fix devshell

Signed-off-by: Xe Iaso <me@christine.website>

.envrc

@@ -1 +1 @@
-eval "$(lorri direnv)"
+use flake

.github/dependabot.yml

@@ -0,0 +1,53 @@
+version: 2
+updates:
+- package-ecosystem: cargo
+  directory: "/"
+  schedule:
+    interval: daily
+    time: "10:00"
+  open-pull-requests-limit: 10
+  ignore:
+  - dependency-name: tokio
+    versions:
+    - ">= 0.3.a, < 0.4"
+  - dependency-name: hyper
+    versions:
+    - 0.14.4
+    - 0.14.6
+  - dependency-name: serde_json
+    versions:
+    - 1.0.62
+    - 1.0.63
+    - 1.0.64
+  - dependency-name: tracing
+    versions:
+    - 0.1.24
+    - 0.1.25
+  - dependency-name: futures
+    versions:
+    - 0.3.12
+    - 0.3.13
+  - dependency-name: url
+    versions:
+    - 2.2.1
+  - dependency-name: thiserror
+    versions:
+    - 1.0.24
+  - dependency-name: tracing-futures
+    versions:
+    - 0.2.5
+  - dependency-name: serde
+    versions:
+    - 1.0.123
+  - dependency-name: rand
+    versions:
+    - 0.8.3
+  - dependency-name: log
+    versions:
+    - 0.4.14
+  - dependency-name: serde_yaml
+    versions:
+    - 0.8.16
+  - dependency-name: tokio
+    versions:
+    - 1.1.1

.gitignore

@@ -6,3 +6,5 @@ cw.tar
 /result
 .#*
 /target
+.patreon.json
+.direnv

Cargo.toml

@@ -1,7 +1,7 @@
 [package]
 name = "xesite"
-version = "2.3.0"
-authors = ["Christine Dodrill <me@christine.website>"]
+version = "2.4.0"
+authors = ["Xe Iaso <me@christine.website>"]
 edition = "2018"
 build = "src/build.rs"
 repository = "https://github.com/Xe/site"
@@ -9,21 +9,28 @@ repository = "https://github.com/Xe/site"
 # See more keys and their definitions at https://doc.rust-lang.org/cargo/reference/manifest.html
 
 [dependencies]
-color-eyre = "0.5"
+axum = "0.5"
+axum-macros = "0.2"
+axum-extra = "0.2"
+color-eyre = "0.6"
 chrono = "0.4"
-comrak = "0.10"
+comrak = "0.12.1"
+derive_more = "0.99"
 envy = "0.4"
+estimated_read_time = "1"
 futures = "0.3"
 glob = "0.3"
+http = "0.2"
+http-body = "0.4"
 hyper = "0.14"
 kankyo = "0.3"
 lazy_static = "1.4"
 log = "0.4"
 mime = "0.3.0"
-prometheus = { version = "0.12", default-features = false, features = ["process"] }
+prometheus = { version = "0.13", default-features = false, features = ["process"] }
 rand = "0"
 reqwest = { version = "0.11", features = ["json"] }
-serde_dhall = "0.10.0"
+serde_dhall = "0.11.0"
 serde = { version = "1", features = ["derive"] }
 serde_yaml = "0.8"
 sitemap = "0.4"
@@ -32,25 +39,31 @@ tokio = { version = "1", features = ["full"] }
 tokio-stream = { version = "0.1", features = ["net"] }
 tracing = "0.1"
 tracing-futures = "0.2"
-tracing-subscriber = { version = "0.2", features = ["fmt"] }
-warp = "0.3"
+tracing-subscriber = { version = "0.3", features = ["fmt"] }
 xml-rs = "0.8"
 url = "2"
 uuid = { version = "0.8", features = ["serde", "v4"] }
 
 # workspace dependencies
 cfcache = { path = "./lib/cfcache" }
-go_vanity = { path = "./lib/go_vanity" }
 jsonfeed = { path = "./lib/jsonfeed" }
 mi = { path = "./lib/mi" }
 patreon = { path = "./lib/patreon" }
 
+[dependencies.tower]
+version = "0.4"
+features = [ "full" ]
+
+[dependencies.tower-http]
+version = "0.2"
+features = [ "full" ]
+
 # os-specific dependencies
 [target.'cfg(target_os = "linux")'.dependencies]
-sdnotify = { version = "0.1", default-features = false }
+sdnotify = { version = "0.2", default-features = false }
 
 [build-dependencies]
-ructe = { version = "0.13", features = ["warp02"] }
+ructe = { version = "0.14", features = [ "mime03" ] }
 
 [dev-dependencies]
 pfacts = "0"

README.md

@@ -6,3 +6,28 @@ nix](https://builtwithnix.org/badge.svg)](https://builtwithnix.org)
 ![Rust](https://github.com/Xe/site/workflows/Rust/badge.svg)
 
 My personal/portfolio website.
+
+## <big>Information for people wishing to use this code</big>
+
+Don't. This code is not made for you to be able to use without extensive
+modification. The [license](https://github.com/Xe/site/blob/main/LICENSE) of
+this code is intentionally chosen in such a way that it will make reuse of this
+website code verbatim very difficult.
+
+If you are still adamant about using this backend, please keep several things in
+mind:
+
+1. All blog content is all rights reserved. I aggressively pursue and report
+   content theft.
+2. You _must_ fully comply with the license. I will aggressively pursue people
+   that are not in compliance with the license.
+3. You are on your own. I will not help you. This is code I made for myself and
+   it's only really open source as a side effect of making deployment on NixOS
+   easier. Please do not be the person that makes me have to take this repo
+   closed source.
+4. Upon security issues being found and remediated, you will not be notified
+   about issues or remediation instructions.
+
+This is probably not what you are looking for. Make your own website. Look into
+[Hugo](http://gohugo.io/) or [Zola](https://www.getzola.org/). They are going to
+be better maintained than this site will be.

VERSION

@@ -1 +0,0 @@
-2.1.0

blog/3d-printing-openscad-2022-03-28.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,93 @@
+---
+title: Compiling Code to Matter in My Living Room
+date: 2022-03-28
+tags:
+ - openscad
+ - 3dprinting
+---
+
+In a moment of weakness, my husband and I got a 3d printer. It's mostly been sitting around and not doing much since we got it, but recently I found a great use for it: I wanted a controller stand for my Valve Index controllers and VR full body trackers.
+
+After doing some digging on Thingiverse, I found [this stand](https://www.thingiverse.com/thing:4587097) that looked like it had promise. So I downloaded the model, sliced it and then sent it over to Kyubey:
+
+<blockquote class="twitter-tweet"><p lang="tl" dir="ltr">Kyuubey is happy <a href="https://t.co/atTLN8MSgc">pic.twitter.com/atTLN8MSgc</a></p>&mdash; Xe Iaso (@theprincessxena) <a href="https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1507485129907871747?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">March 25, 2022</a></blockquote> <script async src="https://platform.twitter.com/widgets.js" charset="utf-8"></script>
+
+[Kyubey's name is a reference to <a href="https://madoka.fandom.com/wiki/Kyubey">Kyubey</a> from Puella Magi Madoka Magika</a>.](conversation://Mara/hacker)
+
+Once it was done I ended up with a stand that I could feed [these cables I got from Amazon](https://www.amazon.ca/gp/product/B09LSF8XL9/) through. The tracker holes worked great, but the controller holes were just barely too small.
+
+This was kinda frustrating and I almost gave up on the project, but then I remembered that [OpenSCAD](https://openscad.org) existed. OpenSCAD is a weird programming environment / 3D modeling hybrid program that I've seen used on Thingiverse. It works by letting you position platonic solids into a 3d environment, and from there you can create anything you want.
+
+One of the primitives that OpenSCAD offers is a cylinder. So I wondered if I could use one of those to widen the hole in the index stand and then reprint the part with the wider hole.
+
+[Wait, you're using a CAD program to fix your 3D print by modifying the model instead of using, I don't know, a drill and 5 minutes to make it fit that way?](conversation://Numa/dismay)
+
+[There's no doing like overdoing!](conversation://Cadey/enby)
+
+After some finangling, I managed to get the cylinders in the right place with this OpenSCAD code:
+
+```scad
+//difference() {
+    color("magenta") translate([0, 0, 0]) import("./assets/ValveTrackerDeckEditedByInugoro.stl");
+    // bores for controller holders
+    color([0, 1, 0]) translate([63, 44, 0]) cylinder(h = 55, r = 4.75);
+    color([0, 1, 0]) translate([-63, 44, 0]) cylinder(h = 55, r = 4.75);
+//}
+```
+
+<blockquote class="twitter-tweet"><p lang="en" dir="ltr">Some finagling required <a href="https://t.co/7T0R6x1XoP">pic.twitter.com/7T0R6x1XoP</a></p>&mdash; Xe Iaso (@theprincessxena) <a href="https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1508566854926745614?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">March 28, 2022</a></blockquote> <script async src="https://platform.twitter.com/widgets.js" charset="utf-8"></script>
+
+And when I uncommented out the `difference()` block, it ends up looking good enough:
+
+<blockquote class="twitter-tweet" data-conversation="none" data-dnt="true"><p lang="und" dir="ltr"><a href="https://t.co/fiShvlN8QH">pic.twitter.com/fiShvlN8QH</a></p>&mdash; Xe Iaso (@theprincessxena) <a href="https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1508567556759728141?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">March 28, 2022</a></blockquote> <script async src="https://platform.twitter.com/widgets.js" charset="utf-8"></script>
+
+So then I took a good solid look at the rest of the 3D printed part to see if I could improve on anything else before I sent it to another round of the printer. The last stand took _14 hours_ to print and used a lot of material. I want to avoid waste.
+
+Something I noticed is that the front of the print where all the cables come out was a bit too thin. All 5 of the cables wouldn't fit in there (my braided cables must have been thicker than the ones that the original modeler used). So again I grabbed a few platonic solids and managed to make it work out:
+
+```scad
+// widen the paths
+color("green") translate([0, -16, 1.3]) rotate([0, 0, 90]) cube([10, 57, 7.8], center = true);
+color("green") translate([0, 0, 1.7]) rotate([0, 0, 0]) cube([25, 30, 7], center = true);
+```
+
+<blockquote class="twitter-tweet" data-conversation="none" data-dnt="true"><p lang="und" dir="ltr"><a href="https://t.co/pKAVtiPfDS">pic.twitter.com/pKAVtiPfDS</a></p>&mdash; Xe Iaso (@theprincessxena) <a href="https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1508568858650685440?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">March 28, 2022</a></blockquote> <script async src="https://platform.twitter.com/widgets.js" charset="utf-8"></script>
+
+Then I wanted to add some wedges into the underside of the part to help me get the print off the bed. Most people have a problem with bed adhesion being too little. I have too much bed adhesion. So I added some angled rectangles:
+
+```scad
+// wedges to help get the print off the bed
+color([1, 1, 0]) translate([-120, 0, 0]) rotate([15, 0, 90]) cube([10, 11, 2], center = true); // right
+color([1, 1, 0]) translate([120, 0, 0]) rotate([-15, 0, 90]) cube([10, 11, 2], center = true); // left
+color([1, 1, 0]) translate([0, -85, 0]) rotate([0, 15, 90]) cube([10, 11, 2], center = true); // back
+color([1, 1, 0]) translate([60, 56, 1]) rotate([0, -15, 90]) cube([10, 11, 2], center = true); // front left
+color([1, 1, 0]) translate([-60, 56, 1]) rotate([0, -15, 90]) cube([10, 11, 2], center = true); // front right
+color([1, 1, 0]) translate([32.5, 41, 1]) rotate([0, -15, 130]) cube([10, 11, 2], center = true); // front left inner
+color([1, 1, 0]) translate([-32.5, 41, 1]) rotate([0, -15, 60]) cube([10, 11, 2], center = true); // front right inner
+```
+
+<blockquote class="twitter-tweet" data-conversation="none" data-dnt="true"><p lang="und" dir="ltr"><a href="https://t.co/XUQ9ZeYk1H">pic.twitter.com/XUQ9ZeYk1H</a></p>&mdash; Xe Iaso (@theprincessxena) <a href="https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1508569796253827077?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">March 28, 2022</a></blockquote> <script async src="https://platform.twitter.com/widgets.js" charset="utf-8"></script>
+
+And then once I spun it around for a bit and thought it was good, I sliced it in PrusaSlicer and sent it off to Kyubey. It was going to take 14 hours, so I went off to do other things, ate dinner and then went to bed while the printer continued.
+
+<blockquote class="twitter-tweet" data-conversation="none" data-dnt="true"><p lang="fr" dir="ltr">Diligent bean <a href="https://t.co/yPgnJA0ZdW">pic.twitter.com/yPgnJA0ZdW</a></p>&mdash; Xe Iaso (@theprincessxena) <a href="https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1508397506031460352?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">March 28, 2022</a></blockquote> <script async src="https://platform.twitter.com/widgets.js" charset="utf-8"></script>
+
+Then when I woke up, Kyubey was done:
+
+<blockquote class="twitter-tweet" data-conversation="none" data-dnt="true"><p lang="und" dir="ltr"><a href="https://t.co/2E1IS810EH">pic.twitter.com/2E1IS810EH</a></p>&mdash; Xe Iaso (@theprincessxena) <a href="https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1508407046995156992?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">March 28, 2022</a></blockquote> <script async src="https://platform.twitter.com/widgets.js" charset="utf-8"></script>
+
+I was excited and chiseled the print off the bed (the wedges helped a little, but it ended up making the print look kinda weird so I don't know if I will do that again), but the hole for the middle tracker didn't fit perfectly. Everything else did though.
+
+[If you want to get prints off your printer easier, see this video for the method we're starting to use: <br /><br /><iframe width="560" height="315" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/VCCbzCvtRzU" title="YouTube video player" frameborder="0" allow="accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture" allowfullscreen></iframe>](conversation://Mara/hacker)
+
+I looked on my desk and found that a random pen that I had sitting around for months was about the right size, so I pushed it into and out of the hole a few times and then the cables fit perfectly. I assume some plastic was in a weird state or something.
+
+Then I set everything up and I had my Index controller stand:
+
+<blockquote class="twitter-tweet" data-conversation="none" data-dnt="true"><p lang="en" dir="ltr">Victory! <a href="https://t.co/A3aCtQMQt5">pic.twitter.com/A3aCtQMQt5</a></p>&mdash; Xe Iaso (@theprincessxena) <a href="https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1508426229464064001?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">March 28, 2022</a></blockquote> <script async src="https://platform.twitter.com/widgets.js" charset="utf-8"></script>
+
+[I really need to get a table or something for this.](conversation://Cadey/facepalm)
+
+I've uploaded my modified version to [Thingiverse](https://www.thingiverse.com/thing:5332988). If you want to see the OpenSCAD code, you can check it out on GitHub [here](https://github.com/Xe/3dstuff/blob/main/index_stand_hack.scad). I'm really liking OpenSCAD so far. It's very weird but it lets you do whatever you want by chaining together basic shapes to build up to what you want. I imagine I will be using it a lot in the future, especially once my husband's new sim racing gear comes in.
+
+Having a 3D printer around is like having a very weird superpower on standby. You can compile matter in your living room, but you need a very pedantic description of what that should look like. You also can have any material you like as long as it's plastic. However when it's useful, it's a lifesaver. You can make something to fit a gap or mend something broken or even add functionality to something that lacked it. The cloud's the limit!

blog/7e-2020-12-20.markdown

@@ -5,8 +5,6 @@ tags:
  - ttrpg
 ---
 
-# The 7th Edition
-
 You know what, fuck rules. Fuck systems. Fuck limitations. Let's dial the
 tabletop RPG system down to its roots. Let's throw out every stat but one:
 Awesomeness. When you try to do something that could fail, roll for Awesomeness.

blog/OVE-20190623-0001.markdown

@@ -7,8 +7,6 @@ tags:
  - release
 ---
 
-# OVE-20190623-0001
-
 ## Within Security Advisory
 
 Root-level Remote Command Injection in the [V](https://vlang.io) playground (OVE-20190623-0001)

blog/OVE-20191021-0001.markdown

@@ -9,8 +9,6 @@ tags:
  - oh-dear-god
 ---
 
-# OVE-20191021-0001
-
 ## Within Security Advisory
 
 Multiple vulnerabilities in the mysqljs API and code.

blog/TLDR-rust-2020-09-19.markdown

@@ -7,8 +7,6 @@ tags:
   - golang
 ---
 
-# TL;DR Rust
-
 Recently I've been starting to use Rust more and more for larger and larger
 projects. As things have come up, I realized that I am missing a good reference
 for common things in Rust as compared to Go. This post contains a quick

blog/a-letter-to-those-that-bullied-me-2018-06-16.markdown

@@ -6,8 +6,6 @@ tags:
  - offmychest
 ---
 
-# A Letter to Those Who Bullied Me
-
 Hey,
 
 I'm not angry at you. I don't want to propagate hate. In a way, I almost feel like I should be thanking you for the contributions you've made in making me into the person I am today. Without you all, I would have had a completely different outcome in life. I would have stayed in the closet for good like I had planned. I would have probably ended up boring. I would have never met my closest friends and some even more.

blog/a-sigil-2022-01-11.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,45 @@
+---
+title: "Site Update: A Sigil"
+date: 2022-01-11
+---
+
+<style>
+.logo-wumbo {
+    background-color: #fdf5d7;
+    -webkit-mask: url("/static/img/xeiaso.svg");
+    -webkit-mask-repeat: no-repeat;
+    -webkit-mask-size: 100%;
+    mask: url("/static/img/xeiaso.svg");
+    mask-repeat: no-repeat;
+    mask-size: 100%;
+    width: 9.5em;
+    height: 16em;
+    display: inline-block;
+}
+
+@media (prefers-color-scheme: light) {
+    .logo-wumbo {
+        background-color: #1d2021;
+    }
+}
+</style>
+
+The upper left-hand corner of my website has gotten more interesting as of
+recently. I have decided to experiment with adding an SVG icon to the upper left
+hand corner of the page.
+
+This is the sigilized form of the name `Xe Iaso`. This sigil is equivalent in
+meaning and semantics to the name `Xe Iaso`. Here is a version of it in a much
+bigger size:
+
+<center><span class="logo-wumbo"></span></center>
+
+[Fun fact: the sigil is written using <a
+href="https://greggshorthand.github.io/index.html">Gregg Shorthand</a>. It says
+the phonetic equivalent of `Xe Iaso`.](conversation://Mara/hacker)
+
+I have tested this in Edge on Linux, Firefox on Linux, Chrome on Android and
+Safari on iOS. This should cover most of the big web browsers, but surely I've
+missed something. If you use a _modern release_ of a _standards compliant_ web
+browser and you don't see a logo anywhere on the page, please let me know so I
+can go cry and then hopefully fix the issue.

blog/a-tool-to-aid-forgetfulness-2022-01-12.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,27 @@
+---
+title: A Tool to Aid Forgetfulness
+date: 2022-01-12
+series: stories
+---
+
+The Egyptian God Thoth lived in the Egyptian city of Naucratis. Thoth was the
+inventor of many arts such as math and astronomy, but the most significant was
+the invention of writing. Thoth showed writing to the king of Egypt, claiming
+that it would make Egyptians wiser and give them better memories; that it it
+would vastly improve both the memory and the wit of the Egyptian people.
+
+The king replied: "Thoth, you invented this tool. As such you are not the best
+one to judge such things. You have not created a tool to aid memory, you have
+created a tool to aid forgetfulness. Learners will not use their memories, they
+will blindly trust these sigils and not remember for themselves.
+
+"You have discovered an aid to vague recollection, as the users of this tool
+will not be given truth. They will only be given a semblance of truth.
+
+"They will be hearers of many things and learners of nothing. They will appear
+to know all the knowledge of the world yet when asked they will only be the
+middleman to external forces that are trusted without verification. They will
+know wisdom, but not truth."
+
+Adapted from The Dialogues of Plato in Five Volumes, 3rd ed. Oxford
+University, 1892. Vol. 1 pp. 483-489.

blog/a-trip-into-freebsd-2021-02-13.markdown

@@ -5,8 +5,6 @@ tags:
  - freebsd
 ---
 
-# A Trip into FreeBSD
-
 I normally deal with Linux machines. Linux is what I know and it's what I've
 been using since I was in college. A friend of mine has been coaxing me into
 trying out [FreeBSD](https://www.freebsd.org), and I decided to try it out and

blog/aegis-prometheus-2021-04-05.markdown

@@ -6,8 +6,6 @@ tags:
  - o11y
 ---
 
-# Prometheus and Aegis
-
 [*Last time in the christine dot website cinematic
 universe:*](https://christine.website/blog/unix-domain-sockets-2021-04-01) 
 

blog/all-there-is-is-now-2019-05-25.markdown

@@ -4,8 +4,6 @@ date: 2019-05-25
 series: dreams
 ---
 
-# All There is is Now
-
 The dream scenario was going on for a while uneventfully. I saw an old man walking around and ranting about things. I decided to go and talk with him.
 
 "You fools! Time doesn't exist! The past is immutable! Don't worry about your trivial daily needs. All there is is Now!"

blog/anathema-2019-10-21.markdown

@@ -7,8 +7,6 @@ tags:
  - makes-u-thonk
 ---
 
-# Outsider Art and Anathema
-
 This was going to be a post about [Urbit][urbit] at first; but in the process of discussing about my interest in writing something _positive_ about it, I was warned by a few people that this was a Bad Idea. I was focusing purely on the technical side of it and how closely it implemented a concept called [liquid software][liquidsoftware], but from what people were saying, it seemed like a creation that was spoiled by something outside of it, specifically the creator's political views (of which I had little idea at the time).
 
