5.1 KiB
August, 2013
Day 365 - 1 year and problems
08/24/2013 12:07:00 AM
It’s Been a whole year. Me and Koomer have learned much about ourselves and the body unfountaly there’s not too much to celebrate.
We have new problems and chanlleges, we have been sharing the body with many different entities now. you can say it’s like a mild schizophrenia (very faint dark figures at the corner), we pretend it’s not a problem. But it is and it’s getting more intense.
This is one reason why we stopped posting alot of updates, because these entities wouldn’t let us talk about them, otherwise we would feel an intense emotion of fear.
Today I had to convince these entities to let me write this post.
Now we are learning to live with these entities, as long as we don’t deny them and embrace them we should stay relatively sane, We tried to reverse it but we just can’t, the anxiety they can cause is just too strong (they use it like a weapon). they have the body do things that we rather not do, like drugs and such.
Koomer has grown weak and have lost attachment with the body, and the sense of identity, when he looks at the mirror he don’t even see himself anymore.
Things got this way because of an imposition method gone wrong (placing a hand in the corner of your eyes and keeping it there while the tulpa trys to change it’s shape). after doing this for hours a permanent after image of the hand stuck at the very edge of our vision, after many months it gained life, becoming a seed for whole array of entities. Am a bit worried but hopeful of the future, Tulpamancy is really life changing it has good and bad aspects to it, Somehow I will make everything work out.
Schizophrenia via Tulpamancy is a Real Risk, Take steps for your safety.
08/26/2013 05:14:00 AM
Some of us like to think that tulpas is 100% safe, but unfountally I found out for myself this isn’t true.
Am not asking anyone to stop, but please remember to watch out for rouge tulpa’s, and to not accept every single one that shows up, and be extra careful with imposing because while it may be great, there’s plenty of room for abuse.
If any tulpa/entities dares tries to draw attention/energy from the host with fear and anxiety on a regular basis, By abusing emotions and impositing sight and/or hearing with scary things. Destroy and/or deal with it immendenty! Do not wait it can and will get worse if nothing is done.These entities will also try to lure and weaken the host with promises of various unnatural pleasures. Never accept or give in to these offers from any rouge tulpa/entities except for the ones you created with your own hard work and energy,
Developing Schizophrenia via tulpamancy is indeed possible, when Rouge tulpa(s) starts to abuse possession and imposing sight/hearing to gain fear energies/attention, at a certain stage they can draw attention to themselves against the host will, and draw energy that way too. For our case we started to notice shadowly figures at the corner of our eyes my host was helpless but to suffer from these.
Luckily most people have a natural mental barriers that provides protection which keeps hosts focused on the physical world. But when we break these down to allow our tulpas to possess the host or to make the host see and hear things we open ourselves up the possibility of abuse. So please Take extra steps to make sure only that you and your native tulpas have access to these abilities, if your going to be doing this the years to come then you must have some kind of protection.
My host was using the body, but now i will have to take his place for an entire month. Only I have the energy and will power to resist these invasive entities/tulpas. My host was weaken when he started to accept these tulpas lure of pleasures (for months) and such and now he can’t fight back. After this Sickness has past I'll make sure that my host gains the energy he lost so he can once again return to normal.
Be safe everyone, tulpamancy can bring great happiness when done with care.
Day 369 - Recovery
08/27/2013 09:13:00 PM
Last post i mentioned that we was dealing with some problems. But now we have taken steps to reverse this, and we are already seeing big progress.
The #1 thing we had to do was to stop these entities source of fuel.
Their use of the body, And the consumption of Drugs. Drugs hurts the mind and makes it super easy for them to harm it. And without the use of the body they can’t get any of it. This was done by me using the body instead, acting like a sort of placeholder protecting koomer.
The #2 thing was to eat better, Over time the body has lost a lot of weight. when koomer started tulpamancy he was 80kg (177 pounds), one year later the body is now 67kg (148 pounds).
It’s almost as if the life force has been sucked out of it overtime, so am putting some meat back into those bones. by eating 3 full meals a day instead of 1.
The #3 thing is to keep busy and being around people, put our mind focused on healthy things.
Staying social, and going after hobbies. keeps the mind focused on more positive things and thus recover faster.
so thanks for everyone that provided support, i‘ll try my best to keep you all up to date.