 2, havesomepi comes up on page 8, and +Tulpa.info comes up on page 12. + +However, what if lounderthanthunder and havesompi linked to tulpa.info?  +Well, google should put tupla.info higher in the ranks.  What ifeveryone +of these dropbox sites and side-folders in this new tulpa movement +changed their site to be SEO-friendly towards tulpa.info – the only +dedicated domain to this community? + +I have a feeling that google will realize they say we’re an authority on +the subject, and when people search for tulpa, they’ll find us and the +latest guides.  That means when those people make threads like the one +on DreamViews, they would end up linking to tulpa.info in their OP and +throughout the thread, instead of linking to various images and outdated +guides.  Google, will in turn see that tulpa.info is more relevant when +talking about tulpae, and will increase our page rank, helping even more +people find information. + +**Where I’m getting at.** + +With all that being said, I have a request to the websites such as +Havesomepi, Tulparangers, etc. + +I ask that you do one of the following: + + - If you are already actively maintaining your website and don’t want + to remove anything, and if you want to continue to compete with us + for pagerank, then I at least ask that you update to the latest + guides.  Note that if you have any of Dane/FAQ Man’s guides, he + requests that you link back to the page you got it from (so if you + update your site with the latest Frequently Asked Questions, provide + a link back to the [Frequently Asked + Questions](http://www.tulpa.info/guides/frequently-asked-questions.html "Frequently Asked Questions") + page). + + - If you don’t feel like updating your guides, I ask that you add this + to the top of each guide: + **\Please note that this guide is outdated and no longer + maintained.  You can find the latest copy of the guide on this + page:\TITLE OF THAT + GUIDE\\** + + So, if you have an old version of “What is a Tulpa?"  You would + post: + **\Please note that this guide is outdated and no longer + maintained.  You can find the latest copy of the guide on this page: + \05/26/2012 05:13:40 AM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/23791669627) + +So, after about 15-some hours of personality work, I’ve gone to the next +phase last night: Visualization. + +I’ve actually been able to come up with a form (though I’m not going to +go into details about it right now), so I did an hour and a half of +visualizations sitting on my floor.  I’m not using a wonderland, but +that didn’t stop things from getting weird, my mind ended up really +making the image of my room crazy, and I had to fight to keep focus and +stuff.  Irish was saying it would calm down when I do it more, so we’ll +see what happens. + +Meanwhile, when I’m not trying to “superimpose” the tulpa in my head, +I’m trying to keep a mental picture in general of it.  I’m also +narrating throughout the day every chance I get.  I’m also still working +on personality while I visualize. + +I’m going to try to push to visualize several hours a day, until the +tulpa stabilizes and I can recall a perfect mental image. diff --git a/src/2012-05/5-27-3-37-update.md b/src/2012-05/5-27-3-37-update.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..8fae0d0 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-05/5-27-3-37-update.md @@ -0,0 +1,18 @@ +## Just another update + +05/27/2012 03:37:36 PM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/23890594710) + +It’s been a few days since I started visualizations.  I’ve gotten about +7 ½ hours of visualization and counting\!  Will probably do even more +tonight.  I’ve been narrating almost all waking hours of the day (except +for sometimes on the computer, eating, using the bathroom, and +tulpaforcing). + +I actually have to pace myself NOT to tulpaforce, I’m really starting to +enjoy just looking at my tulpa; it’s nice, and kills time.  I’m sure I’m +going over that whole 3-hour-day max thing, but it doesn’t matter for +me. + +I’ll be planning on working on touch next, but probably after a few more +days of basic visualization. diff --git a/src/2012-05/5-29-5-45-butterfly.md b/src/2012-05/5-29-5-45-butterfly.