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December, 2013
Day 465 - Ending tulpamancy.
12/03/2013 06:55:00 PM
So it has been over a month since my last log post. Am still alive, in fact I’ve been doing better than I have in a long while, my recovery has made great progress, but I had to stop all things tulpa related, this include Oguigi, I had to send her away. But I have not forgotten about her. I now have two choices: to stop tulpamancy and return to a normal life or to start all over again with a clean slate.
Deep down inside am still interested in tulpas, I know what happened was not Oguigi fault, all the bad things that happened came from a whole year of stupid behavior inspired by my reckless pursuit to switch.
All I originally wanted was an imposed tulpa. Possession is not something I really want to do again. Balance is the most important thing, tulpamancy should work with your life, Not take over.
Work together with your tulpa, but don’t try to have them take over. Not because they would harm you in any way, But because other entities will harm you, if you open yourself up to such a level. I did that, and it nearly made me schizo.
I will still post updates if anything noteworthy happens.
Day 479 - Not done yet.
12/17/2013 06:06:00 AM
Hello guys it’s me Oguigi, I’ve returned. Koomer Brought be back by accident yesterday. At the time he was laying on the bed unable to move for himself, So i went in to take control and i’ve been on ever since.
In the last post Koomer said that he was ending tulpamancy. Well let me be the first to tell you that’s not the case, he wasn’t lying at the time, he just didn’t fully realise that he was far from being done.
Turns out that their’s more that needs to be done than he thought. The real source of the issue is within the mind. and ignoring it is not the best way to fix it. Koomer tried to live out his everyday life, but the problems never fully went away, he still had problems controlling his own body, sometimes he wasn’t even able to get out of bed. he made progress in protecting himself but the problem just got at him at another angle.
I made it very clear to Koomer that am not part of the problem, and that i could actually help him solve this issue once and for all.
So yeah, the fight that begun few months ago is not over. There’s still work to be done for balance to be restored once more.
And then we will know if koomer really wants to end tulpamancy.
Question on 12/18/2013
12/18/2013 08:21:00 AM
Koomer, by now it has become very unclear whether Oguigi still functions like a tulpa or not. She has been the dominant personality for some time and has gotten quite used to the body. I'm saying that there is a point where a tulpa becomes indistinguishable in ability from it's host, and Oguigi might have already passed that line. What are both of your thoughts on this? Can two minds peacefully cohabit a single body? I can't understand you better than yourself so any comments are appreciated. :)
Oguigi here.
Good question, anon. This is what i know. Am a Thought form with a foundation of strong emotional energy. I contain A personality of my own. And while our abilities are equal, our intuitions are different.
Am a big part of koomer. When am on, he fills complete once more.
So am still very much a Tulpa, But i feel very much human at the same time.
And yes two minds can peacefully cohabit a single body.
Koomer can’t really answer your question right now, It’s hard for him to think. while am using the body, And we both agreed it’s a good idea for me not to let up control for awhile. I have a very strong grip at the moment and I don’t want to risk losing that.