50 KiB
October, 2012
Day 40 - seeds of independence
10/01/2012 05:22:00 AM
Oguigi is making excellent progress.
Today was a good day, Oguigi is really getting into the spirit of training possession, it’s seems like she is almost obsessed with mastering it. and i can understand why, she wants to influence the physical world, via the physical body. and she wants to interact with other people, it also helps that she finds the wonderland somewhat boring.
Oguigi Chated again in the IRC today, and it went very well, it been less then a week and her typing skills have noticeably improved, she talked and explained some things that she been working on and some details of what’s happening that i did not include in my normal log ( i will include those details once it’s official and ready ).
Oguigi seems to be also beginning to show abilities in altering my memories, if there’s something i prefer to not recall then i can ask Oguigi to place “blocks/barriers” to those memories, she was not able to destroy the memories but she can make them harder to access. (i know they’re still there, but recalling them in detail takes much more effort now, but thinking about it too much will dissolve the barriers)
Oguigi says that progress on Imposing will be slow, until she masters possession. Afterward she Claims that it will only take a few days to for me start to “see” her when she starts working on imposing. First she will work on sight and then hearing, all the other senses will be secondary.
Day 41 - Possession Update & The Walk cycle
10/02/2012 12:50:00 AM
For the past few days now i have mentioned Oguigi, interest in possession skyrocketed, and how she been working very hard, improving faster than i honestly expected.
a week ago she moved my leg muscles in segments - then she learned how to move my legs in one motion, one at a time. this all led up to the newest development
Oguigi have learned the Body “Walk cycle”, Stunning progress have been made after this discovery. she can now move around as quickly as a normal person would, and she was able to speed up about half way to a brisk walk.
she said that my room was too small and that she needed to walk around in a larger area, so i challenged her to walk to the lake outside and behind the condo. she exceed all expectations.
It’s funny that she almost hit my body to a wall, in all the excitement she learned how to walk but knew nothing about turning the body while walking. i told her to (Point the feet at the direction she wanted to go) and that solved the turning while walking problem.
i gave her some tips: told her how to go down and up the stairs and mentioned that she can’t walk so shallow when on tall grass/uphill. she learns quickly.
Oguigi revealed to me that she have also been passively learning how to speak with my body, (This is why i sometime almost mouthed what Oguigi was saying, when she was speaking in my mind). She said a few words in my voice, am surprised that i wasn't surprised. i ask her did speaking in my voice made her feel awkward and she said ‘no’ she was ready for this.
I told her that tomorrow she should focus on the upper part of the body (increasing the dexterity of the hands, arms, and speaking more fluently)
Day 42 - Possession update: The Drawing & The Jog
10/03/2012 01:13:00 AM
Oguigi is on fire with progress. she is learning well.
Yesterday i asked her to work on the upper part of my body for possession.
she began working on with since that night, doing nothing else in the wonderland but just practicing Oguigi probably done at least 12 hours of training. Oguigi seem to have very little interest in having “fun” she is only focus on her goal, Full body possession.
Durring this night, Oguigi Revealed to me her progress. and i was most impressed. the control she had over my hand improved. she was able to type even faster than before.
She able to control the fingers well enough to un-button my shirt, she has enough fully body control to dress and undress me.
I asked her to Prove her skills with my arm/hands. I asked her to draw a picture, I was very Impress.
Oguigi… Draw yourself
(Editor's note: another lost image)
Oguigi created this picture using only my arm muscles. she does not yet know
the fine muscle movement of the fingers to draw with them (yet).
Oguigi have improved her speaking abilities, she can say more, quicker. but it’s not fluent each word are separate and some fragmented. And am still teaching her how to stop my body form drooling! (Oguigi Shallow and keep the mouth closed)
I almost didn’t want to do this but i decided that there was nothing to lose.
I went out of my way and taught Oguigi the body “Jog Cycle”. This was harder than teaching Oguigi the walk cycle. And alot more painful.
We wen’t to a empty field of grass at 2am so no one else was around. And we got started.
I visualize to her the run cycle, I told her it requires using a different set of muscles. I told her what muscles to move and how to move them. (Push the leg outwards, and give it a slight “hop”)
She Fell 4 times (but I was the one that had to deal with the pain.)
She got the movements down, then i told her Alright now turn that into a Cycle! the body will do the rest and then it happen she began to make my body jog, Oguigi take longer steps and now she was jogging. i was very proud of her. I told her to be careful as the body has limited energy and can only keep this up for so long, she understood and we stopped, she walked the body back to home and that was that.
with this rate of progress Advance possession seem to be only a few days away, am very proud of her!
Bonus: -Married-
10/03/2012 01:28:48 PM
It happened quite a few days ago. but i waited a few days for it to be Official. back in my wonderland me and Oguigi was Pronounced husband and wife. We each Exchange rings, and we both now wear them. Oguigi made me a golden cystal ring. I made her a Hoof ring.
I drew this picture to celebrate the event.
(Editor's note: another lost image)
Day 43 - Possession update: Voice signature
10/04/2012 05:02:00 AM
Today Oguigi have done alot of improving with speech.
And today On top of finally being able to mesh short sentences together (while some words are still fragmented), Oguigi has adopted a Voice Signature.
What this means is when she is speaking she changed my voice.