 As much as I will probably return to the original concept in the future with another post, this feels like something I had to address first.

blog/android-thoughts-2021-07-03.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,127 @@
+---
+date: 2021-07-03
+title: My Thoughts About Using Android Again as an iPhone User
+tags:
+ - android
+ - iphone
+author: ectamorphic
+---
+
+I used to be a hardcore Android user. It was my second major kind of smartphone
+(the first was Windows Mobile 6.1 on a T-Mobile Dash) and it left me hooked to
+the concept of smartphones and connected tech in general. I've used many Android
+phones over the years but one day I rage-switched over to an iPhone. My Samsung
+Galaxy S7 pissed me off for the last time and I went to the Apple store and
+bought an iPhone 7 on the spot. I popped my sim card into it (after a lovely
+meal at Panda Express) and I was off to the races. I haven't really used Android
+since other than in little stints with devices like the Amazon Fire 7 (because
+it was so darn cheap).
+
+Recently I realized that it would be very easy to package up my website for the
+Google Play Store using [pwabuilder](https://www.pwabuilder.com/). I've been
+shipping my site as a progressive web app (PWA) for years (and use that PWA for
+testing how the site looks on my phone), but aside from the occasional confused
+screenshot that's been tweeted at me I've never actually made much use of this.
+It does do an additional level of caching (which is why you can load a bunch of
+pages on the site, disconnect from the internet and then still browse those
+pages that you loaded like you were online) though, which helps a lot with the
+bandwidth cost of this site.
+
+So, I decided to ship this site as an Android app. You can download it from the
+Google Play Store
+[here](https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=website.christine.xesite)
+and get a partially native experience. It worked perfectly in the Android
+emulator but you really need to experience it on a phone to know for sure. On a
+whim I grabbed a [Moto g8
+Power](https://www.gsmarena.com/motorola_moto_g8_power-10052.php) from Amazon
+and then I used it for the final testing on the app before I shipped it on the
+Google Play store. I unboxed the phone, set it up, plugged it into my MacBook
+and then hit "run" in Android Studio. The app installed instantly and I saw [the
+homepage for my site](https://cdn.christine.website/file/christine-static/blog/Screenshot_20210703-101654.png).
+
+It was a magical experience. Me, someone that has no idea what they are doing
+with Android app development was able to take an existing project I've poured
+years of work into and make it work on a phone like a native app. I literally
+just had the phone barely out of the box and my code was running natively on it.
+I don't have to worry about the app timing out, I don't have to pay Google money
+to test things on my own device, I just hit play and it runs.
+
+This is the kind of developer experience I wish I could have on iOS. I used to
+have a paid developer cert for resigning a few personally hacked up apps, but
+when I moved to Canada and changed over my cards to have Canadian billing
+addresses I lost the ability to purchase a renewal for my developer certificate.
+I _can_ change my Apple account over to a Canadian one but doing that means I
+have to delete my Apple Music subscription and that would delete all of the
+custom uploaded music I have in the cloud. I have more music up there than I
+have disk space locally, so this is not really a viable option.
+
+Meanwhile on Android you just open the box, turn the phone on, set it up, press
+on the build number 10 times, enable USB debugging, plug it in, confirm debug
+access and bam, you're in. You can test an unlimited number of Android apps
+forever. I can give the APK to people and then they can tell me if it works on
+their device. You cannot do this on iOS. It's making me really consider if iOS
+really is the best option for me going forward.
+
+But then the claws of the Apple ecosystem show their face. I have an iPad,
+MacBook Air, Apple Watch, iPhone and AirPods. If I end up switching to Android
+as my main phone I make my watch significantly less useful. I won't have the
+seamless notification syncing to my wrist unless I buy a new watch. I don't
+really know if I want to do that.
+
+At the same time though, Android lets me poke around and change things that
+bother me. I can make animations faster, which makes the phone _feel_ so much
+more snappy and responsive. I can rip out Chrome and replace it with something
+else. I can choose which app to use for text messages. I have _agency_ and
+_power_ over my experience in ways that iOS simply cannot match. As a tinkerer
+that mains a NixOS tower this is a huge factor for me. And then I'm able to test
+my apps for free. I can just do it. I don't have to worry about dev certs,
+licenses or anything else. I just put the app on the phone and I'm done.
+
+Android's UX is a lot different than it was when I used it last. The last
+Android phone I used had hardware home, menu and back buttons. This Moto g8
+Power seems to have some kind of gesture control mode that mostly emulates
+modern iPhone gesture controls, so my muscle memory isn't totally freaked out.
+It was a bit more sensitive than I would have liked out of the box, but I was
+easily able to tweak the sensitivity until I got to a level I was comfortable
+with. This would have never been able to happen on iOS.
+
+I guess this post is a lot more rambly and less focused than I thought it would
+be while I was outlining it on paper. I didn't go into this expecting a 1:1
+experience matchup with what I have on iOS. This phone is not nearly powerful
+enough to make them comparable, however I can easily just pick it up, do what I
+need and it does it. I'm considering getting a burner sim for this thing so I
+can take it with me instead of (or in addition to) my iPhone. The camera is
+decent, but I don't really have any good comparison shots yet. Android and iOS
+are at a state of convergent evolution at this point. They both do about the
+same things. Android is more easily customizeable and iOS is more about a guided
+experience. Neither is really "better" at this point, but I guess it really will
+boil down to the ecosystem you want.
+
+Apple's walled garden approach has a lot of
+things in its favor. You can buy accessories from the Apple Store and they will
+just work. You can seamlessly copy things from your phone to your tablet or your
+laptop. iCloud and Airdrop glue your machines together, and in the future I can
+only anticipate that each of those devices will get more and more muddled
+together until there's not really a difference between them. Android has a lot
+of options. There's over 15,000 Android devices out there with official Google
+Play support. They're all at different patch states and have different gimmicks
+to distinguish them, but you have an unparalleled amount of choice and agency.
+This means that there's less of a consistent total experience, however it leaves
+a lot of room for experimentation and innovation.
+
+I like this phone and the instance of Android that runs on it. The only real
+downside I've seen so far is that the update notes are in Spanish. I have no
+idea why they're in Spanish, I don't speak Spanish and the phone's UI language
+is set to English, but I get ["Seguridad de
+Android"](https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1411072416986587138/photo/1)
+patches on it and that's my life now.
+
+A lot of the Airdrop and integration features I've been missing have been
+supplemented by [Taildrop](https://tailscale.com/kb/1106/taildrop/) and
+Tailscale in general. It's really satisfying to be able to work for a company
+that makes the annoyingly hard problem of "make computers talk to eachother" so
+_trivial_.
+
+Overall, it's a 7/10 experience for me. I'd likely choose Android if I wasn't so
+entrenched in the Apple/iOS ecosystem. If only it wasn't so tied into Google's
+fangs.

blog/animal-crossing-stability-2021-02-28.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,10 @@
+---
+title: "Animal Crossing New Horizons: An Island of Stability in an Unstable World"
+date: 2021-02-28
+tags:
+ - link
+redirect_to: https://www.getrevue.co/profile/theprincessxena/issues/animal-crossing-new-horizons-an-island-of-stability-in-an-unstable-world-313933
+---
+
+Check out this post [on my
+newsletter](https://www.getrevue.co/profile/theprincessxena/issues/animal-crossing-new-horizons-an-island-of-stability-in-an-unstable-world-313933)!

blog/apple-macbook-air-m1-review-2021-02-15.markdown

@@ -6,8 +6,6 @@ tags:
  - aarch64
 ---
 
-# The Worst Experience I've Had With an aarch64 MacBook
-
 I've had my hands on this M1 MacBook Air for a few weeks now and I have gotten a
 lot of opinions about it. I wanted to go over them and give my thoughts. This is
 an amazing laptop. Its battery life is iPad tier. I can run iPad and iPhone apps

blog/atom-as-vim-2014-11-18.markdown

@@ -7,9 +7,6 @@ tags:
  - vim
 ---
 
-My Experience with Atom as A Vim User
-=====================================
-
 Historically, I am a Vim user. People know me as a very very heavy vim
 user. I have spent almost the last two years customizing [my .vimrc
 file](https://github.com/Xe/dotfiles/blob/master/.vimrc) and I have parts 

blog/backslash-kubernetes-2021-01-03.markdown

@@ -1,10 +1,8 @@
 ---
-title: "</kubernetes>"
+title: "Goodbye Kubernetes"
 date: 2021-01-03
 ---
 
-# &lt;/kubernetes&gt;
-
 Well, since I posted [that last post](/blog/k8s-pondering-2020-12-31) I have had
 an adventure. A good friend pointed out a server host that I had missed when I
 was looking for other places to use, and now I have migrated my blog to this new

blog/beauty-in-ugly-2018-04-23.markdown

@@ -6,8 +6,6 @@ tags:
  - shell
 ---
 
-# The Beautiful in the Ugly
-
 Functional programming is nice and all, but sometimes you just need to have
 things get done regardless of the consequences. Sometimes a dirty little hack
 will suffice in place of a branching construct. This is a story of one of these

blog/beego-2014-11-28.markdown

@@ -6,9 +6,6 @@ tags:
  - beego
 ---
 
-Web Application Development with Beego
-======================================
-
 Beego is a fantastic web application framework from the Go China
 community. It currently powers some of the biggest websites in China,
 and thus the world.

blog/best-friend-imaginary-bottle-window-cleaner-2021-09-24.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,191 @@
+---
+title: "My Next Life as an Imaginary Bottle of Window Cleaner"
+date: 2021-09-24
+author: Mai
+tags:
+ - isekai
+ - fiction
+---
+
+Today was another boring day, like all the other boring days. I was almost done
+with my commute to the office, not looking forward to spending another day
+working on the same spreadsheet. I don't believe in monsters, ghosts or spirits,
+but I do believe that thing is haunted.
+
+"Next stop is Broughton Junction, end of the line!"
+
+That was my stop. I thought I got it easy by getting an apartment right next to
+the train, but I never thought that my job would move so far away. I got up with
+the others and walked my way to the exit of the station. The crowd was lifeless
+and dead today. The usual morning rush of the station I got on the train at had
+turned into a lazy slump towards the exit.
+
+The only solace from these doldrums was the barista at the coffee shop by the
+doors. She had such a lovely smile; sometimes it was the only thing that kept me
+going. _I wonder what her name is_, I thought to myself as I breached the
+darkness of the station and was enveloped in the light of the outside world.
+Nubypool was the financial hub of the province. My work was in the Ministry of
+Accounting, taming the beast that was their spreadsheets. As I walked towards
+the entrance of the building I looked around, seeing the gray, drab skyscrapers
+around me sully the lively deep blue above them.
+
+I crossed the street and walked to the double doors, but then there was a noise.
+I looked up and saw something falling towards me, then suddenly there was a loud
+noise and everything went dark.
+
+The darkness persisted for a while, I couldn't touch, see or hear myself. I was
+alone in a silent hell with only my thoughts to break the sheer emptiness of it
+all. Suddenly, it hit me. _I'm dead, aren't I? I'm never going to get that
+barista's number, am I?_
+
+A noise filled my awareness. I couldn't recognize it, but it came with a
+friendly presence. It felt like my best friend, mother, and more all in one. I
+felt like I knew this person intimately even though we had never spoken before.
+I could pick out that there were words, but nothing usable other than that.
+
+The words stopped after a while, and that was the saddest part of the whole
+thing. I was so alone without the words, but I didn't feel like I had any
+control over when they started. They started and stopped without any indication
+of where or when they were coming from.
+
+Then they started again and I knew that I needed to capitalize on this. The
+voice was going to go away if I didn't do anything about it. All I could do was
+think, so I decided to think as loud and hard as I could. I screamed in my mind.
+I would have woke the neighbors if this was in the apartment back home. Those
+thin walls would have made the entire floor wake up. I shouted and shouted like
+my life depended on it. As I shouted and screamed the darkness started to gain
+color. There was a small pinhole of light that expanded and filled my awareness
+until it grew to everywhere I could see. _Is this reincarnation?_
+
+As if a blindfold had been lifted, I could finally get to see myself in some
+level of detail. I looked down and all I saw was a bright poster with what
+looked like words on it. I looked behind me and I saw what appeared to be a
+poster with more smaller words. I looked to the sides and saw what appeared to
+be clear plastic with a blue liquid in it.
+
+I started panicking. I didn't know what was going on. _Aren't I supposed to be
+some kind of animal? Why am I this?_
+
+The voice started again, a lot more clearly. I could pick out the words: "So
+_that's_ why they call it a 'head pressure'! Wow I don't even know how to
+describe this feeling other than that!"
+
+I looked ahead and I saw a young boy, something like 18 years old. I was in some
+kind of small apartment. There was a ritual circle of some kind, I was right in
+the middle of it. Looking around there was a pentagram made out of a white and
+blue powder, cards I've never seen before and a bottle of red liquid. There was
+a mirror to the side of me though. I took a long and detailed look at myself.
+
+I saw an orange nozzle look back at me. There was what appeared to be a handle
+under the nozzle, looking like it was screwed on top of a bottle of...
+
+_No, this can't be!_
+
+It was screwed on top of a bottle of window cleaner.
+
+"I'M A BOTTLE OF WINDOW CLEANER????"
+
+The boy in front of me winced and grunted, my shouting must have hurt him. I
+suddenly got a feeling of fear washing over me. I felt the tip of my nozzle
+screw itself shut and my self-image vanished from the mirror. Had I interrupted
+the ritual?
+
+The boy composed himself and looked down at me. "So, you're the succubus I
+summoned? What's wrong with you?"
+
+"S...succubus? I'm not a succubus, I could swear that a few days ago I was...
+well not this. I don't know what I am other than apparently..."
+
+I tried to gesture at my own body but only ended up making my handle flail about
+meaninglessly, spraying a bit of blue fluid out of my nozzle. It felt like it
+had come out of my mouth. It had no taste initially, but it left a slightly sour
+taste after a moment.
+
+"A bottle of window cleaner??"
+
+"...What. How did this happen?"
+
+"Why are you asking me? You apparently summoned me. What did you expect to get?"
+
+The boy looked at me like I had lobsters crawling out of my ears. Assuming I had
+ears that were big enough for lobsters crawling out of them that is.
+
+"I...what...how...okay"
+
+There was suddenly a knock at the door. "SHIT!", the boy said to himself without
+saying it. He started scrambling around and frantically trying to clean things.
+
+He swept up the white powder and put away the playing cards, but try as he might
+he couldn't grab me to put me away. His hand phased through me like I wasn't
+there. He got up and let the other person in. It was a pizza delivery person.
+The boy handed over some money and then took the pizza and placed it on top of a
+clear spot of his desk.
+
+I suddenly found myself on top of a metal surface. I could feel something
+spinning under me and heard the soft hum of an idle fan. I had just teleported
+across the room. "W..what, why am I here?"
+
+"I didn't...know that would do anything. I thought it would be nice if you were
+on top of my computer and you just appeared there." Another knock came at the
+door. There was a female voice.
+
+"Shit, play it cool."
+
+"I don't know how I can do anything other than what I am doing now, but okay."
+
+A woman entered the room. She appeared to be in a very skimpy outfit, showing
+off her curves. She also seemed to have a pair of demonic looking wings that she
+let open in the middle of the room. The boy awkwardly made conversation with her
+for a while. I tried to get the boy's attention by spraying at him. I definitely
+got his attention. "What're you looking at, roomie? Aren't you gonna give your
+poor roomie some pizza?"
+
+I didn't think she could see me. I tried spraying more. The boy looked over at
+me angrily. "Cut it out bottle, I'll throw you out with the trash if you keep
+that up!"
+
+"What are you talking about? I'm not a bottle, I'm hungry." She walked over to
+the pizza and grabbed a slice, pushing the boy into his desk. She looked dead at
+me when she had her slice. I don't think she saw me. She turned around and
+bumped one of her wings into the boy, causing them to fall off. "Nooo! My
+costume!"
+
+"That's what you get for wearing a succubus costume in a dorm hall."
+
+She stuck her tongue out sarcastically at the boy and picked up her wing. "Okay
+sarcasm boy, you're gonna help me get this on~. If you do I may have a fun time
+planned for you~."
+
+"I know what you're planning Mike. I'm not going to bang you. We agreed that I
+wouldn't before you did this."
+
+"No fun."
+
+Her name is _Mike_? I thought about it and decided that it was better to leave
+things be.
+
+"Hey, dude, I don't really know what's going on. Where am I? Who am I? What am
+I? Are you just gonna keep me in the dark about all of this?" I tried to direct
+this to the boy with a burst of energy, spraying him to be sure I got his
+attention.
+
+He looked over at me like I was cock-blocking him. I felt myself blush and
+backed off. It looks like there would be plenty of time later to get those
+questions answered.
+
+"Hey Conner, when are you going to get into your costume? Did the ritual I gave
+you work?"
+
+"Yeah...about that..."
+
+---
+
+Elsewhere at a random cleaning product factory, it was business as usual. The
+production lines were running smoothly. The trucks of cleaner continued as
+normal and every bottle was being filled at the normal rate.
+
+A woman in a skimpy outfit suddenly appeared on the production line, causing one
+of the workers to hit the "emergency stop" button. The woman had a demonic aura
+about her. Her bewitching gaze stunned the factory floor. She got off the
+production line and walked out of the building, with that worker in tow;
+seemingly enamored with her. _This is going to be fun~_, she thought to herself.

blog/blind-men-and-an-elephant-2018-11-29.markdown

@@ -4,8 +4,6 @@ date: 2018-11-29
 series: conlangs
 ---
 
-# Blind Men and an Elephant
-
 or
 
 # le'i ka na viska kakne ku e le xanto

blog/blog-feature-art-gallery-2019-11-01.markdown

@@ -7,8 +7,6 @@ tags:
  - 100th-post
 ---
 
-# Blog Feature: Art Gallery
-
 I have just implemented support for my portfolio site to also function as an art
 gallery. See all of my posted art [here](/gallery).
 

blog/borg-backup-2021-01-09.markdown

@@ -7,8 +7,6 @@ tags:
   - borgbackup
 ---
 
-# How to Set Up Borg Backup on NixOS
-
 [Borg Backup](https://www.borgbackup.org/) is a encrypted, compressed,
 deduplicated backup program for multiple platforms including Linux. This
 combined with the [NixOS options for configuring

blog/brain-fmri-to-3d-model-2019-08-23.markdown

@@ -7,8 +7,6 @@ tags:
  - blender
 ---
 
-# How I Converted my Brain fMRI to a 3D Model
-
 AUTHOR'S NOTE: I just want to start this out by saying I am not an expert, and
 nothing in this blogpost should be construed as medical advice. I just wanted 
 to see what kind of pretty pictures I could get out of an fMRI data file.

blog/broken-database-schemas-2022-01-10.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,105 @@
+---
+title: You Win, Broken Database Schemas
+date: 2022-01-10
+tags: 
+  - rant
+---
+
+There is [no software that correctly handles
+names](https://www.kalzumeus.com/2010/06/17/falsehoods-programmers-believe-about-names/)
+that exists on this planet. One of the major things I have bashed my head into
+as of late is the assumption that people have a first and a last name. The first
+name is usually what identifies the person, and the last name usually identifies
+the family.
+
+I have wanted to use `Xe` as my name places (no last name, like Socrates), but
+everyone has broken database schemas that make it impossible. These schemas
+usually look like this:
+
+```sql
+CREATE TABLE IF NOT EXISTS people
+  ( id          VARCHAR  PRIMARY KEY  DEFAULT (uuid4())
+  , first_name  VARCHAR  NOT NULL
+  , last_name   VARCHAR  NOT NULL
+  -- draw the rest of the owl
+  );
+```
+
+And as a result things like `Xe` (no last name) cannot fit into this schema. I
+have found out the depth of this shitshow while trying to use my handle as my
+name on newly registered account things and the amount of stuff that breaks or
+works in weird ways is _staggering_. Email salutations look like this:
+
+> Hello Xe ,
+
+Forms will break if I don't put a last name in the field. The assumptions about
+names are _so deep_ that it's rapidly becoming not worth it to only have my name
+as `Xe`. Not to mention [overzealous journalists that will argue with you over
+what your name is due to name
+collisions](https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1479197000667181061?s=20).
+
+You win, broken database schemas. I give up trying to deal with you to encode my
+name correctly. You just don't let me and I am tired of fighting it, opening
+support tickets and arguing with people over what my name is. I give in. I'm
+going to use a last name for my handle, which is absolutely ridiculous, but here
+we are.
+
+It took me a few hours to dig through ideas over the weekend and today, but I
+think I have found something satisfactory enough that I can keep it for the long
+haul: [Iaso](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Iaso) (ai-uh-so, /aɪ.ə.soʊ/), the
+minor Greek goddess of recovering from illness.
+
+Hopefully I don't have to deal with professional issues as a result of me trying
+to be more true to myself about my identity. At the very least I want very
+little to do with the last name that I was born into. Some day that name will be
+removed from the last database with it set, but today is not that day.
+
+If you work on systems that handle names, please, please, please take the time
+to reconsider if you actually need to deal with a last name for more reason than
+it's the cultural standard. There are valid reasons to have a mononym, and by
+supporting mononyms you will make people's lives easier.
+
+Until then, I am `Xe Iaso`. Let's see where this phase of the identity
+experiment goes. It's still really complicated. Anyone who claims to have their
+identity figured out is either in denial or stopped digging into it for the time
+being. The rabbit hole truly never ends.
+
+The main thing I don't like about this name is how ambiguous it shows up in
+sans-serif fonts:
+
+<div style="font-family:sans-serif">
+
+Xe Iaso
+
+</div>
+
+It looks like `Xe laso`. I've edited my email signature to try and compensate
+for this:
+
+```
+Xe Iaso (zi ai-uh-so)
+https://christine.website
+
+.i la budza pu cusku lu
+ <<.i ko snura .i ko kanro
+   .i ko panpi .i ko gleki
+```
+
+Let's see if that helps. It will probably look bad when things are put into
+sans-serif fonts, but what can you do lol.
+
+---
+
+Also I would _prefer_ you call me `Xe` from now on when possible. This conflicts
+with and supercedes suggestions I made in [this article](/blog/xe-2021-08-07). I
+consider most of that experiment to have worked out and I am going into the next
+phase, albeit less "pure" than I wanted.
+
+Thank you for sticking with this blog. This started out as a place for me to get
+better at writing but has rapidly turned into something that has helped me
+explore my identity in ways that I never would have thought it would. Thanks for
+following the rabbit hole. Thank you for supporting me being more authentic to
+myself about who I am. Your support means more than you possibly will know.
+
+I wonder if my SEO craft is strong enough to get me high on the list of google
+results for `Iaso`.