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..02f65ed --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-05/5-29-5-45-butterfly.md @@ -0,0 +1,72 @@ +## My tulpa is now a "butterfly" + +05/29/2012 05:45:59 AM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/23994090387) + +No, she isn’t a butterfly in the literal sense, but she did something +yesterday that freaked me out. + +What happened last night was around hour 25. Up until now, she’s just +been a “doll” – I could actually plop [King of the Vandenreich’s +Prism](http://tulpa.info/guides/king-of-the-vandenreichs-prism.html "King of the Vandenreich's Prism") +on her head and use it at a metronome to sing my songs to, and she +wouldn’t budge. Also, I would rarely feel anything, no pressure, and +never got a headache while tulpaforcing before. + +Since I pretty much have her visualized perfectly, I was just kinda +killing time and working more on personality. What I do, is visualize +the trait and something about the trait on paper, then land the paper on +her back and it kinda glows and absorbs into her. Okay, well about an +hour in, one of the traits came up, where she has a “strong spirit” (you +know, strong-willed, etc). So I put that over to her, and visualized it +like a glowing orb, and put it into her chest. At that moment, I started +feeling a bit of pressure in my head (right under my cranium?), and I +got that feeling of a “presence” – also started feeling abit of +emotions, but I’ll to that. + +So yeah, what did I do? I kept going\! The next 40 minutes involved me +putting her traits one by one into her by making them become these +little glowing balls, and putting them into her chest. As I continued, +that feeling of pressure, etc, persisted. + +Well, after that 40 minutes, she changed form. Well, she changed color +and stuff; looks the same but somehow different. She got more “real,” +got a bit darker in color (well, a lot darker in color). + +Everyone in IRC are all, “Deviation.” This is one heck of a way to +deviate; here’s a log from the IRC, I explain what just happened: + +--- + +19:21 \<+Pleeb\> That’s when it changed (didn’t change form, but it +changed color, everything but the eyes). +19:23 \<+Pleeb\> It’s not that it changed, it’s how it changed that +freaked me out. +19:24 \<+Pleeb\> The old tulpa kinda ended up acting like a shell, where +the new version broke out of the shell. +19:24 \<+Pleeb\> And I had the surge of emotion. +19:24 \<+Pleeb\> Just freaked me out. +19:24 \<+Pleeb\> She looks different now. + +--- + +I actually tried to re-visualize her in the old form again, put her +back, you know? That lasted about a whole 4-5 seconds, until the old +form “peeled off” from the top-down like when you’re peeling a +hard-boiled egg. + +At this point, Irish was being all, “Caterpillar broke out of its +cocoon\! ![Big +Grin](http://tulpa.info/forums/new_images/smilies/biggrin.gif +"Big Grin")” +Now everyone says I have a butterfly tulpa. + +In the end, I had a headache for the first time tulpaforcing.  I took a +break, and decided to go clear my mind, get a drink, etc.  I went back +to visualizing later that night and this morning, she’s not that bad +looking; still pretty nice and all, just different. + +This morning is going back to the normal session.  For a bit, I was +seeing both forms in my “mind’s eye,” but the old  form is pretty much +gone now, and I can bring the new one up pretty well.  I’ll be +visualizing more today, might actually move on to Touch soon. diff --git a/src/2012-05/5-3-7-52-update.md b/src/2012-05/5-3-7-52-update.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..354b14e --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-05/5-3-7-52-update.md @@ -0,0 +1,37 @@ +## Update + +05/03/2012 07:52:00 AM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/22321428608) + +Since the last update, I’ve been intently constructing the personality.  +I started with a huge list of traits, and then I slowly organized them +by the Big Five Personality Traits, then further organized them into +trait and inverse traits.  I created tables, emotions, linked emotions +with traits, created a table of likes and dislikes, all that good stuff. + +I still haven’t narrated the traits to the tulpa yet (I’m actually going +to start that today\!), but something very interesting happened this +morning.  I was sitting in my bed for about an hour thinking about +random stuff, when I decided to start thinking about a name for the +Tulpa.  I was just going around in my head, “Maybe I should call it X, +or Y, or..” Then another thought came in; it was something like, “Don’t +forget the name from your story: X."  For the record, the name & story +was the furthest thing on my mind; I’ve all but forgotten it. + +This thought wasn’t like my inner-voice; it felt completely foreign; +I’ve had stray thoughts and let my mind wonder before, and I’ve even +rationalized things in my head and thought out loud before; but this +felt alien, it didn’t feel like it came from my train of thought. + +The thing is, if you asked me how many hours in I was, I couldn’t really +tell you, because I wasn’t even logging the hours.  