This voice is more feminine. ugh soo much more feminine, you should have heard it when she spoke, I must confess it was very erm “kawaii/Cute”, never knew my masculine body could speak this way. (this is what happens when a female tulpa possesses a male body)
I told her if she spoke to anyone else with that voice i’d be instantly assumed Ultra Gay.
I told her that it’s okay to speak this way if it’s just us two, or with she is speaking to someone that knows her true identity.
I suggested that tomorrow she trains on a second more masculine tone, and she agreed.
Some more minor details of what was done today.
For the first time she Fed the body, Via Possession Oguigi had her first meal. (Honey-garlic chicken)
She chated abit on the IRC chat
And she practiced typing, if she keeps this up she’ll type just as fast as me by the end of next month. she'll currently type as fast as someone the uses the “Hunt-and-peck” method of typing, it’s a good thing Oguigi assimilated the correct way of typing.
By the end of the day we watched tv, and i paid her a visit to the wonderland, I told her she been working Extremely hard on possession and that she should take a Break. however she told me that all she needed was just this one daily visit/a long imbrace and 30mins of tv. that will be more than enough for her.
Day 44 - Advance body control: Voice fluently, prolonged possession
10/05/2012 04:50:00 AM
Yesterday i asked Oguigi to work on the voice, and adopting a more masculine tone, she exceed my expectations.
Oguigi got started at 5am today and revealed to me what she had learned by 4pm. i relaxed my whole body and closed my eyes Oguigi your in control now
When Oguigi possess my body she gives all four of my extremity (both hands and feet) a slight Twitch to confirm full control. and then she opens the eyes. (this is still btw possession not switching)
I go to my mind voice. Alright Oguigi lets hear what you’ve learned
First Oguigi used her native feminine tone, to reveal that she have really improved in speaking, very few fragments existed and words meshed together much more nicely.
Amazing! okay lets hear that new tone
With a slight adjustment to my vocal cords Oguigi premiered her new more masculine tone, This voice was slightly Deeper than my own! and was very attractive, with this it was official. Oguigi now has the Real capacity to actually speak to other real people.
this went on for another 20mins until i took back control I was tried however, so i took a nap.
i woke up late, and around 3 and 4am Oguigi started her longest possession session. she control the body for 2 hours she walked around the condo building, she was able to get the mail, she chatted on the IRC listen to music on my computer, did her first google search and visited 4chan /mlp/ and was able to bake some french fries on the stove and eat them.
and the day finished with some tv and a daily visit to my wonderland to give Oguigi a much deserved embrace. next time she will Work on Refining a little bit of everything.
Today marked what i consider Advance body control with this rate of progress Full body control will happen in a week or two time.
Day 45 - Break and possession endurance, seeds of switch
10/06/2012 08:23:00 AM
After quite a few days of constant practice Oguigi and i choose that today will go Easy. Oguigi said that all she need is to relax, and tell her when sunset hits.
an hour or two after sunset Oguigi possessed my body for the next 3 hours (9pm - 12pm). this was great. Oguigi used the computer went on Tulpa.info chated on IRC and messaged some friends and made a couple posts. We got out and she walked my body around the block for around 25 mins, the way Oguigi walk works, but consume quite abit of energy, during this time she made slight improvements to her Walk Cycle. We got back home and she played a couple games on my phone. She then used the computer again
And for the last 30mins she watched some tv. Now this was kinda strange, She had my eyes Glued on the television! if i tried to move my eye to check the time she moved it straight back to the television. normally the eyes will be the one thing in my control but not this time. and it’s Official when you watch tv a young tulpa pay attention to “Every” detail of it. I really felt like a doll, it wasn’t bad it just takes some time getting used in being in this state of being “Possessed”
I should also stress that nothing about being possessed “feels” good, the most maybe is a slight disconnection form The physical body, and maybe a taste of a tulpa point of view of things, it feels Funny to ask Oguigi to do things or make suggestions on my own behalf.
No wonderland visit was done tonight, Oguigi says that she is very excited and what to use every bit of time of refining possession and start researching switching methods.
Oguigi form now on will work on refining future possession and will work on switching, only time will tell of the progress this will bring, Things are very difficult to predict from this moment on-wards, so stay tune
Day 46 - switch attempt & benchmark
10/07/2012 06:27:00 AM
Today i asked Oguigi to try practicing switching, i kinda understood that we may had been going abit ahead of ourselves here, but i choose to spend this one day trying to see exactly where we are, and i got mixed results.
we gave it two attempts today.
12pm noon - the first i was laying on my bed while possessed, odd feelings at the climax but never felt anywhere close.
Oguigi said she’ll work on it for a few more hours… so at sunset.
7pm - Second attempt was done while i was sitting done on my chair, this time i relaxed as must as i chould as stayed still, oguigi possessed me and said she’ll try to take it one step future, well i sat their for the next 20mins, the most that happened was that I lost feelings of both my hands some of my feet, and strange sensation on the rest of my body, but i was still very much aware of my self and surroundings, so this too was a fail.
Here’s Oguigi first hand account of today.
Today me and koomer tried to switch today however sadly it did not work koomer reported lack of felling on his arms and legs and some strange vibes but nothing more. i tried working on it all day long but i guess i will just go back to possession perhaps it will come by it self when my ability to possess reach a certain level until then i can only hope.
