covid burnout

Signed-off-by: Christine Dodrill <me@christine.website>

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+title: COVID Burnout
+date: 2021-09-25
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+
+NOTE: This was written out in
+[longhand](https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1441842150824718337?s=21)
+in my diary. This post was converted to text using iPadOS 15's handwriting to
+text recognition. I hope I have cleared up all of the major errors in the
+conversion. My handwriting is horrible.
+
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+
+I am an introvert. I usually spend a lot of time in my cave. most of my work was
+alreary done remotely, when I first found out about the COVID-19 pandemic, I
+thought there would be at most 4-8 weeks of hardcore lockdown and then it would
+die out. Then life would go back to normal and I would be able to see my friends
+at conventions during the summer.
+
+As of the time of writing this post, it is currently the 84th week OF COVID
+being a major presence in how I handle daily life. I am exhausted, I was
+scheduled to give talks at two conventions that were canceled, meet ups with
+friends at places across the us and Canada were postponed into oblivion. My
+relationship with my parents has fractured into no-contact. I feel powerless to
+do anything more to stop this.
+
+I am the most connected I have ever been and I am the lonliest I have ever been.
+Most of the people I talk to are people I have never met in person, even my
+coworkers. My manager is someone I talk with near daily yet have never seen
+without the aid of video conferencing.
+
+This is exhausting. I hate it. My Netflix queue is empty. I feel so alone.
+
+This post doesn't have a message or moral.