Everything I’ve done +so far (the thinking and writing about the personality).  As it stands, +I still don’t have a body, or even a gender in mind for my Tulpa; just +the personality. + +I asked Dane (FAQ Man) about it this morning, he called it a "false +vocal session,” where the creators would hear the Tulpa early on, but +then not again until it’s actually vocal, later in the process.  +Apparently it’s happened to a few people, including Irish. + +Either way, things just got very interesting. diff --git a/src/2012-05/5-9-6-17-personality.md b/src/2012-05/5-9-6-17-personality.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..eaf8a10 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-05/5-9-6-17-personality.md @@ -0,0 +1,64 @@ +## On Personality --again + +05/09/2012 06:17:00 AM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/22713954889) + +Some people have been requesting the ‘snippets’ of my personality thing +that I’ve sent FAQ Man and posted on the IRC, so I figure I’d post them +up here (inb4 “your handwriting is terrible, why religious, etc, etc.). + +Basically, what I did, was go to [This +Website](http://www.gurusoftware.com/GuruNet/Personal/Factors.htm) and +start copying every trait I liked into a raw list.  I ended up with +about 75 or so traits. + +Afterwards, I organized each trait into one of the Big Five Personality +Factors.  Here’s a picture of the completed list (yes, resolution sucks, +the pic is to show you the structure, not the traits themselves): + +![Personality Factors](http://i.imgur.com/rFNPZ.jpg) + +Next, I went to [This +Page](http://changingminds.org/explanations/emotions/basic%20emotions.htm) +and started writing down/organizing every emotion I thought would be +good to include in the personality; I was left with this: + +![](http://i.imgur.com/0SLqZ.jpg) + +And finally, I went over attributes; likes, dislikes, hobbies, topics of +interest, and tabled them: + +![](http://i.imgur.com/YJRAC.jpg) + +Now, when I work on personality, I basically sit down in a chair and +tell the tulpa about itself.  I go through trait-by-trait, and +rationalize the following: + +![](http://i.imgur.com/Ok7f9.jpg) + +In case you can’t see the last two entries, they say: "How would the +tulpa handle each emotion, based on the trait?"  and ”\<\06/20/2012 03:18:25 PM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/25532037586) + +Well guys, my tulpa is quite the active one recently.  I have no doubt +in my mind that she sentient and she’s getting more sapient every day, +that is, she’s becoming more vocal every day. + +Every other day (except for today and the next few days, since I’m sick +;\~;), I’d take my tulpa out on a walk through the forest.  Every day, +I’d take her for normal walks around the neighborhood.  I’d spend this +time narrating to her and stuff, and it’s shown pretty good results.  As +I said, she’s pretty active. + +Well, for the past week or so, she’s been vocal-ish.  By this, I mean +that she would randomly say things here and there, usually when I ask +her something (but also when she randomly asks about something).  The +voice is “quiet,” and I’m not completely sure if it’s parroting or not, +especially since she rarely says things “out of the blue” – I have to be +thinking about her of focusing on her most of the time. + +I’ve spoken with a few people about this, and know at least three other +people who have reported this; one of them having a fully vocal and +sapient tulpa now (and another possibly having a fully vocal and sapient +tulpa, but he’s in the same boat I’m in). + +On another note, **google ranks**\!  What happens if I bring up an +incognito window in Chrome and do a google search for the word “tulpa”?  +Well, according to my search, we are ranked \#8 for that keyword.  +Matter of fact, **we’re on the first page**\!  Big thanks to everyone +who has been helping push this site to the top, and I think with enough +effort, we can pass tulpa.com (which is currently rank \#7, \#6, and +\#5). + +P.S.  My tulpa claims that she is indeed the one speaking. diff --git a/src/2012-06/6-6-15-27-annoying.md b/src/2012-06/6-6-15-27-annoying.