blog/career-advice-2019-06-18.markdown

@@ -5,8 +5,6 @@ tags:
  - career
 ---
 
-# Advice to People Nurturing a Career in Computering
-
 Computering, or making computers do things in exchange for money, can be a
 surprisingly hard field to break into as an outsider. There's lots of jargon, 
 tool holy wars, flamewars about the "right" way to do things and a whole host

blog/change-2021-10-20.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,115 @@
+---
+title: Change
+date: 2021-10-20
+tags:
+  - enby
+  - trans
+---
+
+[Content warning: this post talks about the transgender/nonbinary coming out of
+the closet experience. If you are not in the best headspace for that, feel free
+to skip this post until you're in a better headspace. This post isn't going to
+randomly vanish. It will be there when you're ready. There are some descriptions
+of subconscious body functions and bodily fluids that may gross some people
+out.](conversation://Cadey/enby)
+
+Coming out as transgender/nonbinary to someone you care about one of the most
+terrifying things you can do. At least it feels that way, it feels like things
+are going to change and you'll lose that person. It can be gut-wrenching,
+especially for family.
+
+For me the scariest part of this whole thing has been the change in how people
+see me. It can be a huge abrupt difference for some people, and the unknowns in
+how people will react to that can make you paralyzed with fear. So, let's look
+at change a little.
+
+[Annoyingly, the same kinds of people that get upset about someone changing
+their name and pronouns for coming out as transgender/nonbinary are _instantly_
+and _immediately_ tolerant of someone changing their last name for marriage and
+"get used to it" almost instantly.](conversation://Cadey/facepalm)
+
+Life is a constant change. Stop for a moment right now and feel your body. Feel
+how the pressure in your chest changes as your lungs subconsciously inhale and
+exhale. If you have a watch, look at the seconds hand (or equivalent digital
+display) and watch it tick forward for a bit. Change is constant, yet still
+continuously moving forward. Even though the change is happening though,
+everything is still roughly the same as it was before. Blood continues to move
+through your body, constantly cycling its oxygen with other parts, but it
+continues.
+
+Coming out to my parents was one of the most terrifying things I have ever done.
+I was nervous beyond belief. I hardly ate that day I hit send. I turned off my
+phone after doing it and got lost in a game that I liked playing. The real
+reason it was so scary to me though is that I had already tried to come out to
+them in the past but I was shut down.
+
+Middle school was rough for me. I don't really remember much of it (other than
+they banned high fives for "gang activity"), but that was when my parents found
+my diary app. I don't remember why they were going through my laptop (I grew up
+in one of _those_ kinds of Jesus freak households), but they found it somehow
+and my entries where I was questioning my gender came to their attention and
+they confronted me about it. I was not ready at all. I was completely blindsided
+by it. That attempt to come out failed and I was put into Christian
+"counseling". I was pushed deep back into the closet and I still have trouble
+writing down my thoughts in a journal to this day.
+
+So that day I hit "send" on [the
+email](https://christine.website/blog/coming-out-2015-12-01) was mortally
+terrifying. All that fear from so long ago came raging up to the surface and I
+was left in a crying and vulnerable state. However it ended up being a good kind
+of cry, the healing kind.
+
+My relationship with my parents (and later my siblings) has deteriorated since,
+and not just for religious differences. However, I am fine. I am still healing
+and I probably will be healing for a long time and I have accepted that. In
+place, I have found something more powerful to put in their place. I have found
+a new family of choice.
+
+[For the parents that read this blog, please do not repeat this kind of
+suffering if you can avoid it. I don't want anyone else to suffer the way I have
+if I can help to avoid it.](conversation://Cadey/enby)
+
+This was a huge change, but it ended up being for the better. That change was a
+tool to help me live a better life surrounded by the people I wanted to be
+around as opposed to the people I inherited.
+
+There's an idiom that comes to mind, something that is in the "completely
+misunderstood" brand of idioms: "blood is thicker than water".
+It's often used by people to emphasize the importance of familial relationships
+over friendships or the like (family is the "blood" part of that idiom, and
+friendships are the "water" part). The full form of the idiom is closer to this:
+
+> The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb
+
+This overall sentiment is [commonly interpreted by Christian
+scholars](https://www.blueletterbible.org/Comm/murray_andrew/two/two09.cfm) to
+have a meaning closer to "the bond between Jesus and someone who chooses to
+believe in Him is stronger than the bond between family members", however we can
+afford to interpret this differently for the sake of this message.
+
+The bonds you choose are stronger than the bonds you inherited. The bonds I have
+with my friends, my husband, my closest companions and all those who I keep
+close to me are stronger than the bonds with my family will ever be.
+
+In a way, coming out as transgender to people and that level of associated
+change has become a _tool_ to help me figure out who really cares about me and
+who I should bother keeping around me. It's my life. I can live it as honestly,
+openly and real as I want to. I don't have to justify it to anyone but myself.
+
+You don't really have to justify this level of change to anyone else but
+yourself either. It'll let you know who your real friends are, for better and
+for worse. You don't have to keep anyone around you that can't accept you for
+who you are. Your family of choice will _always_ have stronger bonds than your
+family of origin.
+
+<center>
+  <picture>
+    <source srcset="/static/blog/change/the-dude-dither.avif" type="image/avif">
+    <source srcset="/static/blog/change/the-dude-dither.webp" type="image/webp">
+    <img src="/static/blog/change/the-dude-dither.png" alt="The dude abides">
+  </picture>
+</center>
+
+The Dude abides, so will you. Change as a result of coming out can be a good
+thing as much as it can be a bad thing. Don't let inherent negativity biases
+blind you to that.

blog/chaos-magick-debugging-2018-11-13.markdown

@@ -5,8 +5,6 @@ thanks: CelestialBoon
 series: magick
 ---
 
-# Chaos Magick Debugging
-
 Belief is a powerful thing. Beliefs are the foundations of everyone's points of view, and the way they interpret reality. Belief is what allows people to create the greatest marvels of technology, the most wondrous worlds of imagination, and the most oppressive religions. 
 
 But at the core, what *is* a belief, other than the sheer tautology of *what a person believes*? 

blog/chicken-stir-fry-2019-04-13.markdown

@@ -9,8 +9,6 @@ tags:
  - garlic
 ---
 
-# Chicken Stir Fry
-
 This recipe was made up by me and my fiancé. We just sorta winged it every time
 we made it until we found something that was easy to cook and tasty. We make
 this every week or so.

blog/cinemaquestria-orchestration-2015-03-13.markdown

@@ -5,9 +5,6 @@ tags:
  - cinemaquestria
 ---
 
-CinemaQuestria Orchestration
-============================
-
 ### Or: Continuous Defenstration in a Container-based Ecosystem
 
 I've been a core member of the staff for [CinemaQuestria](http://cinemaquestria.com)

blog/closed-projects-2022-03-24.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,38 @@
+---
+title: "Book Release: Closed Projects"
+date: 2022-03-24
+tags:
+ - shortstory
+ - fiction
+ - retrospective
+---
+
+Closed Projects is a retelling of [a four-part series](/blog/series/freenode) on
+my blog where I process the events that lead to the death of freenode, the
+largest IRC network for peer-directed projects.
+
+freenode was the reason that I managed to get into tech. Without freenode I
+would be a vastly different person today. The death of freenode last year
+brought up many lingering memories and emotions. I talk about my history with
+freenode, the events that happened in the wake of its death and how a new
+community took its place.
+
+Each part of this story is written by weaving the narrative of the last
+caretaker trying to protect the discussion halls against the darkness, and
+things continue as the darkness gets more crafty and clever.
+
+I have included versions of this for all common eBook reader devices and
+formats. I have tested this on my Kindle Oasis and iPad Pro, but I see no reason
+that at least one of these formats wouldn't work for you.
+
+<iframe frameborder="0" src="https://itch.io/embed/1454153?dark=true" width="552" height="167"><a href="https://withinstudios.itch.io/closed-projects">Closed Projects by Within</a></iframe>
+
+If you are a [Patreon supporter](https://patreon.com/cadey), you can get this
+for free by clicking [this
+link](https://withinstudios.itch.io/closed-projects/patreon-access).
+
+If you are a part of a marginalized group and cannot afford this but want to
+read it anyways, please [contact me](/contact).
+
+Thank you for reading what I put out to the world. I only hope I can continue to
+create and inspire you.

blog/cloud-init-2021-06-04.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,478 @@
+---
+title: My Magical Adventure With cloud-init
+date: 2021-06-04
+---
+
+> "If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be
+> what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what
+> is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?"
+
+- The Mad Hatter, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland
+
+The modern cloud is a magical experience. You take a template, give it some SSH
+keys and maybe some user-data and then you have a server running somewhere. This
+is all powered by a tool called [cloud-init](https://cloud-init.io/). cloud-init
+is the most useful in actual datacenters with proper metadata services, but what
+if you aren't in a datacenter with a metadata service?
+
+Recently I wanted to test a
+[script](https://github.com/tailscale/tailscale/blob/main/scripts/installer.sh)
+a coworker wrote that allows users to automatically install Tailscale on every
+distro and version Tailscale supports. I wanted to try and avoid having to
+install each version of every distribution manually, so I started looking for
+options. 
+
+[This may seem like overkill (and at some level it probably is), however as a
+side effect of going through this song and dance you can spin up a bunch of VMs
+pretty easily. <br /> <center> <blockquote class="twitter-tweet"><p lang="und"
+dir="ltr"><a
+href="https://t.co/yays27Wmes">pic.twitter.com/yays27Wmes</a></p>&mdash; Xe from
+Within (@theprincessxena) <a
+href="https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1394265890494062593?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">May
+17, 2021</a></blockquote> <script async
+src="https://platform.twitter.com/widgets.js"
+charset="utf-8"></script> <center>](conversation://Mara/hacker)
+
+cloud-init has a feature called the
+[NoCloud](https://cloudinit.readthedocs.io/en/latest/topics/datasources/nocloud.html)
+data source. To use it, you need to write two yaml files, put them into a
+specially named ISO file and then mount it to the virtual machine. cloud-init
+will then pick up your configuration data and apply it.
+
+[Wait...really? What.](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+[Yes, really.](conversation://Cadey/coffee)
+
+Let's make an [Amazon Linux
+2](https://docs.aws.amazon.com/AWSEC2/latest/UserGuide/amazon-linux-2-virtual-machine.html)
+virtual machine as an example. Amazon offers their Linux distribution for
+download so you can run it on-premises (I don't really know why you'd want to do
+this outside of testing stuff on Amazon Linux). In this blog we use KVM, so keep
+that in mind when you set things up yourself.
+
+First you need to make a `meta-data` file, this will contain the VM's hostname
+and the "instance ID" (this makes sense in cloud contexts however you can use
+whatever you want):
+
+```yaml
+local-hostname: mayhem
+instance-id: 31337
+```
+
+[You can configure networking settings here, but our VM is going to get an
+address over DHCP so you don't really need to care about that in this case](conversation://Mara/hacker)
+
+Next you need to make a `user-data` file, this will actually configure your VM:
+
+```yaml
+#cloud-config
+#vim:syntax=yaml
+
+cloud_config_modules:
+ - runcmd
+
+cloud_final_modules:
+ - [users-groups, always]
+ - [scripts-user, once-per-instance]
+
+users:
+  - name: xe
+    groups: [ wheel ]
+    sudo: [ "ALL=(ALL) NOPASSWD:ALL" ]
+    shell: /bin/bash
+    ssh-authorized-keys: 
+      - ssh-ed25519 AAAAC3NzaC1lZDI1NTE5AAAAIPYr9hiLtDHgd6lZDgQMkJzvYeAXmePOrgFaWHAjJvNU cadey@ontos
+
+write_files:
+  - path: /etc/cloud/cloud.cfg.d/80_disable_network_after_firstboot.cfg
+    content: |
+      # Disable network configuration after first boot
+      network:
+        config: disabled
+```
+
+Please make sure to change the username and swap out the SSH key as needed,
+unless you want to get locked out of your VM. For more information about what
+you can do from cloud-init, see the list of modules
+[here](http://cloudinit.readthedocs.io/en/latest/topics/modules.html). 
+
+Now that you have the two yaml files you can make the seed image with this
+command (Linux):
+
+```console
+$ genisoimage -output seed.iso \
+    -volid cidata \
+    -joliet \
+    -rock \
+    user-data meta-data
+```
+
+[In NixOS you may need to run it inside nix-shell: `nix-shell -p
+cdrkit`.](conversation://Mara/hacker)
+
+Or this command (macOS):
+
+```console
+$ hdiutil makehybrid \
+    -o seed.iso \
+    -hfs \
+    -joliet \
+    -iso \
+    -default-volume-name cidata \
+    user-data meta-data
+```
+
+Now you can download the KVM image from that [Amazon Linux User Guide page from
+earlier](https://docs.aws.amazon.com/AWSEC2/latest/UserGuide/amazon-linux-2-virtual-machine.html)
+and then put it somewhere safe. This image will be written into a [ZFS
+zvol](https://pthree.org/2012/12/21/zfs-administration-part-xiv-zvols/). To find
+out how big the zvol needs to be, you can use `qemu-img info`:
+
+```console
+$ qemu-img info amzn2-kvm-2.0.20210427.0-x86_64.xfs.gpt.qcow2
+image: amzn2-kvm-2.0.20210427.0-x86_64.xfs.gpt.qcow2
+file format: qcow2
+virtual size: 25 GiB (26843545600 bytes)
+disk size: 410 MiB
+cluster_size: 65536
+Format specific information:
+    compat: 1.1
+    compression type: zlib
+    lazy refcounts: false
+    refcount bits: 16
+    corrupt: false
+    extended l2: false
+```
+
+The virtual disk image is 25 gigabytes, so you can create it with a command like
+this:
+
+```console
+$ sudo zfs create -V 25G rpool/safe/vms/mayhem
+```
+
+Then you use `qemu-img convert` to copy the image into the zvol:
+
+```console
+$ sudo qemu-img convert \
+    -O raw \
+    amzn2-kvm-2.0.20210427.0-x86_64.xfs.gpt.qcow2 \
+    /dev/zvol/rpool/safe/vms/mayhem
+```
+
+If you don't use ZFS you can make a layered disk using `qemu-img create`:
+
+```console
+$ qemu-img create \
+    -f qcow2 \
+    -o backing_file=amzn2-kvm-2.0.20210427.0-x86_64.xfs.gpt.qcow2 \
+    mayhem.qcow2
+```
+
+Open up virt-manager and then create a new virtual machine. Make sure you select
+"Manual install".
+
+<center>
+
+![The first step of the "create a new virtual machine" wizard in virt-manager
+with "manual install"
+selected](https://cdn.christine.website/file/christine-static/blog/20210604_06h43m27s_grim.png)
+
+</center>
+
+virt-manager will then ask you what OS the virtual machine is running so it can
+load some known working defaults. It doesn't have an option for Amazon Linux,
+but it's kinda sorta like CentOS 7, so enter CentOS 7 here.
+
+<center>
+
+![The second step of the "create a new virtual machine" wizard in virt-manager
+with "CentOS 7" selected as the OS the virtual machine will be
+running](https://cdn.christine.website/file/christine-static/blog/20210604_06h45m35s_grim.png)
+
+</center>
+
+The default amount of ram and CPU are fine, but you can choose other options if
+you have more restrictive hardware requirements.
+
+<center>
+
+![The third step of the "create a new virtual machine" wizard in virt-manager
+with 1024 MB of ram and 2 virtual CPU cores
+selected](https://cdn.christine.website/file/christine-static/blog/20210604_06h50m09s_grim.png)
+
+</center>
+
+Now you need to select the storage path for the VM. virt-manager will helpfully
+offer to create a new virtual disk for you. You already made the disk with the
+above steps, so enter in `/dev/zvol/rpool/safe/vms/mayhem` (or the path to your
+custom layered qcow2 from the above `qemu-img create` command) as the disk
+location.
+
+<center>
+
+![The fourth step of the "create a new virtual machine" wizard in virt-manager
+with `/dev/zvol/rpool/safe/vms/mayhem` selected as the path to the
+disk](https://cdn.christine.website/file/christine-static/blog/20210604_06h53m58s_grim.png)
+
+</center>
+
+Finally, name the VM and then choose "Customize configuration before install" so
+you can mount the seed data.
+
+<center>
+
+![The last step of the "create a new virtual machine" wizard in virt-manager,
+setting the virtual machine name to "mayhem" and indicating that you want to
+customize configuration before
+installation](https://cdn.christine.website/file/christine-static/blog/20210604_06h56m54s_grim.png)
+
+</center>
+
+Click on the "Add Hardware" button in the lower left corner of the configuration
+window.
+
+<center>
+
+![](https://cdn.christine.website/file/christine-static/blog/20210604_06h58m53s_grim.png)
+
+</center>
+
+Make a new CDROM storage device that points to your seed image:
+
+<center>
+
+![](https://cdn.christine.website/file/christine-static/blog/20210604_07h01m24s_grim.png)
+
+</center>
+
+And then click "Begin Installation". The virtual machine will be created and its
+graphical console will open. Click on the info tab and then the NIC device. The
+VM's IP address will be listed:
+
+<center>
+
+![](https://cdn.christine.website/file/christine-static/blog/20210604_07h05m28s_grim.png)
+
+</center>
+
+Now SSH into the VM:
+
+```console
+$ ssh xe@192.168.122.122
+The authenticity of host '192.168.122.122 (192.168.122.122)' can't be established.
+ED25519 key fingerprint is SHA256:TP7dWLkHOixx5tr78qn0yvDQKttH0yWz6IBvbadEqcs.
+This key is not known by any other names
+Are you sure you want to continue connecting (yes/no/[fingerprint])? yes
+Warning: Permanently added '192.168.122.122' (ED25519) to the list of known hosts.
+
+       __|  __|_  )
+       _|  (     /   Amazon Linux 2 AMI
+      ___|\___|___|
+
+https://aws.amazon.com/amazon-linux-2/
+8 package(s) needed for security, out of 17 available
+Run "sudo yum update" to apply all updates.
+[xe@mayhem ~]$
+```
+
+And voila! A new virtual machine that you can do whatever you want with, just
+like you would any other server.
+
+[Do you really need to make an ISO file for this? Can't I just use HTTP like <a
+href="https://docs.aws.amazon.com/AWSEC2/latest/UserGuide/ec2-instance-metadata.html">the
+AWS metadata service</a>?](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+Yes and no. You can have the configuration loaded over HTTP/S, but without
+special network configuration you won't be able to have `http://169.254.169.254`
+work like the AWS metadata service without a fair bit of effort. Either way, you
+are going to have to edit the virtual machine's XML though.
+
+[XML? Why is XML involved?](conversation://Mara/wat)
+
+virt-manager is a frontend to [libvirt](https://libvirt.org/index.html). libvirt
+uses XML to describe virtual machines.
+[Here](https://gist.github.com/Xe/f870ebb2d9dce0929a35a4ba347cbda3) is the XML
+used to describe the VM you made earlier. This looks like a lot (because frankly
+it is a lot, computers are complicated), however this is a lot more manageable
+than the equivalent qemu flags.
+
+[What do the qemu flags look like?](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+[Like
+this](https://gist.githubusercontent.com/Xe/2eba35ec6cbd54becf9fca02f6d69f0b/raw/89d68424c0ae26333d798bd9bd6a224dfec844d7/qemu%2520flags.txt).
+It is kind of a mess that I would rather have something made by people smarter
+than me take care of.
+
+To enable cloud-init to load over HTTP, you are going to have to add the qemu XML
+namespace to mayhem's configuration. At the top you should see a line that looks
+like this:
+
+```xml
+<domain type="kvm">
+```
+
+Replace it with one that looks like this:
+
+```xml
+<domain xmlns:qemu="http://libvirt.org/schemas/domain/qemu/1.0" type="kvm">
+```
+
+This will allow you to set the cloud-init seed location information using a
+[SMBIOS value](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/System_Management_BIOS). To enable
+this, add the following to the _bottom_ of your XML file, just before the
+closing `</domain>`:
+
+```xml
+<qemu:commandline>
+  <qemu:arg value="-smbios"/>
+  <qemu:arg value="type=1,serial=ds=nocloud-net;h=mayhem;s=http://10.77.2.22:8000/mayhem/"/>
+</qemu:commandline>
+```
+
+Make sure the data is actually being served on that address. Here's a nix-shell
+python one-liner HTTP server:
+
+```console
+$ nix-shell -p python3 --run 'python -m http.server 8000'
+```
+
+Then you will need to either load the base image back into the zvol or recreate
+the qcow2 file to reset the VM back to its default state.
+
+Reboot the VM and wait for it to connect to your "metadata server":
+
+```console
+192.168.122.122 - - [04/Jun/2021 11:41:10] "GET /mayhem/meta-data HTTP/1.1" 200 -
+192.168.122.122 - - [04/Jun/2021 11:41:10] "GET /mayhem/user-data HTTP/1.1" 200 -
+```
+
+Then you can SSH into it like normal:
+
+```console
+$ ssh xe@192.168.122.122
+The authenticity of host '192.168.122.122 (192.168.122.122)' can't be established.
+ED25519 key fingerprint is SHA256:eJRjDsvnVrXfntVtNVN6N+JdakaA+dvGKWWQP5OFkeA.
+This key is not known by any other names
+Are you sure you want to continue connecting (yes/no/[fingerprint])? yes
+Warning: Permanently added '192.168.122.122' (ED25519) to the list of known hosts.
+
+       __|  __|_  )
+       _|  (     /   Amazon Linux 2 AMI
+      ___|\___|___|
+
+https://aws.amazon.com/amazon-linux-2/
+8 package(s) needed for security, out of 17 available
+Run "sudo yum update" to apply all updates.
+[xe@mayhem ~]$
+```
+
+[Can I choose other distros for this?](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+Yep! Most distributions offer cloud-init enabled images. They may be hard to
+find, but they do exist. Here's some links that will help you with common
+distros:
+
+- [Arch Linux](https://mirror.pkgbuild.com/images/) (use the `cloudimg` ones)
+- [CentOS 7](https://cloud.centos.org/centos/7/images/) (use the `GenericCloud`
+  one)
+- [CentOS 8](https://cloud.centos.org/centos/8-stream/x86_64/images/) (use the
+  `GenericCloud` one)
+- [Debian 9](http://cloud.debian.org/images/cloud/OpenStack/9.13.22-20210531/)
+  (use the `openstack` one)
+- [Debian 10](http://cloud.debian.org/images/cloud/buster/20210329-591/) (use
+  the `generic` one)
+- [Debian 11](http://cloud.debian.org/images/cloud/bullseye/daily/) (use the
+  `generic` one)
+- [Fedora 34](https://alt.fedoraproject.org/cloud/) (use the Openstack image)
+- [OpenSUSE Leap
+  15.2](https://download.opensuse.org/repositories/Cloud:/Images:/Leap_15.2/images/)
+  (use the `OpenStack` image)
+- [OpenSUSE Leap 15.3](https://get.opensuse.org/leap/) (use the JeOS one labeled
+  `OpenStack-Cloud`)
+- [OpenSUSE Tumbleweed](https://download.opensuse.org/tumbleweed/appliances/)
+  (use the JeOS one labeled `Openstack-Cloud`)
+- [Ubuntu](https://cloud-images.ubuntu.com/) (use the `server-cloudimg` image
+  for your version of choice)
+
+In general, look for images that are compatible with OpenStack. OpenStack uses
+cloud-init to configure virtual machines and the NoCloud data source you're using
+ships by default. It usually works out, except for cases like OpenSUSE Leap
+15.1. With Leap 15.1 you have to [pretend to be OpenStack a bit
+more](https://github.com/tailscale/tailscale/blob/aa6abc98f30df67a0d86698b77932d4d9cc45ac0/tstest/integration/vms/opensuse_leap_15_1_test.go)
+for some reason.
+
+[What if I need to template the userdata file?](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+[You really should avoid doing this if possible. Templating yaml is a delicate
+process fraught with danger. The error conditions in things like Kubernetes are
+that it does the wrong thing and you need to replace the service. The error
+condition with this is that you lose access to your
+server.](conversation://Cadey/facepalm)
+
+[Let's say that Facts and Circumstances™ made me have to template
+it.](conversation://Mara/happy)
+
+<center>
+  <picture>
+    <source srcset="https://cdn.christine.website/file/christine-static/stickers/cadey/percussive-maintenance.avif" type="image/avif">
+    <source srcset="https://cdn.christine.website/file/christine-static/stickers/cadey/percussive-maintenance.webp" type="image/webp">
+    <img src="https://cdn.christine.website/file/christine-static/stickers/cadey/percussive-maintenance.png" alt="Cadey is percussive-maintenance">
+  </picture>
+</center>
+
+When you are templating yaml, you have to be really careful. It is very easy to
+incur [the wrath of Norway and
+Ontario](https://hitchdev.com/strictyaml/why/implicit-typing-removed/) on
+accident with yaml. Here are some rules of thumb (unfortunately gained from
+experience) to keep in mind:
+
+- yaml has implicit typing, quote everything to be safe.
+- ensure that every value you pass in is yaml-safe
+- ensure that the indentation matches for every value
+
+Something very important is to test the templating on a virtual machine image
+that you have a back door into. Otherwise you will be locked out. You can
+generally hack around it by adding `init=/bin/sh` in your kernel command line
+and changing your password from there.
+
+When you mess it up you will need to get into the VM somehow and do one of a few
+things:
+
+1. Run `cloud-init collect-logs` to generate a log tarball that you can export
+   to your host machine and dig into from there
+2. Look through the system journal for any errors
+3. Look in `/var/log` for files that begin with `cloud-init` and page through
+   them
+
+If all else fails, start googling. If you are running commands against a VM with
+the `runcmd` feature of cloud-init, I'd suggest going through the steps on a
+manually installed virtual machine image at least once so you can be sure the
+steps work. I have lost 4 hours of time to this. Also keep in mind that in the
+context that `runcmd` runs from, there is no standard input hooked up. You will
+need to pass `-y` everywhere.
+
+If you want a simple Alpine Linux image to test with, look
+[here](https://github.com/Xe/alpine-image) for the Alpine Linux images I test
+with. You can download this image from
+[here](https://xena.greedo.xeserv.us/pkg/alpine/img/alpine-edge-2021-05-18-cloud-init-within.qcow2)
+in case you trust that I wouldn't put malware in that image and don't want to
+make your own.
+
+---
+
+In the future I plan to use cloud-init _extensively_ within my [new homelab
+cluster](https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1400592778309115905). I have
+plans to make a custom VM management service I'm calling
+[waifud](https://github.com/Xe/waifud). I will write more on that as I have
+written the software. I currently have a minimum viable prototype of this tool
+called `mkvm` that I'm using today without any issues. I also will be writing up
+how I built the cluster and installed NixOS on all the systems in a future
+article.
+
+cloud-init is an incredible achievement. It has its warts, but it being used in
+so many places enables you to make configuring virtual machines so much easier.
+It [even works on Windows!](https://cloudbase.it/cloudbase-init/). As much as I
+complain about it in this post, life would be so much worse without it. It
+allows me to use the magic of the cloud in my local virtual machines so I can
+get better use out of my hardware.