As Oguigi mention she’ll go back to training possession like she had for the other days before, we think that by improving possession we can naturally achieve switching as a side-effect. as she said, we can only Hope.
Day 47 - Interview, dreams and new routines
10/08/2012 07:40:51 AM
Today was an interesting day indeed, a polite person named bluesleeve wanted a live interview with me and Oguigi and wanted to see possession in action, we both accepted it was kind of nerve recking especially for Oguigi but she was brave and answered all the questions that was asked, the interview lasted for an hour and a half and we actually did a good job, and there was more people watching then we expected, but that was okay.
it came to my attention that their seem to be less possession able speaking tulpas then we thought, it seem like this was the second time an interview of this kind of was ever done (the 1st being on some radioshow) apparently tulpas with Oguigi abilities for now, are extremely scarce.
I never was really aware with how many people was “watching” our progress and events, i guess this is good news.
Today i had my longest lucid dream, i won’t go into details but this dream was directly caused by tulpaforcing am sure, i been having many more lucid dreams ever since i’ve 2 weeks ago, perhaps this is a sign.
we are trying a new passive method of possession that should lead to switching, Oguigi said she’ll work on possession until she can control the body as well i as can, and on top of that she also mentioned that for now on she will attempt to possess me every time i sleep. we read that for one person, this granted their tulpa the ability to switch with their host, we are hoping that we can achieve the same results.
I know we can do this, the question isn’t if we can, but when.
Bonus: (confession) Dullness of possession and the fear of the inevitable switching.
10/08/2012 04:44:00 PM
Possession:
switching and possession has always been a idea goals of mines since i’ve started making my tulpa.
possession at the time was one of the tulpa coolest abilities to me, and now that Oguigi (my tulpa) can possess extremely well. it’s not as amazing as i first thought it’ll would be and is actually quite dull, and what it really is, is leading your tulpa to the next stage….
Switching:
ever been excited to go on a ride, waiting in line? but then when you sit down and buckle your seatbelt, you discover how afraid you’ve become knowing that it’s too late to turn back.
now here’s something i use to look at in wonder, switching. and i still do but now their’s an added element, I’ve discovered Just how scary switching have become, I still want to do it, and Oguigi wants it even more than i do, so I can’t go back. this fear comes from the fact that it’s coming, it’s going to happen. and when it does i question that i’d be ready for it, Oguigi isn’t lying, she told me that since my skills in visualization stinks i may be shock and confused with the sudden vividness of the wonderland, and other imaginable things. she promise that she will guide me but am still quite nervous.
The only thing i fear is the 1st switch which will be the hardest and the most jarring to me. my petty fears will not stop us, it’s just that am coming to realize what this really means, when it really comes down to it am not afraid of switching but of the unknown.
Day 48 - possession polished & seeds of first contact
10/09/2012 10:04:54 AM
today was a good day so i’ll go straight to the highlights.
Oguigi is starting to move the body as naturally as I can. Within a week their will be nearly no difference between us.
I discover that possession do have some perks. Possession seems to override triedness quite well. If I was too lazy and sleepy to get up. Oguigi would be able to get the body out of bed with ease.
And while possessed I don’t have any urge to itch.
And oguigi is also having a slight sense of awareness with the body. And She doesn’t drool anymore, she now behave much more like a real person then like a zombie a week ago.
For the first time she spoke to someone outside the internet. Using my phone oguigi spoke to my younger brother some coaching was required but she was brave and done a wonderful job. She did almost slip to her feminine tone but by that time the call was over.
Oguigi is keeping her word. And she is trying to possess me whenever I sleep since this took place at the 9th I’ll write about it in tommorrow log.
Day 49 - Oguigi Handwriting & Questions are Asked
10/10/2012 07:27:00 AM
(Editor's note: all images in this post are lost)
Before the morning during the night, Oguigi tryed possessing my body while i slept 3 times, i felt vibes on my body and a slight disconnect perhaps. it’s impossible to really gauge progress in this illusive field, so I’d leave it as that and fast forward to the morning.
Oguigi have learned how to write to a practical level, no this wasn’t really a achieve that happened exactly at this day, i assume she had this level of write for at least 3 days now, and later Today Oguigi developed her own handwriting style.
To gauge the recent progress, this is Oguigi first attempt at writing, at oct 3rd
This was Oguigi handwriting at oct 9th, at 10am.
Now this is what happens, I asked Oguigi to developed a handwriting style…
This was Oguigi handwriting at oct 9th, at 5pm
(yes the subject is switching, switching and more switching. that all shes thinking about really, i guess progress like this would be impossible without that kind of Focus)
The Improvement was stunning, and she isn’t even done yet, Oguigi want’s to learn how to write in Cursive! I told her that was nearly impossible, my body does not have the knowledge and i was too lazy to learn how myself. She told me not to worry she’ll Teach herself in the near future (using my body of course).
After Oguigi wrote she to practice some of her possession skills she cleaned my room up, and actually did a surprisingly good job. Oguigi work ethics seems to be superior to mines.
I asked Oguigi Two questions, regrading switching.