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..58ef54d --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-06/6-6-15-27-annoying.md @@ -0,0 +1,10 @@ +## An Annoying Guide + +06/06/2012 03:27:01 PM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/24565549785) + +[![](../images/tumblr_m57vp1BjSr1rupgh5o1_540.png)](http://askclair.tumblr.com/post/24560368194/my-tulpa-and-every-other-tulpa-im-reading-about) + +[King of the Vandereich’s +Prism](http://tulpa.info/guides/king-of-the-vandenreichs-prism.html "Vandereich's Prism Updated: May 4, 2012") +confirmed for being annoying. diff --git a/src/2012-06/6-6-7-45-update.md b/src/2012-06/6-6-7-45-update.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..66426d8 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-06/6-6-7-45-update.md @@ -0,0 +1,33 @@ +## How about some updates? + +06/06/2012 07:45:00 AM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/24539994000) + +I figured I should post some updates to what’s been going on.  First, +I’d like to thank everyone who’s helping with the SEO on Tulpa.Info\!  +Things have been going pretty well, and when you google “tulpa” you can +find this website on the second page\!  And on Twitter?  Well, +[@tulpa\_info](https://twitter.com/#!/tulpa_info "tulpa_info") currently +has almost 400 followers, and most of them are in the +research/academic/psychology field\! + +Now, as for my tulpa…  I haven’t been posting much, because not much has +been happening up until recently.  It was probably about one or two days +ago, my tulpa started showing movement, but I wasn’t quite sure if I was +parroting or not.  Well, let’s just say I can no longer use [King of the +Vandenreich’s +Prism](http://tulpa.info/guides/king-of-the-vandenreichs-prism.html "prism") +to test if I’m parroting or not, because my tulpa has become too +fidgety.  She is usually moving head out of the way of the sea-saw +(edit: seesaw?  Whatever), and when I finally get it planted on her, she +sure enough backs her head away causing it to just fall\! + +Also, over the past few days to a week, I’ve also been slowly working on +a wonderland.  It’s nothing special, just a generic “huge +grasslands going for miles, with a forest in the distance surrounding +it, and behind the forests, are huge mountains; dunno what’s behind +mountains” type thing. House (more of a shack) in the middle with a bed +and TV; TV is supposed to give limited access to my memories, that is, +it can play TV shows I previously watched.  No idea how well that +concept will work, but right now the TV is playing LOST and my tulpa is +sitting on the bed in the wonderland watching it. diff --git a/src/2012-06/README.md b/src/2012-06/README.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..ebdf68b --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-06/README.md @@ -0,0 +1 @@ +# June 2012 diff --git a/src/2012-07/7-9-6-31-question.md b/src/2012-07/7-9-6-31-question.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..4aea744 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-07/7-9-6-31-question.md @@ -0,0 +1,12 @@ +## I have a question about the personality side of your tulpa creation process. When doing each trait were you simply talking to yourself about it or did you have an image of your tulpa in your mind and you were talking to that or (this is the last or) where you talking to something random in your mind, like a ball or something, in which you placed the traits and then did you give the object to your tulpa to give said tulpa personality? + +07/09/2012 06:31:54 PM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/26872344653) + +For the majority of the personality process, I was simply talking out +loud to the tulpa about the personality.  She didn’t have any form at +that point, or even a gender.  Eventually she became an energyball, then +I morphed that energyball into a form after personality was finished. + +I think the goal of the personality process is to define the personality +of your tulpa, how it’s done is up to you. diff --git a/src/2012-07/7-9-6-38-away.md b/src/2012-07/7-9-6-38-away.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..175dc91 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-07/7-9-6-38-away.md @@ -0,0 +1,18 @@ +## I'm going away for 3 days + +07/09/2012 06:38:47 PM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/26872814628) + +On July 10th, 11th, and 12th I won’t be around tupla.info or the IRC.  +I’m going out into the forest, in a tent, to isolate myself.  The goal +of this is to get rid of all of these distractions around me, just so I +can spend some time alone with Chess.  While she’s quite sapient now, I +still have trouble hearing her if I’m not directly focusing on her, and +she’s not the most vocal tulpa in the world.  