blog/coding-on-an-ipad-2018-04-14-2018.markdown

@@ -5,8 +5,6 @@ tags:
  - ipad
 ---
 
-# Coding on an iPad
-
 As people notice, I am an avid user of Emacs for most of my professional and
 personal coding. I have things set up such that the center of my development
 environment is a shell (eshell), and most of my interactions are with emacs

blog/colemak-layout-2-2020-08-22.markdown

@@ -4,8 +4,6 @@ date: 2020-08-22
 series: colemak
 ---
 
-# Colemak Layout - First Week
-
 A week ago I posted the last post in this series where I announced I was going
 all colemak all the time. I have not been measuring words per minute (to avoid
 psyching myself out), but so far my typing speed has gone from intolerably slow

blog/colemak-layout-2020-08-15.markdown

@@ -4,8 +4,6 @@ date: 2020-08-15
 series: colemak
 ---
 
-# Colemak Layout - Beginning
-
 I write a lot. On average I write a few kilobytes of text per day. This has been
 adding up and is taking a huge toll on my hands, especially considering the
 Covid situation. Something needs to change. I've been working on learning a new

blog/coming-out-2015-12-01.markdown

@@ -5,9 +5,6 @@ tags:
  - personal
 ---
 
-Coming Out
-==========
-
 I'd like to bring up something that has been hanging over my head for a
 long time. This is something I did try (and fail) to properly express way
 back in middle school, but now I'd like to get it all of my chest and let

blog/convoluted-vrchat-gchat-setup-2021-02-24.markdown

@@ -7,8 +7,6 @@ tags:
  - vrchat
 ---
 
-# My Convoluted VRChat Google Meet Setup
-
 Recently the place I work for sent us all VR headsets. I decided to see what it
 would take to use that headset to make my camera show a virtual avatar instead
 of my meat body face. This is the story of my journey through chaining things

blog/covid-burnout-2021-09-25.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,34 @@
+---
+title: COVID Burnout
+date: 2021-09-25
+---
+
+NOTE: This was written out in
+[longhand](https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1441842150824718337?s=21)
+in my diary. This post was converted to text using iPadOS 15's handwriting to
+text recognition. I hope I have cleared up all of the major errors in the
+conversion. My handwriting is horrible.
+
+---
+
+I am an introvert. I usually spend a lot of time in my cave. most of my work was
+alreary done remotely, when I first found out about the COVID-19 pandemic, I
+thought there would be at most 4-8 weeks of hardcore lockdown and then it would
+die out. Then life would go back to normal and I would be able to see my friends
+at conventions during the summer.
+
+As of the time of writing this post, it is currently the 84th week OF COVID
+being a major presence in how I handle daily life. I am exhausted, I was
+scheduled to give talks at two conventions that were canceled, meet ups with
+friends at places across the us and Canada were postponed into oblivion. My
+relationship with my parents has fractured into no-contact. I feel powerless to
+do anything more to stop this.
+
+I am the most connected I have ever been and I am the lonliest I have ever been.
+Most of the people I talk to are people I have never met in person, even my
+coworkers. My manager is someone I talk with near daily yet have never seen
+without the aid of video conferencing.
+
+This is exhausting. I hate it. My Netflix queue is empty. I feel so alone.
+
+This post doesn't have a message or moral.

blog/crazy-experiment-2017-01-09.markdown

@@ -6,9 +6,6 @@ tags:
  - frontend
 ---
 
-Crazy Experiment: Ship the Frontend as an asar document
-=======================================================
-
 Today's crazy experiment is using an [asar archive](https://github.com/electron/asar) for shipping around
 and mounting frontend Javascript applications. This is something I feel is worth doing because it allows
 the web frontend developer (or team) give the backend team a single "binary" that can be dropped into the

blog/creators-code-2018-09-18.markdown

@@ -7,8 +7,6 @@ tags:
  - coc
 ---
 
-# [Creator's Code](https://github.com/Xe/creators-code)
-
 I feel there is a large problem in the industry I have found myself in. There is,
 unfortunately, a need for codes of behavioral conduct to help arrange and align
 collaboration across so many cultural and ideological barriers, as well as

blog/cursing-out-god-2018-11-21.markdown

@@ -4,8 +4,6 @@ date: 2018-11-21
 series: dreams
 ---
 
-# My Experience Cursing Out God
-
 This was a hell of a dream.
 
 It was a simple landscape: a hill, a sky, a sun, a distance, naturalistic buildings dotting a small village to the east. I noticed that I felt different somehow, like I was less chained down. A genderless but somehow masculine moved and stood next to me, gesturing towards me: "It's beautiful isn't it? The village has existed like this for thousands of years in perfect harmony with its world. Even though there's volcano eruptions every decade that burn everything down. It's been nine years and 350 days, but they aren't keeping track. How does that thought make you feel, Creator?"

blog/death-08-19-2018.markdown

@@ -5,8 +5,6 @@ thanks: Sygma
 series: magick
 ---
 
-# Death
-
 Death is a very misunderstood card in Tarot, but not for the reasons you'd think. Societally, many people think that this life is the only shot at existence they get. Afterwards, there is nothing. Nonexistence. Oblivion. This makes death a very touchy subject for a lot of people, so much so it forms a social taboo and an unhealthy relationship with death. People start seeing death as something they need to fight back and hold away by removing what makes themselves human, just to hold off what they believe is their obliteration.
 
 Tarot does not see death in this way. Death, the skeleton knight wearing armor, does not see color, race or creed, thus he is depicted as a skeleton. He is riding towards a child and another younger person. The sun is rising in the distance, but even it cannot stop Death. Nor can royalty, as shown by the king under him, dead.

blog/death-stranding-review-2019-11-11.markdown

@@ -8,8 +8,6 @@ tags:
  - what
 ---
 
-# Death Stranding Review
-
 NOTE: There's gonna be spoilers here. Do not read if you are not okay with this.
 For a summary of the article without spoilers, this game is 10 out of 10 game of the
 year 2019 for me.

blog/dependency-hell-2014-11-20.markdown

@@ -3,9 +3,6 @@ title: Dependency Hell
 date: 2014-11-20
 ---
 
-Dependency Hell
-===============
-
 A lot of the problem that I have run into when doing development with
 nearly any stack I have used is dependency management. This relatively
 simple-looking problem just becomes such an evil, evil thing to tackle.

blog/deprecation-notice-elemental-ircd-2019-02-11.markdown

@@ -5,8 +5,6 @@ tags:
  - release
 ---
 
-# Deprecation Notice: Elemental-IRCd
-
 [Elemental-IRCd](https://github.com/Elemental-IRCd/elemental-ircd) is a scalable, lightweight, high-performance IRC daemon written in C with heritage in the original IRC daemon. It is a fork of the now-defunct ShadowIRCD and sought to continue in the direction ShadowIRCD was headed. This software has scaled to support live chat for thousands of users at once in one->one and one->many groups. Working on this software has legitimately been a vital driving force to my career and skill balance between administration, development, moderation and operations of distirbuted communities at scale. Without this software, my closest friends (and even my fiancé) would be strangers to me.
 
 However, the result is something I don't know if I can continue to keep maintaining. It's been through a lot. The code has been through so many hands, some files had different licenses compared to the rest of the software. It is a patchwork of patches on top of a roughly solid core, and it's become a burden to maintain.

blog/dev-2014-10-24.markdown

@@ -5,9 +5,6 @@ tags:
  - release
 ---
 
-Instant Development Environments in Docker
-==========================================
-
 I have been using a few shell scripts for turbocharging development
 using Docker and today I have released the first version of a simple
 tool I call "[dev](https://github.com/Xe/dev)". Usage is very very simple.

blog/dev-printerfact-2021-04-17.markdown

@@ -8,8 +8,6 @@ tags:
  - kernel
 ---
 
-# How I Implemented /dev/printerfact in Rust
-
 Kernel mode programming is a frightful endeavor. One of the big problems with it
 is that C is really your only option on Linux. C has many historical problems
 with it that can't really be fixed at this point without radically changing the

blog/dhall-kubernetes-2020-01-25.markdown

@@ -7,8 +7,6 @@ tags:
   - witchcraft
 ---
 
-# Dhall for Kubernetes
-
 Kubernetes is a surprisingly complicated software package. Arguably, it has to
 be that complicated as a result of the problems it solves being complicated; but
 managing yaml configuration files for Kubernetes is a complicated task. [YAML][yaml]

blog/died-to-save-me-2018-08-27.markdown

@@ -4,8 +4,6 @@ date: 2018-08-27
 for: Sam
 ---
 
-# Died to Save Me
-
 People often get confused  
 when I mention the fact that I  
 consider myself before I  

blog/dont-look-into-the-light-2019-10-06.markdown

@@ -6,8 +6,6 @@ tags:
  - big-rewrite
 ---
 
-# Don’t Look Into the Light
-
 So at a previous job I was working at, we maintained a system. This system
 powered a significant part of the core of how the product was actually used (as
 far as usage metrics reported). Over time, we had bolted something onto the side

blog/drone-kubernetes-cd-2020-07-10.markdown

@@ -9,8 +9,6 @@ tags:
  - gitea
 ---
 
-# Continuous Deployment to Kubernetes with Gitea and Drone
-
 Recently I put a complete rewrite of [the printerfacts
 server](https://printerfacts.cetacean.club) into service based on
 [warp](https://github.com/seanmonstar/warp). I have it set up to automatically

blog/emoji-not-language-2021-07-14.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,147 @@
+---
+title: Emoji is not a Language
+date: 2021-07-14
+tags:
+ - linguistics
+ - philosophy
+---
+
+What is a language? This is something that is surprisingly controversial.
+There's some easy ways to tell when something is a language (one of them being
+that they have an army), but what about things like emoji? Is emoji a language?
+In this article I will attempt to argue that emoji is not a language unto
+itself.
+
+At a high level, language is a tool that we use to represent
+spatial/temporal/conceptual relations between objects/ideas/things, statements
+about reality and similar things among that nature. Many languages are broken
+into units of meaning that we call words. Here are some example words:
+
+- the
+- taco
+- is
+- beautiful
+
+We can break these words into two basic classes like this:
+
+| Content  | Grammar  |
+| :------- | :------- |
+| taco     | the      |
+| beautiful | is       |
+
+It's worth noting that not all verbs fall into the "grammar" category. Things
+like "eat" would fall into a content word, however "is" is a special case
+because it is directly drawing a relation between two things. In the sentence
+"The taco is beautiful", there is a relation being made from one specific taco
+and the abstract concept of beauty.
+
+I want to argue that emoji has plenty of content words, but no grammar words. If
+we wanted to assemble an analog to "The taco is beautiful" in emoji, we could
+make 1:1 correlations between English words and emoji like this:
+
+| English | Emoji |
+|:------- |:----- |
+| the     |       |
+| taco    | 🌮      |
+| is      |       |
+| beautiful | 🎀      |
+
+I dug through the entire emoji chart and was unable to find things that could be
+used for "the" and "is". Heck, even the word I used for "beautiful" was a
+stretch because the ribbon emoji is normally used that way. Is a language
+defined by words that have inherent meaning or is that meaning arbitrarily
+assigned by its users? Can I just firng out words like "xnoypt" as in "realizing
+how the word would be pronounced, Tom [xnoypted](https://youtu.be/aMgCBYgVwsI)
+out of existence"? Does that mean "xnoypt" is a word?
+
+The closest I was able to get to "the" and "is" would be metaphors that would
+fall apart when you want to discuss the actual things involved. Let's say that
+you assign arbitrary emoji at least to "is" so that you can end up with this
+sentence in emoji:
+
+🌮➡️🎀
+
+What if you want to talk about the concept of right though? Say you want to
+convey that the taco store is to the right of the office building. You'd need to
+say something like:
+
+🌮🏪➡️➡️🏢
+
+And this could be easily confused with the interpretation "taco store right
+right office building".
+
+But how do you know that it's a taco store? That's just a convention English
+follows where the thing being described is the right-most thing and other things
+on the left are just qualifiers or determiners to what's going on about it. It's
+a "taco store", not a "store taco". Other languages like French do have this
+reversed, so it could easily become a source of confusion.
+
+So what if you ripped out the grammar entirely? What if you just had something
+that was pure content? Could utterances like "🌮🏪➡️🏢" function in place of
+something that breaks apart the words into groups? How would people know the
+difference between that being a giant list of descriptors on top of a taco or an
+office building?
+
+How would you express verbs like "to eat"? Emojipedia says that 🍴 is used to
+signify eating, but what about cultures that don't use cutlery to eat with?
+Would this really be global enough to work in places like China? Cultural
+cross-contamination would likely be enough at this point that most people could
+get the message, but is this really representing the idea of eating or the idea
+of something that you can use to eat other things? Would using this mean that
+you could express what you ate with emoji? What would make it more of a concept
+of eating than "to eat", "mangxi" (Esperanto), "manger" (French), or "citka"
+(Lojban)?
+
+If language is a tool that we can use to describe relations, then we can sorta
+get them across with emoji by piggy-backing on top of the grammar of other
+languages. You can derive new words like "taco store" with phrases like "🌮🏪".
+You can use these to create meaning, I guess, but it wouldn't be very precise.
+You could get across the most common words and cultural ideas, but not much
+else.
+
+Certainly not technical things where detail is important. Where is that taco
+store in relation to the office building? Is it 5 meters to the right of it or
+500 meters? What color is the office building? What name does it have? What is
+the name of the road? What is the name of the taco store?
+
+What can you really convey with emoji that isn't also conveyed with words?
+
+You can create new words easily with some chat platforms and how they use emoji
+though. You can either describe "nonbinary people" as "🚫🔢0️1️🧍" or you can just
+upload an image of the [nonbinary pride
+flag](https://gender.wikia.org/wiki/Pride_Flags#Nonbinary_Flag) to use as a
+direct descriptor of the concept instead. In a way emoji gives you a level of
+freedom of expression that simple words can't. The word "xnoypt" makes sense to
+people that know the word, but the picture has a greater chance of being closer
+to understood on its own. Here is an emoji that my coworkers use as a loving
+description:
+
+<center>
+
+![](https://cdn.christine.website/file/christine-static/blog/friday_deploy.png)
+
+</center>
+
+This one is called `friday_deploy` and is used as the avatar of our deployment
+bot as well as a way to describe the abstract horror of deploying software on a
+Friday. By being an emoji it can represent something more than just the
+pictograph that it is. 
+
+These all certainly encode meaning on their own, but meaning on its own doesn't
+make a language. Emoji certainly could become a language, but it would need a
+lot of work to become one. Even then it would likely fall into the other
+failings that International Auxiliary Languages that have fell into. It is
+easier to type emoji than it is to type things like Esperanto's "ĉ", but it's
+going to inherently encode assumptions in the creator's first language.
+
+Emoji is not a language, it's used to augment existing languages.
+
+> If you want to claim that emoji is a language, you should be able to make that
+> same claim using emoji. Not an ad hoc cypher of the english sentence; just use
+> emoji the way people commonly use them, which you're saying counts as a
+> language, to say "Emoji is a language".
+
+- allthingslinguistic
+
+I'd be willing to be proven wrong if you can write "Emoji is a language"
+unambiguously using emoji without it being a baroque cipher of English.