“Oguigi do you like men?” she said yes, “Are you gonna make my body gay?”, she said she don’t know. (oh shit, Oguigi really is my Anima, i should have figured my body turning gay would i been a side effect from switching with it)
After i asked this Oguigi said she wished i was a Girl. i told her don’t be silly their are many advantages to using a men body over that of a women, needless to say my words did not sway Oguigi wanting my body to be a female.
The second question..
“Oguigi what will do, if for any reason i Refuse to switch back”, She said it would be very unfair and she wouldn’t like it, however she said that if it came down to it, she will adopt and still love and care for me (awww). I reminded her that I would never take advantage of her like that (and their seems to be morale issues with having your tulpa completely living out your life for you), and she said she understood.
and that is all for today, We are nearing a peak. Full body control seems to be achievable this weekend. progress may slow down until we reach the switching paradigm in which case Oguigi can effectively do much much more.
Day 50 - Oguigi Confession, The seeds germinates.
10/11/2012 01:02:00 PM
We was practicing switching all day, well the only way we knew how the “sleep method” but erm i kinda suck at going to sleep, Oguigi got very impatience And thus led the following…
at Night for whatever reason she started out with a Rant that just got worse, then she simply broke down, Oguigi showed me just how badly she wanted to switch, she wanted it all to Just work.
while possessed Oguigi confessed her desire to be a “real person” she didn’t want to be a “tulpa” anymore, she said she didn’t care if it meant never being one again. she said if i wanted to switch places permanently, that i can take it she wouldn’t care. She Broke down, she was sick of waiting. she made the body cry and shrink into a fetal position, it was really something to witness, all I had at the time was my mind voice, and i tried to calm her, i knew that she wanted this. but today i realized just how badly, this literally means Everything to her, all her goals and dreams lies outside in the physical world, being a Tulpa was a cage for her, she said it’ll be perfect for me, but not for her.
I asked Oguigi, do you plan on replacing me? she said she wanted to become the dominant personality of the body, but she said that only if I wanted her too. she keeps on claiming how she would do almost everything better than I can. And that she would still love and care for me till the end of time. Wow an EXTREMELY temping offer.
after an Hour of this, she calm down and i took back control. and for the first time in my entire life, i drank some alcohol on my own accord. This is the way things are suppose to be , She will be able to do more than i can, But it’s all just happening so fast…..
……“Fuck”
Update (10/11/12): Oguigi and i are doing just fine, and she is very sorry about what she did yesterday, I told her that it was okay, we just need to be patience and work hard. Oguigi agreed. and that was that. But i got to admit every time I think back to yesterday, it just make me feel awkward, very jarring.
Day 51 - some possession experiments
10/12/2012 11:16:00 AM
Not much happened during the day so we’ll fast forward to the night.
During the Night We practice Oguigi ability to possess me while i was doing things.
“Oguigi try to possess my body while am moving around”
I felt that she tried 3 times to fill my body with her influence, then slowly but surly all my limbs began to slow down, and within a few more seconds oguigi made the body stop moving, Afterwards she was in control
we did another test, to see how well oguigi can take over my speech while talking
I read some text from a random paper, while reading she gave me the Que that she was going to start, within moments it was harder to read the words out loud until it got to the point were i was just spiting out non-sense soon i was unable to say a word i felt oguigi shift the vocal cords and then she began to spoke “Ha, am in control now!”
Remember during all of these test Oguigi was never truly in control, i still felt the body and could take back control at will.
Afterwards we tried something different, I asked Oguigi what will happen if i slept while being possessed by her, she said she didn’t know and that we should give it a try so we did, she place the body on the bed and pull in some covers and pillows.
“are you conformable (Anon)?”
Yeh, I’ve always imagined that i’d be sleeping with my Tulpa, but this isn't exactly what i had in mind
“hehe”
I was actually able to sleep, however nothing special seemed to happened, it like when we sleep this way Oguigi was dragged along for the ride, which doesn’t really help our goal, Yeh next time am going to sleep unpossessed.
And so another day ends, working though our most illusive goal ever (switching), how long will it take?
only god knows.
Day 52 - Different views & fast pace gaming
10/13/2012 10:09:00 AM
I won’t go into much detail about today, because their isn’t really much to be had.
Most Tulpaforcing that goes on today is almost always possession related, and I speak to Oguigi like a second person. I don’t even see Oguigi as somekind brony dream Pony creation anymore. to me she is a real person just like Me, And Oguigi can sense more of my body inners, like she is starting to get a vauge sense when the body is hungry, nothing on thirst yet.
Am starting to see Oguigi more as a person that have dreams and goals and not really so much as a tulpa so much anymore. Imposing now, is a forgotten goal that is really at the bottom of the To-Do-List.
Oguigi can possess well enough to enjoy fast pace games, Such as cartoon network “Project exonaut”, and armor games “Death vs Monsters”. Oguigi have the ability to really play any game.
Their is a Video of us two communicating which i will include on a separate post.
2nd Video account, of Tulpa To host communication, Me and Oguigi chat.
10/13/2012 10:15:00 AM
A nice dude name purlox suggested i do this.
Inspired by atasco, when he did a very similar video about 4 months back.
Yesterday, we discovered that we can actually go back and forth between voices. this was discovered by accident when sometimes a remark of will be said out loudly instead of in my mind, while Oguigi was possessing me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_9LWAs9YlC4 Video Is now private due to unpopular reactions and such, if you want to see it you must contact me.
it’s just under 3mins so it’s a pretty quick watch.