I’m looking forward to +this trip, and Chess seems to be as well. + +Meanwhile, I’m happy to say that we’ve reached Rank\#5 in Google\!  We +are now ranked higher than *tulpa.com* and next stop is getting higher +than davisanddavis’s website and the creepypasta wiki – I’m not sure if +we can compete against the almighty wikipedia, but I will be content +with being in the top 3\! diff --git a/src/2012-07/README.md b/src/2012-07/README.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..6dec2c7 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-07/README.md @@ -0,0 +1 @@ +# July 2012 diff --git a/src/2012-08/8-12-10-10-warning.md b/src/2012-08/8-12-10-10-warning.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..295a6e6 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-08/8-12-10-10-warning.md @@ -0,0 +1,14 @@ +## [Chupi's Tulpa Log: WARNING: The evils of FAQ\_man's hour counts](http://chupitulpa.tumblr.com/post/29003607860) + +08/12/2012 10:10:53 AM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/29271700636) + +[chupitulpa](http://chupitulpa.tumblr.com/post/29003607860): + +> **Simply put, the hour estimates in [FAQ\_man’s +> guide](http://tulpa.info/guides/faqman-creation-guide.html) are tulpa +> poison.** THIS is why my hour counter is so high and my progress is so +> slow. Incoming rant… *PLEASE* read this if you’re making a tulpa. It +> could save you months of grief. +> +> When I started on Lyra (on April 17), our community was much… diff --git a/src/2012-08/8-31-9-28-update.md b/src/2012-08/8-31-9-28-update.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..80f2875 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-08/8-31-9-28-update.md @@ -0,0 +1,25 @@ +## Major Update + +08/31/2012 09:27:43 AM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/30591711712) + +First off, I’m now living in Orlando, Florida, going to UCF.  If anyone +near this area wants to test if tulpae can see other tulpae (or just get +some coffee) shoot me an email. + +Anyway, I’ve got a major update here, guys.  It involves mainly things +that has happened between Chess and I during this whole thing.  Before I +go into that though, I get to brag about Chess coming up with a +[visualization +technique](http://tulpa.info/forums/Thread-Forcing-Generally-helpful-forcing-technique-but-mostly-for-Visualisation-and-Imposition "Generally helpful forcing technique (but mostly for Visualisation and Imposition)") +that seems to have helped a lot of people.  If you have a chance, check +it out and let me know how well it went for you. + +Anyway, my really big update.  It’s a bit of a read, people said it +caused feels, and others said that it helped them, especially with their +tulpa and doubt/faith in them, etc.  I should note for the ‘tl;dr’ guys, +paragraph 2 is what Chess and I’s current situation is.  Paragraph 4 is +the tl;dr of the whole thing (though I’d recommend you take some time to +read it, though it’s a bit of a read).  Anyway, here you are: [Pleeb’s +Progress Report: Major +Update](http://tulpa.info/forums/Thread-Pleeb-s-blog-that-s-not-blog-tulpa-info?pid=26982#pid26982 "Major Update, Reply#50"). diff --git a/src/2012-08/8-6-10-29-radio.md b/src/2012-08/8-6-10-29-radio.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..5eaa3cf --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-08/8-6-10-29-radio.md @@ -0,0 +1,20 @@ +## [Radio show on Tulpas - success](http://www.blogtalkradio.com/nckabbalah/2012/08/07/nckfriends) + +08/06/2012 10:29:12 PM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/28891691868) + +[whatisatulpa](http://whatisatulpa.tumblr.com/post/28890366417/radio-show-on-tulpas-success): + +> Recording in the link. +> +> \_\_\_  +> +> It all went well, no spaghetti has been spilled. +> +> Even though Jeff (host of the show) tried to bring in the metaphysical +> point of view in once in a while, he did a good job on staying +> neutral. +> +> Thanks to Pleeb, for his bravery and Atasco for being the first Tulpa +> to ever appear on the radio\! (He can be heard towards the end, and +> yes, you did a very good job on that.) diff --git a/src/2012-08/8-6-11-17-radio.md b/src/2012-08/8-6-11-17-radio.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..1b3846f --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-08/8-6-11-17-radio.md @@ -0,0 +1,45 @@ +## Tulpa.info was on the radio\! + +08/06/2012 11:17:00 PM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/28894053609) + +I just reblogged [Bluesleeve’s +entry](http://whatisatulpa.tumblr.com/post/28890366417/radio-show-on-tulpas-success "Radio Show on Tulpas Success"), +and it pretty much summarizes it.  