blog/epilogue-2021-05-26.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,210 @@
+---
+title: Epilogue
+date: 2021-05-26
+tags:
+ - irc
+series: freenode
+---
+
+The last caretaker's absence rippled throughout the halls. The darkness was all
+that remained.
+
+---
+
+I used to run an IRC network named PonyChat. It was an IRC network aimed at
+adult fans of My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic. Looking back, working on that
+network was probably the biggest catalyst to my learning how to do system
+administration to the level I am at today.
+
+Lots of stuff goes wrong when you run an IRC network. PonyChat peaked at around
+500 users on average, but that didn't stop things from being interesting. There
+were several "groups" of people there, and a lot of roleplaying channels. As
+things like Discord picked up more and more users, a lot of the roleplaying
+channels were all that were left at the end. There were some people in the #geek
+room that were near permanent fixtures. Talking with those people and
+collaborating on various projects is how I learned the skills that I use daily
+for remote work.
+
+---
+
+The darkness was confused. It didn't expect this to happen. The discussion halls
+were so full of life before! There were so many people from as many backgrounds
+talking about anything you could imagine!
+
+But the people left. The darkness didn't totally see why this happened, but then
+they walked the halls and saw some things around the empty rooms.
+
+```
+The official Arch Linux support channels have moved to libera.chat, good luck!
+```
+
+The previous moderators of the discussion forum had apparently left up signs
+telling anyone who hadn't walked over with them to tell them where to go. The
+darkness looked around and saw more and more of those signs.
+
+_Without those signs, they won't know where to go! If we can remove all of those
+signs then maybe the people will be active again!_
+
+> This channel has moved to ##archlinux. The topic is in violation of freenode
+> policy.
+
+_Perfect_, the darkness thought to themselves. _They can't leave now, those
+signs were telling them where to go!_
+
+---
+
+When things came to an end with PonyChat, I had a big choice to make. There's
+two main ways for chat communities to die: fast and slow. The fast ways are
+quicker, less painful for users and potentially harsh for people that didn't get
+the memo in time. The slow way gets expensive and soul-draining.
+
+I was the last caretaker left on PonyChat after the attrition rate affected the
+staff as well as the users. I was the only person really active on the network
+and a lot of it was held together with increasingly brittle lua scripts.
+
+It was soul-crushing. PonyChat was close to my heart. Writing the bots that
+ended up being the core of the anti-spam engine were some of my first coding
+projects.
+
+---
+
+The darkness was disturbed from their laurels by one of their caretakers.
+Apparently this angered the people who had left. The former community scribes
+were furious. The last caretakers had never done such a thing. Notices to those
+communities were always left intact. The mere _thought_ of doing such a thing
+was _unthinkable_.
+
+Yet it happened. The darkness realized that they messed up. Quickly, a change
+was made. _It can't be against policy if there's a policy allowing it!
+Historical precedent be damned, this is advertisement! They are promoting
+another place instead of here! Here is perfectly good!_ They thought.
+
+The darkness smiled its spiral smile and spread to take down more signs with a
+golem purpose made to print off new signs.
+
+> This channel has moved to ##botters. The topic is in violation of freenode
+> policy.
+
+The golem blindly continued manufacturing out new signs. The silent masses left
+behind watched in horror as they were forced out of their former haunts.
+
+---
+
+There's something kind of magical about writing an IRC chatbot. It's one of the
+few kinds of things you can create that you create in public. Even if the source
+code isn't shared you still need to test it somewhere. You build it in public.
+
+Anti-spam bots are a similar kind of thing. Unfortunately they form a kind of
+arms race. It's much easier to make new spam than it is to come up with patterns
+for existing spam. Writing one is soul-crushing. You have to quickly develop a
+kind of reputation system or you will immediately turn it into a way to ban your
+own users. A lot of the more clever trolls tricked users into typing the phrases
+that got them banned.
+
+Then there was the doxxing and swatting.
+
+---
+
+The darkness walked through the halls and smiled. All those signs were gone.
+They peered into a room to see what was happening. They saw nothing. There
+weren't even the silent masses that had normally huddled around the backs of
+rooms. Some of those people had sat there for years doing nothing but listening.
+Nobody really knew if they were actually paying attention or not, some may not
+even be alive anymore, but they were haunting those rooms either way.
+
+The signs pointed people elsewhere. Those who had stayed in the background
+didn't get the memo. They were stuck there. Just sitting there and watching. Not
+really doing anything, just watching and listening.
+
+---
+
+If you run an IRC network of any appreciable scale, be prepared for these
+eventualities:
+
+Your real name, email address, facebook account link, twitter account link,
+phone number, parents names, mailing address, physical address and sometimes
+even tax identification numbers will be leaked to the public. You **MUST** use
+a password manager and two-factor auth everywhere. Register your domains under a
+past or fake address. That will prevent people from getting your mailing address
+as easily.
+
+I've been doxxed so many times that I have given up trying to keep my things
+separate. A lot of the places you see me using different names started out as my
+attempts to use separate handles in different places. I have kept them the same
+for consistency but I have largely given up trying to keep them separate. It is
+a lot of work and I bet that even if I went back on the hyper private sthick (if
+I even can at this point, I've been frontpaged on Orange Site and my blog gets
+so much traffic that it's probably impossible in practice without abandoning my
+handles and picking new ones).
+
+Your staff will lose interest and abandon the project one day without telling
+you. They may end up still being connected there, but just as an idle bouncer.
+It's akin to a zombie laying in the background.
+
+Call your local police non-emergency number and set up a standing order to call
+you before they send in a SWAT team to your house. There are people that will
+seriously call the cops and claim you're armed and dangerous to get a SWAT team
+to ruin your life or potentially get you killed. This is not a joke. It's nearly
+happened to me thrice. I got that call from the cops once. It is not a good
+feeling.
+
+You need to use something with a powerful and easy to use spambot or message
+filtering built into the server itself. This will save your ass some day.
+
+---
+
+The former moderators of the rooms that were closed off came back with
+pitchforks and torches. They were **pissed**. The rooms they had tended to for
+years were suddenly stolen from them. Yes, they were abandoned, but the
+precedent for doing such a thing had never really existed before. It was such a
+tiny thing, but they had to go out of their way to make that golem. They had to
+tell the golem what to do. They had to send out that golem.
+
+Several groups were on the fence with regards of what to do, but that golem made
+the choice for them. Some groups even wanted _to stay at the same meeting house_
+but the golem came in and closed their hall without warning.
+
+---
+
+The day I killed PonyChat was a hard day for me. I had planned it 3 months ago.
+Warnings were issued. I helped bigger communities move elsewhere. Everything was
+spinning down.
+
+Then the time came and I ran the script that only needed to be run once:
+
+```
+$ ./scripts/kill_ponychat.sh
+```
+
+A progress bar appeared and with it all of what was created over the last decade
+was destroyed. Backups were erased. Data was wiped. Servers were destroyed. DNS
+records were altered. And finally it printed this:
+
+```
+It's okay to cry.
+```
+
+And that was the end of it.
+
+---
+
+If the halls were empty before, they were desolate now. Everything was being
+abandoned in real time. Announcements were made about how the golem was
+premature and that people should really consider staying. It was no use. The
+golem had made up their minds.
+
+The rot started.
+
+---
+
+Author's Note: I really hope this is the last entry in this little speculative
+fiction/postmortem/retrospective series. I have an article in the pipeline on
+how I'm creating virtual machines from templates so that I can test how various
+versions of various distros work, but this freenode bullshit has eaten up a lot
+of my thinking time. It's been like watching a train wreck. You can't look at
+it, but you can't look away either. It's so hard to watch yet you just can't
+help but watch it.
+
+It hurts.
+
+This was not on my bingo card for 2021.

blog/excited-for-2022-2021-12-28.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,192 @@
+---
+title: "Things I'm Excited for in 2022"
+date: 2021-12-28
+author: ectamorphic
+---
+
+2021 has been...a thing. However there are a lot of things that I am looking
+forward to in 2022 that I'm gonna summarize in a few categories.
+
+## VR
+
+2021 has been a really dry year for VR tech. The chip shortage has really hurt
+the budding VR industry, but there are some things that have been announced that
+I am looking forward to.
+
+[VR has really been one of the main things that's been keeping me sane over the
+eternal plague. It's become one of my main activities and I am looking forward
+to the improvements that come with new generations of VR
+tech.](conversation://Cadey/enby)
+
+### Simula One
+
+[Simula](https://simulavr.com/) is trying to create a VR headset that can
+function as a monitor replacement. This is something I am _really_ excited for.
+The Simula One has a lot of potential to change how people use computers.
+
+Right now a lot of the "working in VR" kinds of projects try to recreate the
+_experience_ of using a desktop PC in VR. This makes sense, the existing
+paridigm is already there and people are already familiar with it. However there
+is also a lot of room for ditching the constraints of the past and really
+experimenting with what computing can be if you aren't constrained by monitors.
+
+The Simula One headset is going to have [one of the highest pixels-per-degree on
+the market for consumer VR](https://simulavr.com/blog/vr-comparison/). It's
+going to be running NixOS and [Monado](https://monado.freedesktop.org/).
+
+I don't really know if it is going to take off and if the result will be any
+good, however it's very important that people try these kinds of things. Who
+knows what will catch on? They are going to open up a kickstarter in January and
+I plan to be one of the early high tier donators.
+
+### Valve "deckard"
+
+Valve has been working on the Steam Deck, but there's also a section of Valve
+that has been hard at work on a VR headset codenamed
+["deckard"](https://www.theverge.com/2021/9/29/22699914/valve-deckard-standalone-vr-headset-prototype-development).
+The rumor mill says it will have an option to run as a standalone headset as
+well as a traditional PCVR headset. Other digging into things have found a wifi
+chip (a specific wifi6 realtek one) that would allow for streaming VR gameplay
+over a network and there are also references to using
+[xrdesktop](https://www.collabora.com/news-and-blog/news-and-events/moving-the-linux-desktop-to-another-reality.html)
+as a way to run "flat" applications in a VR space. There are also rumors that it
+will support "inside-out" tracking, which is also essential for being a portable
+headset.
+
+I would absolutely love to have such a thing. I travel occasionally for work and
+I would really love to have a quality PCVR experience on the go. It would let me
+be able to not skip my workout days when I'm in a hotel room.
+
+The VR space on Linux is slightly stagnated at the moment due to most of the
+investment either being in SteamVR on Windows or on Oculus' fork of Android.
+This does make sense though, there is a lot of money to be made in the VR space.
+
+Hopefully Valve can improve the state of VR on Linux with the "deckard".
+
+## Video Games
+
+2021 has had some banger releases. Halo Infinite finally dropped. Final Fantasy
+7 Remake came to PC. [Metroid
+Dread](https://christine.website/blog/metroid-dread-review-2021-10-10) finally
+came out after being rumored for more than half of my lifetime. Forza Horizon 5
+raced out into the hearts of millions. Overall, it was a pretty good year to be
+a gamer.
+
+[I was going to do a writeup of my thoughts on Halo Infinite, however I really
+want to reserve that for when I can do it co-op. From what I've heard of the
+development of Infinite there were many points where they didn't think that the
+game would ship at all. It came out though. It's decent, movement is really fun,
+but overall I don't feel it's going to be genre-defining in the ways they would
+have hoped.](conversation://Cadey/coffee)
+
+However 2022 looks like we're going to finally start returning to "normal" with
+development schedules. Here's what I'm the most excited for:
+
+### Steam Deck
+
+The [Steam Deck](https://www.steamdeck.com/en/) is a handheld PC that will let
+you play games. It's also likely going to be my first "next gen" console, as
+despite my repeated attempts I have been unable to get an Xbox Series console or
+a PS5.
+
+[Is the Steam Deck really a console? It's much more like a PC, but it's not as
+much of a console as the Oculus Quest 2 is.](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+[Let's just call it a console for the sake of
+argument.](conversation://Cadey/coffee)
+
+I'm excited for this on multiple levels. Valve is going to make it run SteamOS 3
+by default. SteamOS is based on Arch Linux and they have been making improvement
+after improvement to the Linux kernel and all of the software they are going to
+use on it. Valve hopes to have most games on Steam playable like they are on a
+PC running windows.
+
+It's also a bit of a chunky boi. It's gonna be a bit hefty, but I'm excited for
+what it is going to bring to the ecosystem. It may lead to the year of Linux on
+the desktop!
+
+[Isn't that every year though?](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+### Splatoon 3
+
+Splatoon is one of my favorite game series. It's a game where you have a bunch
+of ink guns and your goal is to cover as much turf as possible. The game feels
+like Quake in the best ways. You use your sticks to lead and the gyroscope to
+refine your aim, just like you would with a Steam Controller.
+
+[I'm still sad that the Steam Controller failed in the
+market.](conversation://Cadey/coffee)
+
+Splatoon 3 looks like it will build on the fundamentals in great ways. I can't
+wait to see what they have in store!
+
+### The Sequel to The Legend of Zelda: Breath of The Wild
+
+I have over 400 hours logged in Breath of The Wild. It is in the running for my
+favorite games of all time. The really innovative part of Breath of The Wild was
+the fact that it was a jRPG without a leveling mechanic, experience points or a
+hard-defined story path. You are dumped into the world, given tools to explore
+through it and then given free reign to do whatever you want. It is a massive
+open world (probably one of the biggest in a Nintendo game save maybe Xenoblade
+Chronicles X) and you are given the agency you need to play the game how you
+want. You can run straight to Ganon and finish the game in less than an hour.
+You can spend hundreds of hours exploring the world to solve all the puzzle
+shrines.
+
+Most of all though, the really great part about Breath of The Wild is the fact
+that as you play, your skill as a player improves. You learn to chain together
+mechanics to do basically whatever you want and the game doesn't stop you. You
+can do _whatever you want_ and the real progression system is your skill.
+
+[This sounds weird, but tying progression to player skill is incredibly
+anti-meta as far as these games go. Usually jRPGs are very tailored experiences
+where you go through the standard "fetch bread -> kill god" kind of power skill
+tree, but with Breath of The Wild you can "kill god" right out of the gate and
+"fetch bread" later.](conversation://Cadey/enby)
+
+I have no idea what to expect for the sequel to Breath of The Wild, but I'm
+excited as heck to see what they come up with.
+
+[This is going to have an article written about it once I've gotten a chance to
+play through it. This may take a week to a month. It's gonna be worth the
+wait.](conversation://Cadey/enby)
+
+## My Projects
+
+I don't really like having too many project plans ahead of time, but here are
+the biggest things I'm already committing myself to do next year. Something
+something forward looking statements something something.
+
+### Daily Workout Streams
+
+I love rhythm games. I haven't really had good rhythm games to play until I got
+back into VR. I've been playing a lot of [Beat
+Saber](https://store.steampowered.com/app/620980/Beat_Saber/) and more recently
+[Synth Riders](https://synthridersvr.com/). I've been streaming my play on
+[Twitch](https://twitch.tv/princessxen) and I have a playlist of the VODs on
+[YouTube](https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLJDDsMrk2tSH3nhLWqV8IZLgae1CNYurH).
+
+I live a very sedentary lifestyle, even before COVID, and I want to start to get
+back into shape. Doing it [dancing on the
+internet](https://youtu.be/q3F06mKP2uk?list=PLJDDsMrk2tSH3nhLWqV8IZLgae1CNYurH&t=4342)
+is fun, so why not?
+
+### Spellblade
+
+I have a bunch of unreleased material for Spellblade that I need to go in and
+edit up and post.
+
+### V-Tubing
+
+I got a webcam for Christmas that I plan to use for V-Tubing coming soon. I want
+to use it for recording conference talks as well as for doing some non-VR gaming
+streams.
+
+I have been working on getting a V-Tuber model hacked up out of the one that
+I've been using in VRChat, but having no idea what I am doing in Unity has
+really not been helping.
+
+---
+
+Hope this was an interesting view into what I'm excited for. This may be my last
+post for the year. Stay safe out there, things have been rough.

blog/experimental-rilkef-2018-11-30.markdown

@@ -3,8 +3,6 @@ title: I Put Words on this Webpage so You Have to Listen to Me Now
 date: 2018-11-30
 ---
 
-# I Put Words on this Webpage so You Have to Listen to Me Now
-
 Holy cow. I am angry at how people do thing with tool. People do thing with tool so badly. You shouldn't do thing with tool, you should do other thing, compare this:
 
 I am using tool. I want to do thing. I flopnax the ropjar and then I get the result of doing thing (because it's convenient to flopnax the ropjar given the existing program structure). 

blog/farewell-email-heroku-2019-03-08.markdown

@@ -8,8 +8,6 @@ tags:
  - heroku
 ---
 
-# Farewell Email - Heroku
-
 ## May our paths cross again
 
 Hey all,
@@ -20,7 +18,7 @@ The people I've worked with at Heroku have been catalytic to our success as a le
 
 There is no doubt in my mind that you all will build fantastically useful and stable tools for Salesforce customers. Keep your eyes on what matters, let your heart guide your actions, and you all will continue to construct and refine the finest possible infrastructure that is possible. We may be limited as humans, but together in groups like this we can surpass these arbitrary differences and create things that really shine. 
 
-
> As one being we repeat the words:
  
+> As one being we repeat the words:  
 >  
 > Flow in compassion  
 > Release what is divine  

blog/fear-07-24-2018.markdown

@@ -6,8 +6,6 @@ for: Twilight Sparkle
 series: stories
 ---
 
-# Fear
-
 _I must not fear._  
 _Fear is the mind-killer._  
 _Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration._  

blog/feeds-fixed-gemini-flight-journal-2020-07-26.markdown

@@ -5,8 +5,6 @@ tags:
  - gemini
 ---
 
-# RSS/Atom Feeds Fixed and Announcing my Flight Journal
-
 I have released version 2.0.1 of this site's code. With it I have fixed the RSS
 and Atom feed generation. For now I have had to sacrifice the post content being
 in the feed, but I will bring it back as soon as possible.

blog/ffi-ing-golang-from-nim-for-fun-and-profit-2015-12-20.markdown

@@ -7,9 +7,6 @@ tags:
  - nim
 ---
 
-FFI-ing Golang from Nim for Fun and Profit
-==========================================
-
 As a side effect of Go 1.5, the compiler and runtime recently gained the
 ability to compile code and run it as FFI code running in a C namespace. This
 means that you can take any Go function that expresses its types and the like

blog/final-chapter-2021-05-20.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,147 @@
+---
+title: Final Chapter
+date: 2021-05-20
+tags:
+ - irc
+series: freenode
+---
+
+The last caretaker looked at the last light lit in the empty halls. They looked
+out across their home. It used to be filled with thousands of people. There were
+discussions about every topic imaginable from people of as many backgrounds.
+Projects were born. Relationships were forged. Friends were found. Lives were
+irreparably changed for the better.
+
+But the darkness came and soaked into the foundation. Some noticed it and became
+alerted. Some ignored it as an "inevitable" change. Some ran away, abandoning
+their home of choice. Some stuck around.
+
+Then the darkness took over and the larger discussion rooms sprung into action.
+The meddlers between the halls suddenly became a network of people to assist the
+other larger discussion rooms to move elsewhere. Through their careful planning
+and surgical execution, they managed to move all of the major discussions away
+in hours. Prior migrations on this scale have not happened. Normally there are
+stragglers. Normally people try to stick it out and decry those that leave as
+"reactionaries".
+
+---
+
+```
+NickServ: User reg.  : Dec 03 22:31:33 2007 (13y 24w 3d ago)
+NickServ: Last addr  : ~cadey@infoforcefeed/Xe
+```
+
+Freenode had been my home on the internet for over half of my life. All things
+IRC must come to an end, but it felt like Freenode was eternal. The staff had
+not always made decisions that I agreed with, but I have run IRC networks
+before. I know how it is. Precedent can drown you.
+
+It's just sad to see it end like this. The communities that I have joined there
+have been _catalytic_ in my life. I have irreparably changed the life of others
+on Freenode. I met people on Freenode that I talk with daily. I'm sure that I
+wouldn't have the career that I have without Freenode. 
+
+But it's been taken over by a narcissistic Trumpian wannabe Korean royalty
+bitcoin millionaire, and I just cannot support that.
+
+---
+
+Not this time though. The darkness was so deep into things that the very rooms
+themselves became at risk. The floors were not known to be safe. The caretakers
+had worked together to come up with a new plan and had built an exact replica of
+the meeting halls elsewhere.
+
+Through that network of meddlers, people were helped over. The new halls needed
+adjusting to cope with the sudden load, however they took them. The caretakers
+spun up their new discussion hall and built it stronger than before.
+
+They, the last caretaker, was unable to control the darkness anymore. The
+darkness was too deep. Their access had rotten away.
+
+---
+
+```
+NickServ: Account Xe has 5 other nick(s) grouped to it, remove those first.
+```
+
+I joined Freenode initially in order to get help with Ubuntu in high school.
+
+> (shadowh511) hello, i need some help configuring wine 0.9.50 to run
+> microsoft digital image suite 10, i try to run the setup app, an i get two
+> looping messages about MDAC, and on how the system needs to reboot before it
+> can install, but the messages loop, how can i fix this?
+
+> (Fluxd) !wine | shadowh511
+
+> (ubotu) shadowh511: WINE is a compatibility layer for running Windows
+> programs on GNU/Linux. See https://help.ubuntu.com/community/Wine for more
+> information, and see !AppDB for application compatibility.
+
+> (shadowh511) they won't help me there
+
+I eventually figured it out. I think I just did it on Windows.
+
+I ended up rejoining it and really sticking around once I got into My Little
+Pony: Friendship is Magic. There was a channel called `#reddit-mlp` that I
+haunted for years.
+
+I met friends that I still talk with today. I wonder if anyone from there that I
+haven't talked with in years is reading this now.
+
+---
+
+The soul of the halls was not the halls itself. It was not the caretakers. It
+was the people. Once the bigger halls moved over, the people followed. Each
+person leaving took that much more of the soul with them.
+
+Drops became a stream became a torrent became a flood and in a day's time the
+soul of the halls had left. The soul was gone and only the darkness remained.
+
+The last caretaker looked at the room and snuffed out their light. They packed
+up their backpack and closed the front door for the last time.
+
+They cried as they walked to their new home.
+
+---
+
+```
+(Xe) ungroup JohnMadden
+NickServ: Nick JohnMadden has been removed from your account.
+(Xe) ungroup Xena
+NickServ: Nick Xena has been removed from your account.
+(Xe) ungroup Cadance
+NickServ: Nick Cadance has been removed from your account.
+(Xe) ungroup Cadey
+NickServ: Nick Cadey has been removed from your account.
+(Xe) ungroup shadowh511
+NickServ: Nick shadowh511 has been removed from your account.
+(Xe) drop Xe ******
+```
+
+> NickServ: This is a friendly reminder that you are about to destroy the
+> account Xe. To avoid accidental use of this command, this operation has to
+> be confirmed. Please confirm by replying with /msg NickServ DROP Xe `******`
+> `86033ae0:9e021b10`
+
+---
+
+The halls fell, but the people that made up the soul of those halls moved on.
+
+Their home went away because their home wasn't a building. It was an idea. Ideas
+persist in ways that buildings don't.
+
+---
+
+```
+(Xe) DROP Xe ****** 86033ae0:9e021b10
+NickServ: The account Xe has been dropped.
+```
+
+You can find me on [Liberachat](https://libera.chat/) in `#xeserv`. If you want
+to chat about my blog articles, I welcome any readers to join there.
+
+Be well.
+
+```
+irc: server freenode has been deleted
+```