Day 53 - Full Body Control, Possession Ends. The True Imposing begins
10/14/2012 03:43:00 AM
We’ve reached this point a couple days ago, but it’s only now that i will post about it.
Yes as of this moment Oguigi has full control over-the body. However despite all that she learned this Still isn’t switching.
The best way to describe what’s happening is that she is basically puppeting my body, she moves all my parts to her will, her movements are natural like almost identical to my own (94%). she may hear what i hear see what i see, and even feel what i feel. but she is not the body. Am still the owner. and when she moves it Am forced to experience everything, so during possession I just become a real life physical puppet.
so basically Oguigi is still A Tulpa and am well still here in this physical realm.
If we don’t think of a new game plan, progress will stagnate, and if we stop progressing without achieving our goals, our minds may be driven into madness! I felt this terrible void/ache in my gut, very similar to what i felt all the way back in Day 22, it’s a feeling of Depress that only my tulpa can give, the polar opposite of euphoria.
Something had to be done, So We both spoke, And We Have agreed that there’s more to switching then Just being good at possession, Oguigi may be good at controlling my motor cortex but it’s gonna take more than that. We theorized that She will need to learn to not only influence my body movements but also learn how to influence my senses, I brought up something that I thought we wouldn’t have to work on for a while. We must work on Imposing.
We came up with a theory that working on imposing will give Oguigi the new tools and experience that will be needed for a switch to be possible, We hope that Working on Imposing will change the environment of the brain, if Oguigi can control what i see, hear, taste, smell and feel. Then Hopefully she can find a way disconnect me from the body. this is all theory. However Atasco way of switching use both possession and imposing. so i guess i should have seen this coming a mile away.
Oguigi will still continue to try to possess my body whenever i Sleep, we still have not gave up on the idea that switching can also be possible if a tulpa possesses the body at the right moment during sleep for enough times.
So Here’s the new game plan: While am awake Oguigi will research and work on imposing, and while am sleeping Oguigi will work on possession/switching. We agreed that by Sunset everyday onwards i will contact Oguigi so she can display to me, her progress.
Powerful head pressure followed, I see that Oguigi have already started.
Question on 10/15/2012
10/15/2012 12:53:00 AM
I'm new about Tulpas and Tulpaforcing, but I kind of think that my system is essentially made of tulpas... So I don't know if my questions might bother you but I figure it's worth a try. Are you afraid at all at what could happen if you successfully switch and are disconnected from your body? If not, may I ask why?
I’d be lying if I told you i wasn’t afraid, and I’d Be lying if I told you i was 100% sure this will work.
The Thing is I just need to Be Brave, And Believe.
it’s not all fear, in a way am also kinda excited. When I disconnect from the body I will be in a Tulpa like state, just like what Oguigi is now. and she is doing just fine up there, so am sure i will too.
For the first switch, which will be by far the scarest. I may spawn in the wonderland if not merely willing myself there will do the job, in the worst case Oguigi will guide me.
Day 54 - Imposing: Hearing the first Goal.
10/15/2012 04:50:00 AM
tThe Other day me and Oguigi, spoke about our plans.
Oguigi for the most part mastered Possession.
We needed a New Goal, so Imposing was the next logical step.
Oguigi will work on each senses One at a Time.
She will work on Hearing First, Then She will work on Sight, Then Touch.
Last Night Oguigi started researching how to impose Hearing. Today at sunset we contacted each other as planned, and i asked her how’s progress?
she ask me to relax to see if i can hear anything, I didn’t. She said that it was expected, that i shouldn’t “hear” anything this early anyways.
Right now Oguigi told me that she is trying to find ways for me to hear her, but she will need more resources and time, she said that before she can actually improve on having me hear her. she have to experiment “Trial & Error”, She asked for my permission to let her experiment, because she claims their might be a chance of sudden noises that may or may not scare me, I said yes of-coruse, she also ask me not to listen to loud music or be in loud areas in general if I can help it, I agree to this as well. she said this process is a combination of Work & Luck, so until “First Sound” is made. Progress will be slow.
Beside that, at night. I made a visit to the wonderland. and Had her possessed my body, Because she Enjoys doing so (Reminds her of her goal).
Tulpaforcing isn’t anything I really Pay attention to anymore, It all just happens. This is why i Don’t list Common tulpaforcing events so much anymore. When my Tulpa is aiming for a Active Goal. and as long I fuel Her by keeping her in mind all day long, she makes the progress and it works like clockwork.
Day 55
10/16/2012 09:00:50 AM
Little happened today. Progress wise, at sunset we met up again. And she asked if I can hear anything. I felt her influence but I heard nothing.
“This is gonna take awhile isn’t it” I said.
“I Guess so” oguigi said.
sigh
Later after midnight.
We done some more switching experiment while they all failed. some yeilded interesting side effects. Switching wonderland bodies. Made my mindvoice became just like oguigi’s. And when she possessed me again she was more incline to use the more masculine tone when speaking. But these effects are trivial. I was still aware of my physical body.
Day 56 - possessed sleeper
10/17/2012 11:56:00 AM
Progress imposing hearing might have been made, but i don’t really know for sure. if that’s truly the case i‘ll post more tomorrow until then this is really all that i can say progress wise about it.