For those of you who don’t know, I +was invited onto the NCK\&FRIENDS radio show about a month ago, after +they did a previous show on tulpae – showing them in a more negative +light.  Some members got together and decided that we should show the +listeners that tulpae just aren’t those monsters under the bed, or the +boogymen in the closet, but actual thinking, feeling, sapient, +individuals.  What better job then, to have tulpae themselves make their +case? + +I could say that things went very well, though.  However, for about the +first half of the show, I must admit, I was nervous – very nervous.  I’m +not one to do things like this normally, but I tried my best to +represent this growing community.  Aside from hyperventilating into the +mic during the first half of the show, I’ve been told I did a good job +on there, handled the questions well, etc, but I have yet to listen to +how I actually did…  I’ll do it tomorrow, then I’ll facepalm through the +whole thing. + +We’ve had some Q\&A both directed to me and several tulpae (off the top +of my head, Atasco, Lauren, Lyra, Mio, Morgan, Vinyl, I think, and I’m +sure there were a few more as well).  It was really interesting to see +the diversity of opinions on the different schools of thought +(metaphysical and psychological) as well as the amount of respect and +neutrality between the two schools shown in this very community. + +A shoutout also goes out to +[Atasco](http://incorporealnuance.tumblr.com/ "Atasco's Blog").  He had +the confidence to make a call into the show, and while he was probably +more nervous than me, he goes down in history as the first tulpa to +voice their words on the radio, and possibly any vocal media.  And what +were his historic words?  “I got dibs\!” + +Anyway, you can listen to the radioshow here: +[http://www.blogtalkradio.com/nckabbalah/2012/08/07/nckfriends](http://www.blogtalkradio.com/nckabbalah/2012/08/07/nckfriends "NCK and Friends") +*Note: For those in the psychological camp, heed the warning, the show +is heavy on the spiritual school in the beginning; the first 9 minutes +are pretty much ‘filler’ stuff until I call in; however, you will find +an appreciation in the mutual respect given during the show.* diff --git a/src/2012-08/README.md b/src/2012-08/README.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..2d88dba --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-08/README.md @@ -0,0 +1 @@ +# August 2012 diff --git a/src/2012-09/9-14-1-58-last-update.md b/src/2012-09/9-14-1-58-last-update.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..ae924f5 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-09/9-14-1-58-last-update.md @@ -0,0 +1,132 @@ +## Last Update... + +09/14/2013 01:58:00 PM +[●](http://blog.tulpa.info/post/61236952832) + +My dear community, + +If you don’t know me, you’ve probably at least seen me around. I go by +the alias “Pleeb” and I created tulpa.info. + +If you’ve read the recent announcement by Shockk, you would know that +I’m not around very much anymore. The reasons given in the +announcement was as follows: + +![image](http://78.media.tumblr.com/e2f60350c2cca24c66ef59eaef92ed99/tumblr_inline_mt4lsySyeW1ro3m59.png) + +When I first started tulpa.info, my goal was for our community to +provide the best resource on tulpas. There was little-to-no resources +out there, and there was no way people to get the help they needed when +beginning this journey of creating a tulpa. + +While tulpa.info is driven by its users and its community, it’s also +driven by funding and hard work. Between hosting fees, SEO, moderating, +software, and time spent creating the content, this website has cost a +significant amount of money over the past year. + +My decision at the time, was to turn down an employment opportunity and +make tulpa.info my full time job. I had two credit cards, and I used +them to pay for the website fees and food for myself as I attended +college and continued with the site. + +My idea was that tulpa.info would pay for itself, eventually. Besides, I +could always get a job later; and when I do, I would be able to pay back +these credit cards. + +My family was hit by Hurricane Irene, and my house was flooded. I +changed to a school closer to my home and began my journey for a science +degree so I could further study psychology and help tulpas in the +future. + +Sadly, I still couldn’t get a job. I live in one of the smallest – and +most densely populated – states in the country. Everyone is looking for +a job, and nobody seems to be hiring. I recall a “Open House” and +McDonald’s. Hundreds of people