blog/footnote-2021-06-15.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,142 @@
+---
+title: Footnote
+date: 2021-06-15
+tags:
+ - irc
+series: freenode
+---
+
+- [Final Chapter](/blog/final-chapter-2021-05-20)
+- [Epilogue](/blog/epilogue-2021-05-26)
+
+---
+
+Before the darkness was the darkness, the darkness was a child. This child found
+themselves lost and without purpose. Life was scary. Things were changing
+constantly, and they found themselves at a loss. One day they were walking about
+the etherial network and stumbled across a meeting house.
+
+The child looked inside and was confused. There were hundereds of rooms with
+even more people inside. There were rooms on every topic. There was a shower of
+culture and an outpouring of knowledge. Hanging out here would permanently
+change the course of the child's life.
+
+---
+
+Horrified by the room takeover golem, the remaining regulars had fled their
+former homes. This was not a home for legal reasons, but it was their social
+home on the etherial network. Sadness had turned to rage had turned to
+depression had turned to laughter. One of the former regulars was a apprentice
+scryer, so as a lark they decided to set up some meeting rooms to scry their way
+into rooms in the old meeting house. It was a one-way scry and all they could do
+was watch.
+
+---
+
+Historically, IRC spam has been a unique form of art. Yes, I'm serious. There
+have been legitimate works of art created in the desire to disrupt conversations
+on IRC. It sounds absurd, but it's true. One unique quality of these artworks is
+that in order to see them, they must be shared with others. At some level you
+can't view this art alone, and that makes it beautiful.
+
+Fighting IRC spam has turned into a full time job. There are hundreds of
+different bot kinds and so many different ways to spam that fighting it is
+difficult due to the server software being very simple. Historically IRC
+developers have not wanted to add hooks so that people could run a bit of code
+on each message as it was being processed. There were legitimate fears that
+doing this would allow a malicious server admin to log every channel, not just
+the ones they have joined. IRC was created at a time where all of the admins
+knew eachother; but they were part of different organizations, each with their
+own rules and subtly different codes of conduct.
+
+One of the best ways to fight IRC spam has been to wait until the spammer gets
+bored and goes off to do something else. Users are not as understanding to this
+method.
+
+---
+
+Someone had set up a golem-creating golem and aimed it at the meta-discussion
+room of the former meeting house. It did its job dutifully and continued
+marching on:
+
+> (pissnet) come to pissnet for cold wet chats!
+
+The people watching the scry had never seen this brand of disruption before. By
+now the people watching had amassed to over a hundred and they were all bored
+and eager for something new. Something new was here!
+
+> (pissnet) come to pissnet for cold hard piss!
+
+Over time, the shadowy group behind these golems became known as the urinators.
+These urinators became a bit of a hero to the people who watched in horror as
+the situation developed. The golems got discovered and ejected, and even earned
+the ire of the anti-golem golem. The disguise was clever, the ejections where
+swift, but the watchers laughed as the golems kept getting more and more
+creative.
+
+---
+
+The darkness was dismayed. Everything was falling apart around them. The
+maintainers of the maintenance golems had fled. The spellcrafters that empowered
+them [had sworn to give no more
+assistance](https://atheme.github.io/atheme-open-letter/). The halls themselves
+were starting to show the rot that had built up over the last 20 years of them
+existing.
+
+The darkness pondered amongst themselves until they pulled back a memory from
+the past. A memory from the child. The halls themselves had to be replaced!
+
+---
+
+The watchers looked on in horror. The scryer had given up hope and decided to
+move on with their life. The urinators had suceeded in shutting down the things
+that were fun to the watchers. The urinators won.
+
+Some urinators created their own halls. It was an experiment in anarchy for
+running these types of halls. It is astounding that it managed to stay as stable
+as it did.
+
+---
+
+I have been completely unsure how I should broach the topic of pissnet in these
+articles. For people unfamiliar with IRC culture, you must think I'm making shit
+up or something. It is _so_ out there that it's almost like an abstact art
+gallery or something. But no, pissnet happened. It started as IRC spam and then
+turned into this: [letspiss.net](http://letspiss.net/). I don't really think I
+can suggest readers of this blog go there. It is some kind of weird anarchist
+IRC hackerspace, but most of the users are ircops and can see your IP address.
+
+Like, for people that are really deep into IRC culture, the whole pissnet
+shitshow was so out there that they thought the people that were telling them
+about that were making that shit up.
+
+But it's real.
+
+---
+
+> We are moving past legacy freenode to a new fork. The new freenode is
+> launched. You will slowly be disconnected and when you reconnect, you will be
+> on the new freenode. We patiently await to welcome you in freedom's holdout -
+> the freenode. If you're looking to connect now, you can already /server
+> chat.freenode.net 6697 (ssl) or 6667 (plaintext). It's a new genesis for a new
+> era. Thank you for using freenode, and Hello World, from the future. freenode
+> is IRC. freenode is FOSS. When you connect, register your nickname and your
+> channel and get started. It's a new world. We're so happy to welcome you and
+> the millions of others.
+
+The darkness smiled and replaced the halls where they were. The darkness hoped
+that millions would follow.
+
+They didn't come.
+
+---
+
+- [Freenode commits suicide, is no longer a serious IRC
+  network](https://www.devever.net/~hl/freenode_suicide)
+- [the end of freenode](https://ariadne.space/2021/06/14/the-end-of-freenode/)
+- [All Freenode Channels and Users
+  Gone](https://old.reddit.com/r/linux/comments/o0263h/all_freenode_channels_and_users_gone/)
+- [Last remaining >1000 user community channel seized by freenode
+  staff](https://linux.chat/linux-on-freenode/)
+
+Freenode is dead. The spirit lives on in [Libera.chat](https://libera.chat/).

blog/formal-grammar-of-h-2019-05-19.markdown

@@ -4,8 +4,6 @@ date: 2019-05-19
 series: conlangs
 ---
 
-# A Formal Grammar of `h`
-
 ## Introduction
 
 `h` is a conlang project that I have been working off and on for years. It is infinitely simply teachable, trivial to master and can be used to represent the entire scope of all meaning in any facet of the word. All with a single character.

blog/fun-with-redirection-2021-09-22.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,382 @@
+---
+title: Fun with Redirection
+date: 2021-09-22
+author: Twi
+tags:
+ - shell
+ - redirection
+ - osdev
+---
+
+When you're hacking in the shell or in a script, sometimes you want to change
+how the output of a command is routed. Today I'm gonna cover common shell
+redirection tips and tricks that I use every day at work and how it all works
+under the hood.
+
+Let's say you're trying to capture the output of a command to a file, such as
+`uname -av`:
+
+```console
+$ uname -av
+Linux shachi 5.13.15 #1-NixOS SMP Wed Sep 8 06:50:21 UTC 2021 x86_64 GNU/Linux
+```
+
+You could copy that to the clipboard and paste it into a file, but there is a
+better way thanks to the `>` operator:
+
+```console
+$ uname -av > uname.txt
+$ cat uname.txt
+Linux shachi 5.13.15 #1-NixOS SMP Wed Sep 8 06:50:21 UTC 2021 x86_64 GNU/Linux
+```
+
+Let's say you want to run this on a few machines and put all of the output into
+`uname.txt`. You could write a shell script loop like this:
+
+```sh
+# make sure the file doesn't already exist
+rm -f uname.txt
+
+for host in shachi chrysalis kos-mos ontos pneuma
+do
+  ssh $host -- uname -av >> uname.txt
+done
+```
+
+Then `uname.txt` should look like this:
+
+```
+Linux shachi 5.13.15 #1-NixOS SMP Wed Sep 8 06:50:21 UTC 2021 x86_64 GNU/Linux
+Linux chrysalis 5.10.63 #1-NixOS SMP Wed Sep 8 06:49:02 UTC 2021 x86_64 GNU/Linux
+Linux kos-mos 5.10.45 #1-NixOS SMP Fri Jun 18 08:00:06 UTC 2021 x86_64 GNU/Linux
+Linux ontos 5.10.52 #1-NixOS SMP Tue Jul 20 14:05:59 UTC 2021 x86_64 GNU/Linux
+Linux pneuma 5.10.57 #1-NixOS SMP Sun Aug 8 07:05:24 UTC 2021 x86_64 GNU/Linux
+```
+
+Now let's say you want to extract all of the hostnames from that `uname.txt`.
+The pattern of the file seems to specify that fields are separated by spaces and
+the hostname seems to be the second space-separated field in each line. You can
+use the `cut` command to select that small subset from each line, and you can
+feed the `cut` command's standard input using the `<` operator:
+
+```console
+$ cut -d ' ' -f 2 < uname.txt
+shachi
+chrysalis
+kos-mos
+ontos
+pneuma
+```
+
+[It's worth noting that a lot of these core CLI utilities are built on the idea
+that they are _filters_, or things that take one infinite stream of text in on
+one end and then return another stream of text out the other
+end. This is done through a channel called "standard input/output", where
+standard input refers to input to the command and standard output refers to the
+output of the command.](conversation://Mara/hacker)
+
+[That's a great metaphor, let's build onto it using the `|` (pipe)
+operator. The pipe operator lets you pipe the standard output of one command to
+the standard input of another.](conversation://Cadey/enby)
+
+[You mentioned that you can pass files as input and output for commands, does
+this mean that standard input and standard output are
+files?](conversation://Mara/happy)
+
+[Precisely! They are just files that are automatically open for every process.
+Usually commands will output to standard out and some will also accept input via
+standard in.](conversation://Cadey/enby)
+
+[Doesn't that have some level of overhead though? Isn't it expensive to spin up
+a whole heckin' `cat` process for that?](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+[Not on any decent system made in the last 20 years. This may have some impact
+on Windows (because they have core architectural mistakes that make processes
+take up to 100 milliseconds to spin up), but this is about Unix/Linux. I think
+these should work on Windows too if you use Cygwin, but if you're using WSL you
+shouldn't have any real issues there](conversation://Cadey/coffee)
+
+Let's say we want to rewrite that `cut` command above to use pipes. You could
+write it like this:
+
+```sh
+cat uname.txt | cut -d ' ' -f 2
+```
+
+[The mnemonic we use for remembering the `cut` command is that fields are
+separated by the `d`elimiter and you cut out the nth
+`f`ield/s.](conversation://Mara/hacker)
+
+This will get you the exact same output:
+
+```console
+$ cat uname.txt | cut -d ' ' -f 2
+shachi
+chrysalis
+kos-mos
+ontos
+pneuma
+```
+
+Personally I prefer writing shell pipelines like that as it makes it a bit
+easier to tack on more specific selectors or operations as you go along. For
+example, if you wanted to sort them you could pipe the result to `sort`:
+
+```console
+$ cat uname.txt | cut -d ' ' -f 2 | sort
+chrysalis
+kos-mos
+ontos
+pneuma
+shachi
+```
+
+This lets you gradually build up a shell pipeline as you drill down to the data
+you want in the format you want.
+
+[I wanted to save this compiler error to a file but it didn't work. I tried
+doing this:](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+```console
+$ rustc foo.rs > foo.log
+```
+
+But the output printed to the screen instead of the file:
+
+```console
+$ rustc foo.rs > foo.log
+error: expected one of `!` or `::`, found `main`
+ --> foo.rs:1:5
+  |
+1 | fun main() {}
+  |     ^^^^ expected one of `!` or `::`
+
+error: aborting due to previous error
+
+$ cat foo.log
+$
+```
+
+This happens because there are actually _two_ output streams per program. There
+is the standard out stream and there is also a standard error stream. The reason
+that standard error exists is so that you can see if any errors have happened if
+you redirect standard out.
+
+Sometimes standard out may not be a stream of text, say you have a compressed
+file you want to analyze and there's an issue with the decompression. If the
+decompressor wrote its errors to the standard output stream, it could confuse or
+corrupt your analysis. 
+
+However, we can redirect standard error in particular by modifying how we
+redirect to the file:
+
+```console
+$ rustc foo.rs 2> foo.log
+$ cat foo.log
+error: expected one of `!` or `::`, found `main`
+ --> foo.rs:1:5
+  |
+1 | fun main() {}
+  |     ^^^^ expected one of `!` or `::`
+
+error: aborting due to previous error
+```
+
+[Where did the `2` come from?](conversation://Mara/wat)
+
+So I mentioned earlier that redirection modifies the standard input and output
+of programs. This is not entirely true, but it was a convenient half-truth to
+help build this part of the explanation.
+
+For every process on a Unix-like system (such as Linux and macOS), the kernel
+stores a list of active file-like objects. This includes real files on the
+filesystem, pipes between processes, network sockets, and more. When a program
+reads or writes a file, they tell the kernel which file they want to use by
+giving it a number index into that list, starting at zero. Standard in/out/error
+are just the conventional names for the first three open files in the list, like
+this:
+
+| File Descriptor | Purpose         |
+| :------ | :-------        |
+|       0 | Standard input  |
+|       1 | Standard output |
+|       2 | Standard error  |
+
+Shell redirection simply changes which files are in that list of open files when
+the program starts running.
+
+That is why you use a `2` there, because you are telling the shell to change
+file descriptor number `2` of the `rustc` process to point to the filesystem
+file `foo.log`, which in turn makes the standard error of `rustc` get written to
+that file for you.
+
+In turn, this also means that `cat foo.txt > foo2.txt` is actually a shortcut
+for saying `cat foo.txt 1> foo2.txt`, but the `1` can be omitted there because
+standard out is usually the "default" output that most of these kind of
+pipelines cares about.
+
+[How would I get both standard output and standard error in the same
+file?](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+The cool part about the `>` operator is that it doesn't just stop with output to
+files on the desk, you can actually have one file descriptor get pointed to
+another. Let's say you have a need for both standard out and standard error to
+go to the same file. You can do this with a command like this:
+
+```
+$ rustc foo.rs > foo.log 2>&1
+```
+
+This tells the shell to point standard out to `foo.log`, and then standard
+error to standard out (which is now `foo.log`). There's a footgun here though;
+the order of the redirects matters. Consider the following:
+
+```
+$ rustc foo.rs 2>&1 > foo.log
+error: expected one of `!` or `::`, found `main`
+ --> foo.rs:1:5
+  |
+1 | fun main() {}
+  |     ^^^^ expected one of `!` or `::`
+
+error: aborting due to previous error
+$ cat foo.log
+$ # foo.log is empty, why???
+```
+
+We wanted to redirect stderr to `foo.log`, but that didn't happen. Why? Well,
+the shell considers our redirects one at a time from left to right. When the
+shell sees `2>&1`, it hasn't considered `> foo.log` yet, so standard out (`1`)
+is still our terminal. It dutifully redirects stderr to the terminal, which is
+where it was already going anyway.  Then it sees `1 > foo.log`, so it redirects
+standard out to `foo.log`. That's the end of it though. It doesn't
+retroactively redirect standard error to match the new standard out, so our
+errors get dumped to our terminal instead of the file.
+
+Confusing right? Lucky for us, there's a short form that redirects both at the
+same time, making this mistake impossible:
+
+```
+$ rustc foo.rs &> foo.log
+```
+
+This will put standard out and standard error to `foo.log` the same way that
+`> foo.log 2>&1` will.
+
+[Will that work in every shell?](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+[It's a bourne shell (`bash`) extension, but I've tested it in `zsh` and `fish`.
+You can also do `&|` to pipe both standard out and standard error at the same
+time in the same way you'd do `2>&1 | whatever`.](conversation://Cadey/enby)
+
+You can also use this with `>>`:
+
+```
+$ rustc foo.rs &>> foo.log
+$ cat foo.log
+error: expected one of `!` or `::`, found `main`
+ --> foo.rs:1:5 
+  | 
+1 | fun main() {}
+  |     ^^^^ expected one of `!` or `::
+
+error: aborting due to previous error
+
+error: expected one of `!` or `::`, found `main`
+ --> foo.rs:1:5
+  |
+1 | fun main() {}
+  |     ^^^^ expected one of `!` or `::`
+
+error: aborting due to previous error
+```
+
+[How do I redirect standard in to a file?](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+Well, you don't. Standard in is an input, so you can change where it comes
+_from_, not where it goes.
+
+But, maybe you want to make a copy of a program's input and send it somewhere
+else. There is a way to do _that_ using a command called `tee`. `tee` copies
+its standard input to standard output, but it also writes a second copy to a
+file. For example:
+
+```console
+$ dmesg | tee dmesg.txt | grep 'msedge'
+[   70.585463] traps: msedge[4715] trap invalid opcode ip:5630ddcedc4c sp:7ffd41f67700 error:0 in msedge[5630d8fc2000+952d000]
+[   70.702544] traps: msedge[4745] trap invalid opcode ip:5630ddcedc4c sp:7ffd41f67700 error:0 in msedge[5630d8fc2000+952d000]
+[   70.806296] traps: msedge[4781] trap invalid opcode ip:5630ddcedc4c sp:7ffd41f67700 error:0 in msedge[5630d8fc2000+952d000]
+[   70.918095] traps: msedge[4889] trap invalid opcode ip:5630ddcedc4c sp:7ffd41f67700 error:0 in msedge[5630d8fc2000+952d000]
+[   71.031938] traps: msedge[4926] trap invalid opcode ip:5630ddcedc4c sp:7ffd41f67700 error:0 in msedge[5630d8fc2000+952d000]
+[   71.138974] traps: msedge[4935] trap invalid opcode ip:5630ddcedc4c sp:7ffd41f67700 error:0 in msedge[5630d8fc2000+952d000]
+[ 1169.163603] traps: msedge[35719] trap invalid opcode ip:556a93951c4c sp:7ffc533f35c0 error:0 in msedge[556a8ec26000+952d000]
+[ 1213.301722] traps: msedge[36054] trap invalid opcode ip:55a245960c4c sp:7ffe6d169b40 error:0 in msedge[55a240c35000+952d000]
+[10963.234459] traps: msedge[104732] trap invalid opcode ip:55fdb864fc4c sp:7ffc996dfee0 error:0 in msedge[55fdb3924000+952d000]
+```
+
+This would put the output of the `dmesg` command (read from kernel logs) into
+`dmesg.txt`, as well as sending it into the grep command. You might want to do
+this when debugging long command pipelines to see exactly what is going into a
+program that isn't doing what you expect.
+
+Redirections also work in scripts too. You can also set "default" redirects for
+every command in a script using the `exec` command:
+
+```sh
+exec > out.log 2> error.log
+
+ls
+rustc foo.rs
+```
+
+This will have the file listing from `ls` written to `out.log` and any errors
+from `rustc` written to `error.log`.
+
+A lot of other shell tricks and fun is built on top of these fundamentals. For
+example you can take a folder, zip it up and then unzip it over on another
+machine using a command like this:
+
+```
+$ tar cz ./blog | ssh pneuma tar xz -C ~/code/christine.website/blog
+```
+
+This will run `tar` to create a compressed copy of the `./blog` folder and then
+pipe that to tar on another computer to extract that into
+`~/code/christine.website/blog`. It's just pipes and redirection all the way
+down! Deep inside `ssh` it's really just piping output of commands back and
+forth over an encrypted network socket. Connecting to an IRC server is just
+piping in and out data to the chat server, even more so if you use TLS to
+connect there. In a way you can model just about everything in Unix with pipes
+and file descriptors because that is the cornerstone of its design: Everything
+is a file.
+
+[This doesn't mean it's literally a file on the disk, it means you can _interact
+with_ just about everything using the same system interface as you do with
+files. Even things like hard disks and video cards.](conversation://Mara/hacker)
+
+Here's a fun thing to do. Using [`curl`](https://curl.se/) to read the contents
+of a URL and [`jq`](https://stedolan.github.io/jq/) to select out bits from a
+JSON stream, you can make a script that lets you read the most recent title from
+my blog's [JSONFeed](/blog.json):
+
+```sh
+#!/usr/bin/env bash
+# xeblog-post.sh
+
+curl -s https://christine.website/blog.json | jq -r '.items[0] | "\(.title) \(.url)"'
+```
+
+At the time of writing this post, here is the output I get from this command:
+
+```
+$ ./xeblog-post.sh
+Anbernic RG280M Review https://christine.website/blog/rg280m-review
+```
+
+What else could you do with pipes and redirection? The cloud's the limit!
+
+---
+
+Thanks to violet spark, cadence, and AstroSnail for looking over this post and
+fact-checking as well as helping mend some of the brain dump and awkward
+wording into more polished sentences.

blog/furnal-equinox-2021-03-22.markdown

@@ -6,8 +6,6 @@ tags:
  - fe21
 ---
 
-# The Relaxing Surreality of VRChat Furry Conventions
-
 Author's Note: you may want to view this post in a GUI browser for the best experience.
 