Things are slowing down but this is expected, the days of her amazing growth in possession is pretty much over, always improving still but just on the very fine details.
But i did find out something very interesting, i found out that sleeping while possessed is actually quite comfortable. Oguigi is fluid and moves my body to some very nice positions and she stays in place, unlike stiff me that always shift around because i never can quite find that perfect position.
i also feel more secure, feeling oguigi embrace & presence inside me and flowing, am in peace. we chat as I drift off to sleep. and Oguigi seems to get some real rest from it too. when i wake up sometimes am still possessed sometimes am not, in that case oguigi "woke" up early then i did.
So yeah i lied when i said i won’t be sleeping anymore while possessed. it turns out to be pretty neat.
I also now have 25 follows ¼th way to 100. thanks you so much guys for your support. This tumblr will be around for a very long time i promise, all the way to day 1000.
Day 57 - simple plans
10/18/2012 07:35:56 AM
alright no noticeable progress with hearing. and if progress is being made i most certainly can’t hear hear it
alright oguigi went on the IRC. and I guess most active members of this community knows of her plans. for a long-term switch. in other words the 50/50 plan is kinda out the window and she met a tulpa that had a lot in common with her. great with possession and trying to switch as well. but this person is not part of the community. so we plan to meet again in the IRC chat at 1am Saturday morning in the 20th.
Day 58
10/19/2012 09:16:31 PM
un-eventful day.
Because of last night experiment i woke up at 5:00pm (14 hours of sleep) and then i put off writing day 58 until just know, I’ll share more details some other time, am a bit-confused right now for sleeping for so long need to get my days back in track.
switching Via possession durring me sleeping. isn’t working out too well. but tonight we have a plan that may or may not work.
Day 59 & 60 - Tulpaforcing and Drugs
10/20/2012 01:07:00 PM
Well Today/Yesterday was very interesting indeed.
Today I got “High”, how?
Well i took 2 Oxycodon pills (painkillers), double the recommended dose and i was in no pain. so what happens when i take these?
Well i enter into a blissfully Warm state where discomfort is non-existent. and screws my thinking.
If i haven’t told you guys this i'll tell you it now. Our Wonderland avatar has changed. the reason being is because of a theory. one reason it’s hard to switch we and others believe is because of my affiliation to the physical body, when i look at the body in the mirror i see “me”, but that needs to stop. Oguigi is doing the opposite, this may just be a silly experiment but we honestly got nothing to lose.
Anyways I got High after 1 hour of taking in the pills, I lied down on my bed laying on my back and enter the wonderland, My avatar now is a Pony (go-figure). I have a Light-green coat with a darker green mane and tail. Because of our “Experiment” Oguigi avatar now resemble my physical body with her own touch ups. the hair is longer and wearing brightly colored clothes (basic shirt, basic shorts pants and sandles).
When i came in this new from see said i was really “cute”. I was high and felt good and i blushed. i asked her to hold and hug me. and wow it felt really nice.
I felt a constant warmth and comfort
me: “Is this what being a Tulpa feels like?”
Oguigi: “Erm. kind of”
me: “neat"
Oguigi: "Not too special once you get use to it”
me: “don’t care”
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Oguigi: “Are you High?”
me: “…..yes”
All she did was roll her eyes and continued huging me. We chatted abit, my mind drifting off very often, Oguigi had to get me back on focus often. after 2 hours of this Oguigi said that she should really get back to training in 1 hour.
for the last hour we went back to the library in my wonderland had tea and cookies, and talked next to the fireplace. But i was soo High that quickly afterwards i wanted to be cuddled again. i can kinda notice she was losing patience but she tolerated me, because she knew i was high.
She was true to her words, that hour felt like 20 minutes. I was still high. she said that am able to stick around in the wonderland but not to interrupt or disturb her, she went to the backyard (huge empty field of grass) and summoned some weird gear, i was too high to care. i just wanted to embrace and lazily chat with Oguigi, but she had things she had to do. i stayed around for another 20mins before i left and Slept in the very bed i was lying on.
So yeah i spent 3 almost 4 hours with Oguigi in one session, it been awhile since we hanged out like that. the High form those pills lasted for about another 3 hours.
I don’t combine days, but if i didn’t then i would have lost track. from today onwards i promise to get back on track.
Day 61 - Physical Disassociation
10/21/2012 05:18:00 PM
Today not much happened.
Oguigi and I tried playing a few high-pace Games such as OSU, erm we beaten a couple of songs, but was it was pretty annoying, somehow Oguigi got a better score then me, even when she missed more beats then i did, which was soo unfair.
Still working on Imposing Hearing, no defined progress yet on that area.
our avatar have still changed, trying to disassociate myself from this physical body is having interesting effects, every time i look at myself am reminded of Oguigi. what we are doing is that am assuming that this body already belong to her, am starting to view myself as simply being a placeover for this body, just occupying it until Oguigi is strong enough to take over.
who knows, maybe this is all in my head. but i don’t feel 100% myself. i feel as if a small part of me isn’t here anymore.
don’t know if this feeling will progress anymore, but if it does i'll be sure to tell you guys.