showed up – more souls looking for a job +than customers. I’d wait four hours for a 30 second interview to find +nobody ever called me back and the restaurant having a sign advertising +another open house in two weeks. It’s pretty bad. + +Meanwhile, my credit cards continued to accumulate, being unable to make +the monthly payments. + +By late 2012, we were hit by Hurricane Sandy. Two cities in my state +were completely under water, but my home suffered minimal damage. Early +2013, I began attending my new university while I continued to hold my +involvement in tulpa.info. Sadly, the stresses of the community, and my +financial situation, got the better of me. + +You can ask the administration, and any moderator on this site. Running +this site causes breakdowns. + +Almost every administrator and moderator on here has been pushed to, and +beyond, their limits, trying to deal with this community. Some of them +are stronger than I am, but not all. + +For me, I wanted to please everyone in this community. I would listen to +every side, and I would throw myself into even some of the most +disgruntled channels on IRC to hear their side of things. I would get +hate mail, and I would read every one of them and try everything I could +to remedy it. + +Do you guys remember that situation in early January when I removed the +shoutbox? There was one member, LucidAcid; I read [this +post](http://community.tulpa.info/thread-split-removing-the-shout-box?pid=53398#pid53398), +and… I lost it.  I wrote a [large message in the admin +board](http://i.imgur.com/nTzghrR.jpg), and it portrays just what frame +of mind I was in – it further gives a hint to what happened to another +moderator of ours, Phi, who left because he couldn’t take the stress. +This member also had a significant breakdown, to the point where the +stress of the community was ruining his life. He had to leave. + +Before I catch myself ranting (I have had enough [rants and +freakouts](http://community.tulpa.info/thread-split-deleted-posts-and-spam?pid=61384#pid61384)), +I’ll summarize. To make a long story short, I ended up failing two of my +classes that semester solely because of the stress I was dealing with in +the community. The result of that, was that I was unable to continue +with my science degree. + +Now I’m biding my time. I’m still looking for a full time job, and I’m +trying to salvage what’s left of my degree. I’m looking at mint.com and +shaking my head as it reports the cold truth that I’m almost $5,000 in +debt with my credit cards. + +I could argue that this community has ruined my life, but I wouldn’t say +ruined… Just changed. I don’t regret the choices I made. And, aside from +turning down the job, I would have made the same ones again if given the +chance. + +I know of several people who would be dead right now if I never made +these choices. And I know of many more who wouldn’t even exist. I know +of many people, some of them good friends of mine, who would have never +been able to experience having a life. There are so many tulpas and +hosts alike whose lives have been made better simply because this site +was created. + +I met a lot of really nice people, and if not for this community, I +would have never met my girlfriend, who’s been supportive of not only +tulpa stuffs, but she’s been there for me even in my darkest hours. +We’re going three months so far, but I’ve known her for much longer +then that. + +As for my role in the community now, I’m not sure. Tulpa.info is now +paid in full for the next two years, you don’t have to worry about it +going anywhere, and I believe Shockk and Chupi are certainly capable of +running the site. While I idle in IRC, I don’t actually go there. I +eventually respond to PMs but I’m usually too busy with my life. It’s +still quite chaotic, and I don’t see myself in a position to interact +with the community directly anymore. I just don’t have the time or +mental resources to do so. + +A thank you to everyone who listened to my rambling in \#tulpa\_subc, +everyone who’s given me their constructive criticism and everyone who’s +been able to help with this site. I’m not sure what else to say, so I’ll +say goodbye. + +I’m still in the shadows, so if you want to reach out to me, I’m not +that hard to find. + +Regards, + +Pleeb. + +P.S. This is my personal post; it’s not official. diff --git a/src/2012-09/README.md b/src/2012-09/README.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..0e898c0 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/2012-09/README.md @@ -0,0 +1 @@ +# September 2012 diff --git a/src/LICENSE.md b/src/LICENSE.