 It is no secret that I am a furry. The main way that a lot of my friends and I meet up is at conventions. COVID has lead to a year without cons for my friend groups. It's gotten bad enough that in one server the convention coordination channel had its name changed from `#conventions` to `#cancelled`. These conventions are expensive (flight/hotel/badge/the dealer's den), tiring and weirdly recharging all at once.

blog/gamebridge-2020-05-09.markdown

@@ -8,8 +8,6 @@ tags:
   - twitch
 ---
 
-# Gamebridge: Fitting Square Pegs into Round Holes since 2020
-
 Recently I did a stream called [Twitch Plays Super Mario 64][tpsm64]. During
 that stream I both demonstrated and hacked on a tool I'm calling
 [gamebridge][gamebridge]. Gamebridge is a tool that lets you allow games to

blog/gears-and-gods-2019-11-14.markdown

@@ -7,8 +7,6 @@ tags:
  - gods
 ---
 
-# The Gears and The Gods
-
 If there are any gods in computing, they are the authors of compilers. The
 output of compilers is treated as a Heavenly Decree, sometimes used for many
 sprints or even years after the output has been last emitted.

blog/gemini-web-fear-missing-out-2020-08-02.markdown

@@ -6,8 +6,6 @@ tags:
  - web
 ---
 
-# The Fear Of Missing Out
-
 Humans have evolved over thousands of years with communities that are small,
 tight-knit and where it is easy to feel like you know everyone in them. The
 Internet changes this completely. With the Internet, it's easy to send messages,

blog/get-going-hello-world-2019-10-28.markdown

@@ -8,8 +8,6 @@ tags:
  - draft
 ---
 
-# Get Going: Hello, World!
-
 This post is a draft of the first chapter in a book I'm writing to help people learn the
 [Go][go] programming language. It's aimed at people who understand the high
 level concepts of programming, but haven't had much practical experience with

blog/getting-started-with-go-2015-01-28.markdown

@@ -4,9 +4,6 @@ date: 2015-01-28
 series: howto
 ---
 
-Getting Started with Go
-=======================
-
 Go is an exciting language made by Google for systems programming. This article
 will help you get up and running with the Go compiler tools.
 

blog/gitea-release-tool-2020-05-31.markdown

@@ -7,8 +7,6 @@ tags:
  - release
 ---
 
-# gitea-release Tool Announcement
-
 I'm a big fan of automating things that can possibly be automated. One of the
 biggest pains that I've consistently had is creating/tagging releases of
 software. This has been a very manual process for me. I have to write up

blog/gnu-your-parent-2022-02-10.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,153 @@
+---
+title: "GNU Doesn't Care About Your Agency"
+date: 2022-02-10
+tags:
+ - gnu
+ - libre
+ - rant
+---
+
+<div class="warning">
+
+[EDIT(2022-02-10 12:47 EST): I apparently misread part of the GNU #guix channel
+rules and made an unreasonable assumption that violators of the rules could be
+banned. I have amended a conversation fragment accordingly. My intent was not to
+lie, but to point out that some users actually need stuff that nonguix provides
+but they just have to know that it exists in the first place.](conversation://Cadey/coffee)
+
+</div>
+
+Or: Ubuntu gives the user more agency about how they want to use their computer
+than fully libre GNU/Linux distros ever can.
+
+There are many different kinds of Linux distributions, but today we're going to
+think about a certain kind of distribution: ones where the distribution is
+totally comprised of free software as much as possible.
+
+These distributions aim to let users benefit by making it possible to study,
+hack at and modify every byte of software on the machine's hard drive. This is a
+fairly noble goal, however in the process of doing this they break core parts of
+hardware compatibility by "de-blobbing" the kernel. Most of these distributions
+have a very paternalistic implementation where the "de-blobbed" linux-libre
+kernel is the _only_ option, thus limiting users' agency.
+
+For example, let's think about the CPU that I'm using right now. The CPU I'm
+using is designed to be able to load CPU microcode updates that are distributed
+by the manufacturer in order to mitigate bugs in the microcode that released
+with the CPU that can cause real-world impact on what I do. Due to Facts and
+Circumstances that are immutable for the sake of argument, this microcode is not
+open source and cannot be compiled from source code. The linux-libre kernel
+removes the ability to load such firmware updates at runtime.
+
+This means that if something like the FDIV bug or Spectre shows up again but it
+can be patched trivially with a microcode update, by nature of using the
+linux-libre kernel I am doomed until the base microcode gets updated from the
+motherboard manufacturer. If they release a closed-source update that you cannot
+inspect or modify.
+
+This paternalistic view of "you shouldn't be able to load microcode updates
+because they aren't open source" means that my CPU will be vulnerable to
+potentially critical security flaws and I have no way to work around it. This
+ends up creating a _limitation_ in how I use my computer. This is worse than the
+limitations of proprietary hardware because there is the illusion of free choice
+that the community will spout off about as the next coming of sliced bread. That
+still doesn't change the fact that my wifi card won't work without the normal
+kernel and firmware blobs.
+
+Combine this with other things like wifi card firmware (some wifi cards don't
+have the firmware stored on the device, they require the OS to send it firmware
+at runtime to make it work at all), and you have actually limited the agency and
+capability of users far, far more than if you just let them load the firmware in
+the first place.
+
+[Yes, Yes the companies made the hardware this way in the first place and are
+responsible for the problem, but telling users they are wrong for wanting it to
+work because of an implementation detail about how the hardware updates itself
+feels a lot like victim blaming. I am aware of the Talos II being a magical
+puppy and rainbow situation where all of this isn't an issue, but sadly the
+world just didn't turn out that way and we have to deal with the results of
+it.](conversation://Cadey/coffee)
+
+Consider a situation like wanting to play an online game together with friends,
+but through Facts and Circumstances you have an Nvidia GPU and the game is on
+Steam with no open source option. If you are using a fully open source operating
+system with no capacity to install Steam or the Nvidia drivers, you are screwed
+and thus your freedom to use your computer how you want is severely limited.
+
+This also extends to how those Linux distributions handle things like AWS. AWS
+is largely the poster child of a proprietary cloud hosting platform that you are
+made to work with as part of your job. Consider if something like Parabola
+GNU/Linux created AWS images and gave users a best-in-class user experience for
+using them. This would make the net cost of using a highly auditable environment
+a lot lower than the current "don't use AWS lol" (which is again really close to
+victim blaming), and would also create institutional knowledge that would let
+other people benefit from this as a second or third order effect.
+
+Parabola making AWS images means they can create more generic images, which
+means that other people can use those images to do whatever they want with their
+own hardware. This lets you have a net benefit to everyone in the project by
+decreasing the friction of using it, so it will in turn make users more likely
+to adopt it.
+
+Remember the law of halves. Every additional step in adoption costs you half
+your audience. Spinning up an AWS instance to mess around with it is a very
+low-friction operation.
+
+[But you can just not be a scrub and compile your own traitor kernel that lets
+you load freedom-violating binary blobs!](conversation://Numa/delet)
+
+[Then you have to hope your CPU is good enough to build a kernel, hope you can
+pay attention to the kernel security mailing list enough to upgrade it when you
+need to and finally hope you can upgrade the firmware blobset that the kernel
+publishes separately! Hope is not a scalable strategy.](conversation://Cadey/angy)
+
+If their goal is _really_ to liberate users and make it easy for them to have
+control over what their computer is doing, they should make it trivial to escape
+hatch into a less "pure" setup without having to install third party
+repositories that you just have to know about or sidestepping the upstream
+update process to install your own system software. This is more victim blaming.
+
+The GNU project could be more than a circlejerk around things that the toe
+cheese god said in the 80's and 90's. They could have been a source of reverse
+engineering tools, institutions and overall inspire the kind of culture that
+would make it _easy_ to understand arbitrary hardware, platforms and software
+that you either come across or are made to use as a part of your job.
+
+But they aren't. Instead, Guix, one of their if not their main flagship project
+for making a fully GNU system, is addled by the use of the linux-libre kernel.
+This makes the kernel fundamentally _incompatible_ with a shocking number of
+computers, thus limiting users' freedom to use Guix at all.
+
+[But wait, isn't there that one nonguix project that allows you to install a
+normal kernel and Steam?](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+[Yeah, but talk about that in the main #guix channel and you get told to not
+talk about it. You just have to know that it exists and you can't learn that it
+exists without knowing someone that tells you that it exists under the table,
+like some kind of underground software drug dealer giving you a hit of wifi card
+firmware. This means that knowledge of the nonguix project (which may contain
+tools that make it possible to use Guix at all) is hidden from users that may
+need it because it allows users to install proprietary software. This limits
+user freedom from being able to use their computer how they want by making it a 
+potentially untrustable underground software den instead of something that can
+be properly handled upstream without having to place trust in too many
+places.](conversation://Cadey/angy)
+
+[That hardware is defective by design and you shouldn't use
+it.](conversation://Numa/delet)
+
+[Wow, thanks, I'm cured. My wifi card magically stopped existing and now
+everything is happy unicorns farting out rainbows that spawn free puppies and
+everything is saved forever.<br /><br />Again, that doesn't help me with the
+situation that my wifi card doesn't work and I as a user want it to even though
+making it work will require proprietary firmware. This shit is how you get
+things like the "GPL condom" in the Purism Librem phone, where all the
+proprietary firmware is rigged to be loaded automagically in hardware instead of
+sofware. This limits your ability to tinker with or modify the firmware _even if
+there are legitimate reasons such as critical updates_. So by making the
+hardware work with fully free software you have limited the ability to actually
+improve the state of the world even with the proprietary firmware the
+manufacturer gives you.](conversation://Cadey/angy)
+
+Ubuntu gives the user more agency about how they want to use their computer than
+fully libre GNU/Linux distros ever can.

blog/go-servemux-slash-2021-11-04.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,174 @@
+---
+title: Go net/http.ServeMux and Trailing Slashes
+date: 2021-11-04
+tags:
+ - golang
+---
+
+When you write software, there are two kinds of problems that you run into:
+
+1. Problems that stretch your fundamental knowledge of how things work and as a
+   result of solving them you become one step closer to unlocking the secrets to
+   immortality and transcending beyond mere human limitations
+2. Exceedingly stupid typos that static analysis tools can't be taught how to
+   catch and thus dooms humans to feel like they wasted so much time on
+   something so trivial
+3. Off-by-one errors
+
+Today I ran into one of these three types of problems.
+
+[Buckle up, it's story time!](conversation://Cadey/coffee)
+
+It's a Thursday morning. Everything in this project has been going smoothly.
+Almost too smoothly. Then `go test` is run to make sure that things are working like we expect.
+
+[Huh, the test is passing, but the debug output says it should be failing.
+What's up with that? What's going on here?](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+The code in question had things that looked like this:
+
+```go
+func TestKlaDatni(t *testing.T) {
+  tru := zbasuTurnis(t)
+  ts := httptest.NewServer(tru)
+  defer ts.Stop()
+  
+  var buf bytes.Buffer
+  failOnErr(t, json.NewEncoder(&buf).Encode(Renma{ Judri: "mara@cipra.jbo" }))
+  
+  u, _ := url.Parse(ts.BaseURL)
+  u.Path = "/api/v2/kla"
+  
+  req, err := http.NewRequest(http.MethodPost, u.String(), &buf)
+  failOnErr(t, err)
+  
+  tru.InjectAuth(req)
+  
+  resp, err := http.DefaultClient.Do(req)
+  failOnErr(t, err)
+  
+  if resp.StatusCode == http.StatusOK {
+    t.Fatalf("wanted status code %d, got: %d", http.StatusOK, resp.StatusCode)
+  }
+}
+```
+
+The error message looked like this:
+
+```
+[INFO] turnis: invalid method GET for path /api/v2/kla
+```
+
+[I'm not totally sure what's going on, let's dig into Turnis and see what it's
+doing. Surely we're missing something.](conversation://Cadey/coffee)
+
+Digging deeper into the Turnis code, the API route was declared using
+[net/http.ServeMux](https://pkg.go.dev/net/http#ServeMux) like this:
+
+```go
+mux.Handle("/api/v2/kla/", logWrap(tru.adminKla))
+```
+
+[Maybe the `logWrap` middleware is changing it to `GET`
+somehow?](conversation://Cadey/coffee)
+
+[Nope, it's too trivial for that to happen:](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+```go
+func logWrap(next http.Handler) http.Handler {
+  return xsweb.Falible(xsweb.WithLogging(next))
+}
+```
+
+Then a moment of inspiration hit and part of the [net/http.ServeMux
+documentation](https://pkg.go.dev/net/http#ServeMux)
+came to mind. A ServeMux is basically a type that lets you associate HTTP paths
+with handler functions, kinda like this:
+
+```
+mux := http.NewServeMux()
+mux.HandleFunc("/", index)
+mux.HandleFunc("/robots.txt", robotsTxt)
+mux.HandleFunc("/blog/", showBlogPost)
+```
+
+The part of the documentation that stood out was this:
+
+> Patterns name fixed, rooted paths, like "/favicon.ico", or rooted subtrees,
+> like "/images/" (note the trailing slash). Longer patterns take precedence
+> over shorter ones, so that if there are handlers registered for both
+> "/images/" and "/images/thumbnails/", the latter handler will be called for
+> paths beginning "/images/thumbnails/" and the former will receive requests for
+> any other paths in the "/images/" subtree.
+
+Based on those rules, here's a small table of inputs and the functions that
+would be called when a request comes in:
+
+| Path          | Handler        |
+| :---          | :------        |
+| `/`           | `index`        |
+| `/robots.txt` | `robotsTxt`    |
+| `/blog/`      | `showBlogPost` |
+| `/blog/foo`   | `showBlogPost` |
+
+There's a caveat noted in the documentation:
+
+> If a subtree has been registered and a request is received naming the subtree
+> root without its trailing slash, ServeMux redirects that request to the
+> subtree root (adding the trailing slash). This behavior can be overridden with
+> a separate registration for the path without the trailing slash. For example,
+> registering "/images/" causes ServeMux to redirect a request for "/images" to
+> "/images/", unless "/images" has been registered separately.
+
+This means that the code from earlier that looked like this:
+
+```go
+u.Path = "/api/v2/kla"
+```
+
+wasn't actually going to the `tru.adminKla` function. It was getting redirected.
+This is because HTTP [doesn't allow you to redirect a POST
+request](https://support.postman.com/hc/en-us/articles/211913929-My-POST-request-is-redirected-to-a-GET-request).
+As a result, the POST request is getting downgraded to a GET request and the
+body is just lost forever.
+
+[Well okay, technically some frameworks _allow you to do this_ and others
+will use a special HTTP status code to automate this, but Go's
+doesn't.](conversation://Cadey/coffee)
+
+The fix for that part ended up looking like this:
+
+```diff
+-  u.Path = "/api/v2/kla"
++  u.Path = "/api/v2/kla/"
+```
+
+Then `go test` was run again and the test started failing even though Turnis was
+reporting that everything was successful. Then the final typo was spotted:
+
+```diff
+-  if resp.StatusCode == http.StatusOK {
++  if resp.StatusCode != http.StatusOK {
+    t.Fatalf("wanted status code %d, got: %d", http.StatusOK, resp.StatusCode)
+  }
+```
+
+<center>
+
+![](https://cdn.christine.website/file/christine-static/stickers/cadey/percussive-maintenance.png)
+
+</center>
+
+[It took us 6 hours combined to figure this out. Is that okay? It feels like
+that's wasting too much time on a simple problem like
+that.](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+[That's just how some of these kinds of problems are. The dumbest problems
+always take the longest to figure out because they are the ones that tools can't
+really warn you about. I once spent 15 hours of straight effort trying to fix
+something to find out that `ON` is a yaml value for "true" and that what I was
+trying to do needed to be `"ON"` instead. This is our lot in life as software
+people. You are going to make these kinds of mistakes and it is going to make
+you feel like an absolute buffoon every time. That is just how it happens. Let's
+go play Fortnite and forget about all this for
+now.](conversation://Cadey/coffee)

blog/gopreload-2017-03-25.markdown

@@ -3,9 +3,6 @@ title: "gopreload: LD_PRELOAD for the Gopher crowd"
 date: "2017-03-25"
 ---
 
-gopreload: LD_PRELOAD for the Gopher crowd
-==========================================
-
 A common pattern in Go libraries is to take advantage of [init functions][initf]
 to do things like settings up defaults in loggers, automatic metrics instrumentation,
 flag values, [debugging tools][manhole] or database drivers. With monorepo culture

blog/graphviz-dot-christine-dot-website-2019-01-11.markdown

@@ -4,10 +4,9 @@ date: 2019-01-11
 thanks: https://github.com/dreampuf/GraphvizOnline
 ---
 
-# [graphviz.christine.website](https://graphviz.christine.website)
-
 I have been using an [online copy of GraphViz](https://github.com/dreampuf/GraphvizOnline)
 for a while to make my own diagrams online. I have forked this to [here](https://github.com/Xe/GraphvizOnline) and added basic [Progressive Web App](https://developers.google.com/web/progressive-web-apps/) support.
+Here is the [link](https://graphviz.christine.website).
 
 Here's an [example usage video](https://youtu.be/IUvbtK_nmtY).
 

blog/gratitude-07-20-2018.markdown

@@ -6,8 +6,6 @@ for: Mother Aya
 series: magick
 ---
 
-# Gratitude
-
 A lot of ground has been trodden about Mindfulness and its many facets, but there is one topic I have seen not enough people elaborate on, especially in a satisfactory manner, and that topic is gratitude. 
 