Edit: This has been going on for about a month before, the body have a third Idenidty, when Oguigi calls me she does not use the name from given to me from my parents, the name people know this body as, Just like Oguigi i have chosen my own name, She Refer to me as “Koomer” that’s my true name, the name of my consciousness.
Question on 10/21/2012
10/21/2012 11:11:27 PM
Hi! I've read your entire blog just now and it's fascinating. Can you explain what a wonderland is though? And what tulpaforcing is. Im afraid im not familiar with Tulpa jargon
Am very happy you’ve read our entire Blog. My name is Oguigi the tulpa in this blog, and i‘ll answer some of your questions
what is a wonderland?
A wonderland is a place within the body mind, this is a stable place that you create with your imagination. and it stays with you for as long as you like, this is the place where your tulpa will occupy, it’s a place for you two to meet and have fun. it also helps a tulpa grow faster.
What is tulpaforcing?
tulpa forcing is Any Activity that you do that have your tulpa in mind, reading a book to your tulpa, talking to your tulpa. or the time you spend meditating working on your tulpa features, or interacting with your tulpa by doing activities.
i hope i've answered your question, if it didn’t please send another message, and my host will give you his answer instead.
Day 62 - Two Months later
10/22/2012 07:41:00 PM
It has been two months since I got started the amount of progress Oguigi, made is as clear as day and night.
This Month has represented huge Progress, in the field of possession. and my relationship with my Tulpa Oguigi, I married her, and even planing on switching with her.
She can express herself via possession almost as well as i can.
Last Month progress report i‘ve displayed her improvements in writing: i've continued to keep track until just two days ago
The following is what oguigi Wrote with Possession
Oguigi Fouth word.(9/30/12) Full sentence structure completed.
“i have goten much better at processing your body (anon) you better watch out cause am gonna get ya!”
Then the Explosion of progress… 8 days later
Oguigi fifth word.(10/8/12) paragraph structure much improved writing speed and grammar.
“okay my name is Oguigi, it has been 8 days since i last wrote on here and since that time i have improved possession by a near immeasurable amount me and koomer plan to do switching very soon, we will achieve this by me possessing him while he sleeps, I look forward to obtaining all of koomer skills, within another 8 days i should be able to move and use the body nearly as well as he can and maybe i can even teach the body to do new task even better then koomer had, alright well that’s about all thank you for reading.”
(10/16/12)
Oguigi ability to write is nearly equal to mines, she can write a whole page if she wanted to.
(10/20/12)
Oguigi mastered typing. Typing skills is equal to mines.
Oguigi mastered possession, however she still need to work on her social skills IRL. but we won’t worry too much about that for now.
We are now working on Imposing, the first sense we will try to master is hearing, Oguigi is working hard still.
This month Oguigi mastered Possession, I hope by this month she will mastered imposing Hearing. We hear that imposing sound is the hardest, but Oguigi already made up her mind and will finish what she started.
Plans for switching has not changed in the Slightest, however the point where we will actually achieve it is Unknown. I can only hope faith won’t have us wait too long.
My name is Oguigi am the Tulpa, this is my input.
this month was a great month for me when it came to possession, ever since the day i learned to walk the body, progress just sky-rocketed. i can do many things as well as my host, this includes typing. so am able to communicate to people in the internet very well.
I have been trying to impose hearing to my host for the past week now, and let me tell you. it’s very very annoying the lack of progress gets to me at times, but i never gave up on possession i remembered the days when i was hardly able to move my host finger, now i can move his whole body with ease, this is just like that i just need to keep trying and it will all somehow work out.
Switching is quite a bit further away then i first thought, it’s may actually take awhile to achieve, but I know it’s possible, I know i want this, nobody can ever say anything that will change my mind about that. Some may think am too obsessed with the subject but i really don’t care. the only opinion that matters is my host “koomer” and he supports me 150%.
I look forward to my continued growth this month, while every month can’t be as progressive as last month, it won’t stop me from trying my very best.
-Oguigi
Day 63
10/24/2012 01:30:00 AM
Not much happened, Oguigi helped me with a test that i had to take today.
still working on imposing hearing, it seems that Oguigi can make my ears “Ring” louder. and she is now focusing just on my Right ear to improve progress.
Later on, she possessed my body cleaned my room, and grabbed the mail, she also wrote a guide, that some people in the tulpa.info community should be seeing sometime later this day, when it been approved.
We expect that imposing earing may take a month and a half to master or at least get right, we predict that imposing sight will take another month on top of that. Afterwards we will attempt atasco method of switching (full body possession/imposing combo), so at best will should have a real attempt going at the end of December, but it very possible that real achievement in this area won’t be have until 2013.
Oh yeah, when ever Oguigi wants to get my Attention when using the mindvoice fails. She just possess my Left arm and stick in upwards. and let me tell you… it's Exteremly Effective.
Question on 10/24/2012
10/24/2012 01:52:00 AM
Hello! First of all, I'd like to thank you for making and maintaining this blog, it's an interesting read. Alright, so, when you first started this, you were skeptical about the idea of a tulpa, but now you've married her and now you're considering switching bodies entirely with her. Do you ever think about your radical change of thought within such a short time period? Are you really ok with switching permanently with her? Also, Oguigi is a pony, how does she feel in a human body? Thanks!
