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September, 2014

Day 745 - The End

09/08/2014 01:36:00 PM

If you been following this tumblr, you may remember the day 81 post titled “Beginning of the end”

well, 664 days later it has finally arrived, The End.

But its different, Tulpamancy is whats ending. Am done, finished.

I been fooling myself with illusions and playing pretend with myself. all while playing around and abusing the way my mind and brain works.

The Reality is, Oguigi is a made-up character inspired when i had a major obsession with a show called my little pony. I made this character up and gave it life and power by surrendering reason and logic.

In the End, a tulpa is no more real then any fiction that exist today. Its an self imposed illusion with a face and a name.

In my case I was trapped in a corrosive thought maze that took me almost two years to recover from.

Its time for me to move on. its over.

To everyone else with tulpas, I do not want to offend anyone with this post. But I personally do not believe in tulpamancy anymore. Tulpamancy will not solve life problems, and i strongly discourage it being pushed on anyone else.

In a day or two am closing this tumblr. Thank you to the people that have supported me along the way, i will remember those kind messages i got when times was hard. I still feel the After Effects of tulpamancy influence on my brain, but this will go away eventually.

09/08/2014 07:06:00 PM

One person messaged me, and suggested that i should keep this tumblr up. making sure my story is not forgotten.

I actually agree. I will instead just keep this tumblr as is, so anyone can refer to it and read the whole story. what was originally a “progress report” will remain up until tumblr takes it down or something.