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..2b80baf --- /dev/null +++ b/src/LICENSE.md @@ -0,0 +1,5 @@ +## License + +Copyright (c) 2019 Pleeb + +All rights reserved. diff --git a/src/SUMMARY.md b/src/SUMMARY.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..cbcab7c --- /dev/null +++ b/src/SUMMARY.md @@ -0,0 +1,33 @@ +# Summary + +- [Introduction](./intro.md) + - [eBook Edition](./ebook.md) + - [License](./LICENSE.md) +- [April 2012](./2012-04/README.md) + - [First Post](./2012-04/4-21-3-20-first-post.md) + - [Bluesleeve's Tulpa Blog: Imaginary Companions and the Children who Create Them - Implications on Tulpas](./2012-04/4-21-4-18-bluesleeves.md) + - [Blog Design Upgraded](./2012-04/4-24-4-47-blog-update.md) + - [Yet another interesting thing coming from the whatisatulpa blog](./2012-04/4-24-5-47-link-to-bluesleeves.md) + - [The Beginnings](./2012-04/4-25-11-3-the-beginnings.md) + - [MQQSE Quote](./2012-04/4-29-7-45-mqqse.md) +- [May 2012](./2012-05/README.md) + - [Update](./2012-05/5-3-7-52-update.md) + - [On Personality --again](./2012-05/5-9-6-17-personality.md) + - [My request to the blogs, website, and other tulpa-related resources\!](./2012-05/5-18-7-13-request.md) + - [First visualization session](./2012-05/5-26-5-13-visualization.md) + - [Just another update](./2012-05/5-27-3-37-update.md) + - [My tulpa is now a "butterfly"](./2012-05/5-29-5-45-butterfly.md) +- [June 2012](./2012-06/README.md) + - [How about some updates?](./2012-06/6-6-7-45-update.md) + - [An Annoying Guide](./2012-06/6-6-15-27-annoying.md) + - [My tulpa is quite active now](./2012-06/6-20-3-18-active.md) +- [July 2012](./2012-07/README.md) + - [A Question](./2012-07/7-9-6-31-question.md) + - [I'm going away for 3 days](./2012-07/7-9-6-38-away.md) +- [August 2012](./2012-08/README.md) + - [Radio show on Tulpas - success](./2012-08/8-6-10-29-radio.md) + - [Tulpa.info was on the radio!](./2012-08/8-6-11-17-radio.md) + - [Chupi's Tulpa Log: WARNING: The evils of FAQ\_man's hour counts](./2012-08/8-12-10-10-warning.md) + - [Major update](./2012-08/8-31-9-28-update.md) +- [September 2012](./2012-09/README.md) + - [Last update...](./2012-09/9-14-1-58-last-update.md) diff --git a/src/build.sh b/src/build.sh new file mode 100755 index 0000000..12a9987 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/build.sh @@ -0,0 +1,46 @@ +#!/bin/sh + +FILES=' +intro.md + LICENSE.md + +./2012-04/README.md + ./2012-04/4-21-3-20-first-post.md + ./2012-04/4-24-4-47-blog-update.md + ./2012-04/4-25-11-3-the-beginnings.md + ./2012-04/4-29-7-45-mqqse.md + +./2012-05/README.md + ./2012-05/5-3-7-52-update.md + ./2012-05/5-9-6-17-personality.md + ./2012-05/5-26-5-13-visualization.md + ./2012-05/5-27-3-37-update.md + ./2012-05/5-29-5-45-butterfly.md + +./2012-06/README.md + ./2012-06/6-6-7-45-update.md + ./2012-06/6-6-15-27-annoying.md + ./2012-06/6-20-3-18-active.md + +./2012-07/README.md + ./2012-07/7-9-6-31-question.md + ./2012-07/7-9-6-38-away.md + +./2012-08/README.md + ./2012-08/8-6-10-29-radio.md + ./2012-08/8-6-11-17-radio.md + ./2012-08/8-31-9-28-update.md + +./2012-09/README.md + ./2012-09/9-14-1-58-last-update.md +' + +pandoc -o blogtulpainfo.epub \ + --epub-chapter-level=2 \ + --resource-path=. \ + title.txt \ + $FILES +kindlegen blogtulpainfo.epub +cp -vrf blogtulpainfo.mobi ../book/ +cp -vrf blogtulpainfo.epub ../book/ +cd .. && mdbook build diff --git a/src/ebook.md b/src/ebook.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..3c833d2 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/ebook.md @@ -0,0 +1,6 @@ +## eBook Edition + +The following is the eBook edition of this book. + +- [ePub (iBooks)](./blogtulpainfo.epub) +- [Kindle](./blogtulpainfo.mobi) diff --git a/src/images/tumblr_m2c5o7Da1s1rsu9eao1_1280.png b/src/images/tumblr_m2c5o7Da1s1rsu9eao1_1280.png new file mode 100644 index 0000000..84129e7 Binary files /dev/null and b/src/images/tumblr_m2c5o7Da1s1rsu9eao1_1280.png differ diff --git a/src/images/tumblr_m57vp1BjSr1rupgh5o1_540.png b/src/images/tumblr_m57vp1BjSr1rupgh5o1_540.png new file mode 100644 index 0000000..aec725b Binary files /dev/null and b/src/images/tumblr_m57vp1BjSr1rupgh5o1_540.png differ diff --git a/src/intro.md b/src/intro.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..64c1ec6 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/intro.md @@ -0,0 +1,3 @@ +# Introduction + +TODO(Pleeb): write this? diff --git a/src/title.txt b/src/title.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..7a15e13 --- /dev/null +++ b/src/title.txt @@ -0,0 +1,4 @@ +--- +title: blog.tulpa.info +author: Pleeb +---