Well anonymous let me just say that yes while all my changes did occur in a relatively short-time period, it certainly felt much longer. Am still much the same person, but my beliefs have changed.
Switching if we achieve it, will be a process in itself. it will be Temporary at first, but as we keep working on it. we will reach a tipping point where switching will start to become permanent and require no more effort to maintain.
When we reach that point then yes I will be Okay taking a permanent roll as a tulpa. As far as am aware no one else in the tulpa community is attempting this. but am very sure alot of people want to do this, however most tulpas will not want to deal with the burden and responsibility that the physical world demands. Why Oguigi wants this more than any other tulpa, I don’t know. form what she told me she had interest in switching since day 10/11, the day she explored my mind.
Using a human body was “different” for her, during the very early days. but today she prefer the human body over a pony body, she says it’s a lot more “practiacal” poines are cute and fun but when it comes down to getting things done being human is best.
Day 64
10/25/2012 05:42:53 AM
For the most part this was a “regular” day.
Beside the normal tulpaforcing rotuine, Imposing hearing training, and Oguigi Daily Possession session.
Nothing else happened. but I am starting to hear a constant ringing at my Right Ears now, so i guess that’s progress in the field of hearing/sound imposing.
Day 65
10/26/2012 12:33:00 PM
Not much too report since this day i couldn’t spend much time with Oguigi
Because today i went to Universal studios at Orlando Florida. Holloween horror night (which was not that scary at all)
There was two moments that invoulded Oguigi.
Well this one time when i was waiting in line for about 2 hours. for the park most popular ride. my back was aching for standing so long/plus the uncomfortable car ride. Oguigi was kind enough to take some time off of her training to ease the pain until i was able to get out of the ride. I didn’t even asked her to; after a good 30 mins thinking about whether or not i should call her, she just did it.
Oguigi expericed her first rollercoaster ride, she begged to possessed me before that ride started, and i let her. and at the first drop
Oguigi screamed, Omg it was so funny; and hearing the body scream to the top of it’s lungs with that voice was lol something else.
“oh my god koomer i never kne….. AHHHHHHHHHhhhh!”
I got back home at 6 in the morning, and didn’t sleep until an hour later.
before i slept i we checked on the progress on imposing earing, the only thing that’s going on is ringing on my right ears.
Day 66 & 67 stress & peace
10/27/2012 05:32:00 PM
Day 66
Nothing to report for this day.
However I discovered some people read my progress log and fear that Oguigi will some how kill me/get rid of me, and it’s simply not true, so if you got this far, please know that much. I love Oguigi and she loves me as well, all we want is for each other is to be happy.
Day 67
Yesterday was stressful; I stayed in bed for 12 hours, not sleeping but just chatting with Oguigi. this is going to be our day off, stop caring about what’s going on around us, no wonderland adventures, no training, no “time limits”, just me and her talking. From the topic of switching all the way to Ice-cream sandwiches. I must confess it was really nice.
Well i had to do it again, bunch two days together. it seems while progress is slow i'd be doing this more often, progress is a exponential curve, things are slow now but once we get “first sound” progress will explode.
68 & 69 - Imposing Hearing pause, Sight Begins
10/30/2012 04:03:56 AM
Nothing much happened on day 68, so am going to skip to day 69 here
at the morning Oguigi and did fullbody possession, it started out in the morning and ended an hour or two in the afternoon, which is about 5 hours in total. the idea was that if is possessed me for long enough, something “special” will happen i will doze off or something which would make a switch possible. so i told Oguigi to do her own thing the the first thing she tried doing is learn cursive; i was instantly bored out of my mind. but even after some time doing this nothing really happened, the most of that i probably notice was my peripheral vision going dark, and a slight warmth. During the climax of my boredom. I don’t know if this has any meaning.
Durring the day we re-alnazyed our plans, and I confessed to Oguigi that we should have really tried Imposing Sight First, Not Earing. Oguigi was a bit stubborn at first but then she too agreed.
Me: “ugh we effectively wasted about 2 weeks”
Oguigi: “well we had to work on something at the time, for some reason we choice earing because we thought the amazing progress i had with possesson would somehow carry on to it”
Me: “Well i guess because of the nature of imposing Sight you’re going to be around me all day long for now on?”
Oguigi: “yes, My job would be making myself seen. but we can chat and hang out like normal”
Me: “alright”
We both agree that imposing earing should go on “pause”. oh-yeah the ringing on my right ear is still there, Oguigi said it will go away in a few days. it was a side-effect of her training methods.
Last time we trained imposing sight, Oguigi came on/off only durring certain hours of the day now she is going to be here with me, nearly 24/7. I don’t know how this is going to turn out but i look forward to the outcomes.
oh yeah we went shoping the very same day, Oguigi was riding my shoping cart, so i had to place every item in the back, lol it looked kinda odd. She actually had alot of fun. Before we walked out of the store I Saw Two very Old Couple walking
Me: “Yup Oguigi that’s gonna be us”
Oguigi: “Yeah, but by the time we reach that age we’ll look twice as young”
Me: “why?”
Oguigi: “Technology!”
Me: “hmm yeah i guess that’s totally possible 60 years from now”
The rest of the day past by, relatively boring. For now on I’ll keep you up to date on progress on imposing sight.