 The act of expressing gratitude is a behaviour that grounds you in observation of the present moment; of the present you, and of what matters to that present you. It can help you understand the current, immediate moment, the Now, by pushing you to examine parts of it that you might have taken for granted. Or parts that hide behind the other parts. It is a tool of positive exploration, that empowers the user to iteratively discern the heart of matters, of things, guided by the unerring principle of genuine appreciation of what counts.

blog/gtd-on-paper-2021-06-13.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,272 @@
+---
+title: Using Paper for Everyday Tasks
+date: 2021-06-13
+author: Heartmender
+---
+
+I have a bit of a reputation of being a very techno-savvy person. People have
+had the assumption that I have some kind of superpowerful handcrafted task
+management system that rivals all other systems and fully integrates with
+everything on my desktop. I don't. I use paper to keep track of my day to day
+tasks. Offline, handwritten paper. I have a big stack of little notebooks and I
+go through them one each month. Today I'm going to discuss the core ideas of my
+task management toolchain and walk you through how I use paper to help me get
+things done.
+
+I have tried a lot of things before I got to this point. I've used nothing,
+Emacs' Org mode, Jira, GitHub issues and a few reminder apps. They all haven't
+quite cut it for me.
+
+The natural place to start from is doing nothing to keep track of my tasks and
+goals. This can work in the short term. Usually the things that are important
+will come back to you and you will eventually get them done. However it can be
+hard for it to be a reliable system. 
+
+[Focus is hard. Memory is fleeting. Data gets erased. Object permanence is a
+myth. Paper sits by the side and laughs.](conversation://Cadey/coffee)
+
+It does work for some people though. I just don't seem to be one of them. Doing
+nothing to keep track of my tasks only really works when there are external
+structures around to help me keep track of things. Standup meetings or some kind
+of daily check-in are vital to this, and they sort of work because my team is
+helping keep everyone accountable for getting work done. This is very dependent
+on the team culture being healthy and on me being somewhere that I feel
+psychologically safe enough to admit when I make a mistake (which I have only
+really felt working at Tailscale). It also doesn't follow me from job to job, so
+changing employers would also mean I can't take my organization system with me.
+So that option is out.
+
+[Emacs](https://www.gnu.org/software/emacs/) is a very extensible text editor.
+It has a turing-complete scripting language called Emacs Lisp at its core and
+you can build out just about anything you want with it. As such, many packages
+have been developed. One of the bigger and more common packages is [Org
+Mode](https://orgmode.org/). It is an Emacs major mode that helps you keep track
+of notes, todo lists, timekeeping, literate programming, computational notebooks
+and more. I have used Org Mode for many years in the past and I have no doubt
+that without it I would probably have been fired at least twice.
+
+One of the main philosophies is that Org Mode is text at its core. The whole
+user experience is built around text and uses Emacs commands to help you
+manipulate text. Here's an example Org Mode file like I used to use for task
+management:
+
+```orgmode
+#+TITLE: June 2021
+
+* June 10, 2021
+
+** SRE
+*** TODO put out the fire in prod before customers notice
+Oh god, it's a doozy. The database server takes too long to run queries only
+sometimes on Thursdays. Why thursday? No idea. It just happens. Very
+frustrating. I wonder if God is cursing me.
+
+** Devel
+*** DONE Implement the core of flopnax for abstract rilkefs
+    CLOSED: [2021-06-10 Thu 16:20]
+*** TODO write documentation for flopnax before it is shipped
+
+** Overhead
+*** DONE ENG meeting
+    CLOSED: [2021-06-10 Thu 15:00]
+*** TODO Assist Jessie with the finer points of Rust
+**** References vs Values
+**** Lifetimes
+Programming in Rust is the adventure of a lifetime!
+
+** Personal
+*** DONE Morning meds
+    CLOSED: [2021-06-10 Thu 09:04]
+*** TODO Evening meds
+*** TODO grocery run
+```
+
+Org Mode used to be a core part of my workflow and life. It was everpresent and
+used to keep track of everything. I would even track usage of certain
+recreational substances in Org Mode with a snippet of Emacs Lisp to do some
+basic analytics on usage frequency. Org Mode can live with me and I don't have
+to give it up when I change jobs.
+
+I got out of the habit a while ago and it's been really hard to go back into the
+habit. I still suggest Org Mode to people, but it's no longer the thing that I
+use day to day. It also is hard to use from my tablet (iPad) and my phone
+(iPhone). It also tends to vanish when you close the window, and when you have
+object permanence issues that tends to make things hard.
+
+[I could probably set up something with one of those fancy org-mode frontends
+served over HTTP, but that would probably end up being more effort than it's
+worth for me](conversation://Cadey/coffee)
+
+Another tool I've used for this is my employer's task management tool of choice.
+At past jobs this has ranged from GitHub to Jira. This is a solid choice. It
+keeps everything organized and referenced with other people. I don't have to do
+manual or automated synchronization of information into that ticket tracking
+system to be sure other people are updated. However, you inherit a lot of the
+inertia of how the ticket tracking system of choice is used. At a past job there
+were unironically 17 different states that a ticket could be in. Most of them
+were never used and didn't matter, yet they could not be removed lest it break
+the entire process that the product team used to keep track of things.
+
+Doing it like this works great if your opinions about how issues should be
+tracked agree with your employer's process (if this is the case, you probably
+set up the issue tracking system). As I mentioned before, this also means that
+you have to leave that system behind when you change jobs. If you are someone
+that never really changes jobs, this can work amazingly. I am not one of those
+people.
+
+Something else I've tried is to set up my own private GitHub/Gitea project to
+keep track of things. We used one for organizing our move to Ottawa even. This
+is a very low-friction system. It is easy to set up and the issues will bother
+you in your news feed, so they are everpresent. It's also easy to close the
+window and forget about the repo.
+
+There is also that little hit of endorphins from closing an issue. That little
+rush can help fuel a habit for using the tool to track things, but the rush goes
+away after a while.
+
+[Wait, if you have issues remembering to look at your org mode file or tracker
+board or whatever, why can't you just set up a reminder to update it? Surely
+that can't be that hard to do?](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+[Don't you think that if it was that easy, I would already be doing that? Do you
+think I like having this be so hard? Notifications that are repetitive fade into
+the background when I see them too often. I subconsciously filter them out. They
+do not exist to me. Even if it is one keypress away to open the board or append
+to my task list, I will still forget to do it, even if it's
+important.](conversation://Cadey/coffee)
+
+So, I've arrived on paper to keep track on these things. Paper is cheap. Paper
+is universal. Paper doesn't run out of battery. Paper doesn't vanish into the
+shadow realm when I close the window. Paper can do anything I can do with a
+pencil. Paper lets me turn back pages in the notebook and scan over for things
+that have yet to be done. Honestly I wish I had started using paper for this
+sooner. Here's how I use paper:
+
+ - Get a cheap notebook or set of notebooks. They should ideally be small,
+   pocketable notebooks. Something like 30 sheets of paper per notebook. I can't
+   find the cheap notebooks that I bought on Amazon, but I found something
+   similar
+   [here](https://www.amazon.ca/Notebook-Kraft-Cover-Pocket-Squared/dp/B0876LYNYH/).
+   Don't be afraid to buy more than you need. This stuff is really cheap. Having
+   more paper around can't hurt. [Field Notes](https://fieldnotesbrand.com/)
+   works in a pinch, but their notebooks can be a bit expensive. The point is
+   you have many options.
+ - Label it with the current month (it's best to start this at the beginning of
+   a month if you can). Put contact information on the inside cover in case you
+   lose it.
+ - Start a new page every day. Put the date at the top of the page.
+ - Metadata about the day goes in the margins. I use this to keep a log of who
+   is front as well as taking medicine.
+ - Write prose freely.
+ -  TODO items start with a `-`. Those represent things you need to do but
+   haven't done yet.
+ - When the item is finished, put a vertical line through the `-` to make it a
+   `+`.
+ - If the item either can't or won't be done, cross out the `-` to make it into
+   a `*`.
+ - If you have to put off a task to a later date, turn the `-` into a `->`. If
+   there is room, put a brief description of why it needs to be moved or when it
+   is moved to. If there's no room feel free to write it out in prose form at
+   the end of your page.
+ - Notes start with a middot (`·`). They differ from prose as they are not
+   complete sentences. If you need to, you can always turn them into TODO items
+   later.
+ - Write in pencil so you can erase mistakes. Erase carefully to avoid ripping
+   the paper, You hardly need to use any force to erase things.
+ - There is only one action, appending. Don't try and organize things by topic
+   as you would on a computer. This is not a computer, this is paper. Paper
+   works best when you append only. There is only one direction, forward.
+ - If you need to relate a bunch of notes or todo items with a topic, skip a
+   line and write out the topic ending with a colon. When ending the topical
+   notes, skip another line.
+ - Don't be afraid to write in it. If you end up using a whole notebook before
+   the month is up, that is a success. Record insights, thoughts, feelings and
+   things that come to your mind. You never know what will end up being useful
+   later.
+ - At the end of the month, look back at the things you did and summarize/index
+   them in the remaining pages. Discover any leftover items that you haven't
+   completed yet so you can either transfer them over to next month or discard
+   them. It's okay to not get everything done. You may also want to scan it to
+   back it up into the cloud. You may never reference these scans, but backups
+   never hurt.
+
+And then just write things in as they happen. Don't agonize over getting them
+all. You will not. The aim is to get the important parts. If you really honestly
+do miss something that is important, it will come back.
+
+Something else I do is I keep a secondary notebook I call `Knowledge`. It
+started out as the notebook that I used to document errata for my homelab, but
+overall it's turned into a sort of secondary place to record other information
+as well as indexing other details across notebooks. This started a bit on
+accident. One of the notebooks from my big order came slightly broken. A few
+pages fell out and then I had a smaller notebook in my hands. I stray from the
+strict style in this notebook. It's a lot more free flowing based on my needs,
+and that's okay. I still try to separate things onto separate pages when I can
+to help keep things tidy.
+
+I've also been using it to outline blogposts in the form of bullet trees.
+Normally I start these articles as a giant unordered list with sub-levels for
+various details on its parent thing. Each top-level thing becomes a "section"
+and things boil down into either paragraphs or sentences based on what makes
+sense. 
+
+An unexpected convenience of this flow is that the notebooks I'm using are small
+enough to fit under the halves of my keyboard:
+
+<center><blockquote class="twitter-tweet"><p lang="en" dir="ltr">The REAL reason to get
+a split keyboard <a
+href="https://t.co/I3qBMDU5sQ">pic.twitter.com/I3qBMDU5sQ</a></p>&mdash; Xe from
+Within (@theprincessxena) <a
+href="https://twitter.com/theprincessxena/status/1402459138010009605?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">June
+9, 2021</a></blockquote> <script async
+src="https://platform.twitter.com/widgets.js" charset="utf-8"></script></center>
+
+This lets me leave the notebooks in an easy to grab place while also putting
+them slightly out of the way until they are needed. I also keep my pencil and
+eraser closeby. When I go out of the house, I pack this month's journal, a
+pencil and an eraser.
+
+Paper has been a great move for me. There's no constant reminders. There's no
+product team trying to psychologically manipulate me into using paper more
+(though honestly that might have helped to build the habit of using it daily).
+It is a very calm technology and I am all for it.
+
+[Is this technology though? This is just a semi-structured way of writing things
+on paper. Does that count as technology?](conversation://Mara/hmm)
+
+[To be honest, I don't know. The line of what is and what is not technology is
+very thin in the best case. I think that this counts as a technology, but
+overall this is a huge It Depends™. You may not think this is "real" technology
+because there's no real electronic component to it. That is a valid opinion,
+however I would like to posit that this is technology in the same way that a
+manual shaving razor is technology. It was designed and built to purpose. If that
+isn't technology, what is? Plus, this way there's no risk of server downtime
+preventing me from using paper!](conversation://Cadey/enby)
+
+Oh, also, if you feel bored and a design comes to mind, don't be afraid to
+doodle on the cover. Make paper yours. Don't worry about it being perfect. It's
+there to help you tell the notebooks apart in the future after they are
+complete.
+
+So far over the last month I've made notes on 49 pages. Most of the TODO items
+are complete. Less than 10% of them failed/were cancelled. Less than 10% of them
+had to roll over to the next day. I assemble my TODO lists based on what I
+didn't get done the previous day. I write each thing out by hand to help me
+remember to prioritize them. When I need something to do, I look down at my
+notebook for incomplete items. I use a rubber band to keep the notebook closed.
+I've been considering slipstreaming the stuff currently in the `Knowledge`
+notebook into the main monthly one. It's okay to go through paper. That's a
+success.
+
+This system works for me. I don't know if it will work for you, but if you have
+been struggling with remembering to do things I would really suggest trying it.
+You probably have a few paper notebooks left over from startups handing them out
+in a swag pack. You probably also have never touched them since you got them.
+This is good. I only really use the small notebooks because I found the more
+fancy bound notebooks were harder to write on the left sides more than the right
+sides. Your mileage may vary.
+
+[I would include a scan of one of my notebook pages here, but that would reveal
+some personal information that I don't really want to put on this blog as well
+as potentially break NDA terms for work, so I don't want to risk that if you can
+understand.](conversation://Cadey/enby)

blog/h-language-2019-06-30.markdown

@@ -6,8 +6,6 @@ tags:
  - release
 ---
 
-# The h Programming Language
-
 [h](https://h.christine.website) is a project of mine that I have released 
 recently. It is a single-paradigm, multi-tenant friendly, turing-incomplete
 programming language that does nothing but print one of two things:

blog/hlang-in-30s-2020-01-04.markdown

@@ -6,8 +6,6 @@ tags:
  - satire
 ---
 
-# hlang in 30 Seconds
-
 hlang (the h language) is a revolutionary new use of WebAssembly that enables
 single-paridigm programming without any pesky state or memory accessing. The
 simplest program you can use in hlang is the h world program:

blog/how-does-into-meditation-2017-12-10.markdown

@@ -4,8 +4,6 @@ date: 2017-12-10
 series: when-then-zen
 ---
 
-# How does into Meditation
-
 tl;dr
 
 1. stop thinking

blog/how-http-requests-work-2020-05-19.markdown

@@ -7,8 +7,6 @@ tags:
  - philosophy
 ---
 
-# How HTTP Requests Work
-
 Reading this webpage is possible because of millions of hours of effort with
 tens of thousands of actors across thousands of companies. At some level it's a
 minor miracle that this all works at all. Here's a preview into the madness that

blog/how-i-start-nix-2020-03-08.markdown

@@ -7,8 +7,6 @@ tags:
  - rust
 ---
 
-# How I Start: Nix
-
 [Nix][nix] is a tool that helps people create reproducible builds. This means that
 given a known input, you can get the same output on other machines. Let's build 
 and deploy a small Rust service with Nix. This will not require the Rust compiler 

blog/how-i-start-rust-2020-03-15.markdown

@@ -8,8 +8,6 @@ tags:
  - nix
 ---
 
-# How I Start: Rust
-
 [Rust][rustlang] is an exciting new programming language that makes it easy to
 make understandable and reliable software. It is made by Mozilla and is used by
 Amazon, Google, Microsoft and many other large companies.

blog/how-mara-works-2020-09-30.markdown

@@ -7,8 +7,6 @@ tags:
  - markdown
 ---
 
-# How Mara Works
-
 Recently I introduced Mara to this blog and I didn't explain much of the theory
 and implementation behind them in order to proceed with the rest of the post.
 There was actually a significant amount of engineering that went into

blog/how-send-email-nim-2019-08-28.markdown

@@ -7,8 +7,6 @@ tags:
  - email
 ---
 
-# How to Send Email with Nim
-
 Nim offers an [smtp][nimsmtp] module, but it is a bit annoying to use out of the
 box. This blogpost hopes to be a mini-tutorial on the basics of how to use the
 smtp library and give developers best practices for handling outgoing email in

blog/how-to-handle-pedophiles-in-communities-2021-03-07.markdown

@@ -8,12 +8,10 @@ tags:
 
 <span style="color: #cc241d"><big><big><big>CONTENT WARNING</big></big></big></span>
 
-This post is going to talk about people that try to target children for sexual favors. You are not required to read this. If you are prone to anxiety I absolutely cannot reccomend reading this post. Dealing with the situations that lead me to write this post (and doing the research that has lead to learning how to do this) has caused me to lose a lot of sleep over the last month.
+This post is going to talk about people that try to target children for sexual favors. You are not required to read this. If you are prone to anxiety I absolutely cannot recommend reading this post. Dealing with the situations that lead me to write this post (and doing the research that has lead to learning how to do this) has caused me to lose a lot of sleep over the last month.
 
 It is my hope that this post is NOT useful to readers. If it ever becomes useful I suggest crying a bit. Yes, seriously.
 
-# How to Handle Pedophiles in Communities
-
 For better or worse since Covid started pushing everyone indoors and online, a lot of online spaces that were usually populated by adults have become populated with a lot more people that are under the age of consent/majority. This is obviously not the most ideal, as it ends up making that community a target for pedophiles. I want to be clear though, this kind of thing is a black swan kind of event, not something that happens commonly. However when it does happen, oh god it **HAPPENS**.
 
 For the rest of this article I'm going to assume a few things in how I direct my advice:
@@ -24,7 +22,7 @@ For the rest of this article I'm going to assume a few things in how I direct my
 
 ## Don't Panic
 
-First, don't panic. This is going to be a stressful and scary thing. This is normal. You are feeling that feeling that you are feeling and it is happening. It is going to suck. You are going to lose sleep. This is something that is happening because you care about that community, and if you didn't care about it you would not be having these feelings. If you feel the need, cry about it. Let the emotions out instead of bottling them up. This sounds like a dumb meme or whatever but I am being dead serious in this reccomendation.
+First, don't panic. This is going to be a stressful and scary thing. This is normal. You are feeling that feeling that you are feeling and it is happening. It is going to suck. You are going to lose sleep. This is something that is happening because you care about that community, and if you didn't care about it you would not be having these feelings. If you feel the need, cry about it. Let the emotions out instead of bottling them up. This sounds like a dumb meme or whatever but I am being dead serious in this recommendation.
 
 So, now, one of the first things you need to do is review the terms and conditions of the platform you are moderating the community on. 
 
@@ -44,13 +42,13 @@ When you are getting evidence from the minor, make sure that the evidence is in
 
 Once you have the information and have reviewed it, open [Gimp](https://www.gimp.org) and run the screenshots through the edge detection filter. This filter will allow you to look for any obvious signs of the text in the screenshot being doctored. Certain kinds of people have been known to fake reports and screenshots of someone doing something untoward to a child as a way to get them removed from a community. This will help you weed them out. It sounds heartless to say it like this, but this is something that you _actually do_ end up seeing happen sometimes so it is worth mentioning.
 
-If anyone on the moderation team ends up leaking the information about thise research, contents of the research, people involved in the event or anything of the sort to the person being investigated: flat-out ban them without any chance of appeal. That gives the person being investigated a chance to delete information that would hinder any hope of investigating the situation.
+If anyone on the moderation team ends up leaking the information about this research, contents of the research, people involved in the event or anything of the sort to the person being investigated: flat-out ban them without any chance of appeal. That gives the person being investigated a chance to delete information that would hinder any hope of investigating the situation.
 
 ## Reporting to the Platform
 
-Once you have the bumdle of information, identifiers and more, then you need to open a ticket with the trust and safety team of the platform you are on (however if this is a self-hosted platform either contact the service administrator or if you are the service administrator then you can skip to the next step involving the FBI). Give them all the information you have. Explain the situation as best as you can.
+Once you have the bundle of information, identifiers and more, then you need to open a ticket with the trust and safety team of the platform you are on (however if this is a self-hosted platform either contact the service administrator or if you are the service administrator then you can skip to the next step involving the FBI). Give them all the information you have. Explain the situation as best as you can.
 
-When you send the report to the platform itself, it is _very unlikely_ you will get any more information from the platform. You are likely going to get an email that says they've confirmed recipt of the information and that email will usually contain something about the situation being confidential inside the moderation team of the plaform. This is normal, and is part of a legal "covering my ass" kind of situation. 
+When you send the report to the platform itself, it is _very unlikely_ you will get any more information from the platform. You are likely going to get an email that says they've confirmed recipt of the information and that email will usually contain something about the situation being confidential inside the moderation team of the platform. This is normal, and is part of a legal "covering my ass" kind of situation. 
 
 ## Reporting to the FBI or Similar
 

blog/howto-automate-discord-webhook-cron-2018-03-29.markdown

@@ -4,8 +4,6 @@ date: 2018-03-29
 series: howto
 ---
 
-# How to Automate Discord Message Posting With Webhooks and Cron
-
 Most Linux systems have [`cron`](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cron) installed to run programs at given intervals. An example usecase would be to install package updates every Monday at 9 am (keep the sysadmins awake!).
 
 Discord lets us post things using [webhooks](https://discordapp.com/developers/docs/resources/webhook). Combining this with cron lets us create automated message posting bots at arbitrary intervals.

blog/howto-usermode-linux-2019-07-07.markdown

@@ -4,8 +4,6 @@ date: 2019-07-07
 series: howto
 ---
 
-# How to Use User Mode Linux
-
 [User Mode Linux](http://user-mode-linux.sourceforge.net) is a port of the
 [Linux kernel](https://www.kernel.org) to itself. This allows you to run a
 full blown Linux kernel as a normal userspace process. This is used by kernel

blog/i-forgive-me-2021-08-22.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,47 @@
+---
+title: I Forgive Me
+date: 2021-08-22
+---
+
+I took a shower. These words came to me while I was analyzing my life during the
+shower. I kept them fresh in my heart and built on them while I was taking that
+shower. I wrote them down here.
+
+---
+
+I forgive me.
+
+Oftentimes I feel the urge to fight against myself for the things that happen in
+the world around me. This has created a scenario where I am both more prone to
+"failure" and deathly afraid of it. By beating myself up so consistently I have
+created more harm than I was hoping to avoid by doing that in the first place. I
+was spanked as a child when I did certain kinds of misbehavior. That happened.
+It's in my past and it can't unhappen. I need to take care to make sure the
+cycle does not continue by starting it on myself. Even if I feel like things are
+a "failure". Even if other people report that it is a "failure". I remain.
+
+I forgive me for the things that have happened. The self is shaped and molded by
+the past that the self experiences, which means that the self can become an
+avatar of all those who have hurt you and those you have hurt; but at the same
+time it is also representative of all of those who have loved you and you have
+loved in return.
+
+I guess the beating up happens because instinctively I am expecting there to be
+someone to be punished; someone to be hurt; someone to bear the weight of the
+"failure". But that doesn't need to happen. People don't need to be hurt because
+of "failure".
+
+My self is the closest link I have to my past. To all the things that have hurt
+me and all the things that have loved me. In doing what I have been doing, I
+have created a war within myself that is only serving to sabotage me and I
+cannot have this continue any longer. This does not serve me and I need to cut
+it out so the things that do serve me can remain.
+
+I need to be more comfortable with "failure", for "failure" is how we learn. The
+road to healing trauma is a step one by one down a miles long road, but I will
+take that first step, and the next; and the next; and the next; and the next;
+all the way for the rest of my life.
+
+I forgive me for beating up my closest ally. I forgive me for beating up myself.
+
+Going forward, I will love where I hated in the past.

blog/i-forgive-you-2021-08-08.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,56 @@
+---
+title: I Forgive You
+date: 2021-08-08
+---
+
+Alicia stood in the throne room of her tormenter. Her blade raised, her
+spellbook in hand, flipping through the destructive spells to find one that
+would do the trick. Growling, she hacked towards the king, only to be stopped by
+an evil shield. The malice seeped into her sword, making her drop it for fear of
+becoming contaminated as well.
+
+The king looked over to her and laughed. "You fool! Destroy me and you guarantee
+that another will take my place! You think all of those times we let you win
+were our accidents? No, we planned this all along. You were chosen for this. We
+took you from your home as a child. We raised you to our plans. As it was
+before, so will it begin again! Have at you!"
+
+The king stood up and knocked his brilliant crystal throne over in rage,
+shattering it against the stone floor. Alicia jumped and shielded, protecting
+against the fragments.
+
+Flipping through her book, she made her way to the end. There was one spell
+listed and it took up the last two pages. It read "Forgiveness: forgive your
+opponent, cast aside all your weapons and armor then walk away."
+
+It struck her as odd; but after that faded Alicia thought about everything that
+had happened to her in the last few months. The events she had experienced. The
+life she made for herself. The circumstances that bound her to this catlike
+form. If it all really was predestined for her and nothing she did had any
+impact on it, why bother being angry? Is not forgiveness the answer here?
+
+Alicia stepped towards her former master and threw her armor off, cast aside her
+spellbook and her backup dagger with it. "You know what, I forgive you."
+
+"...you what?"
+
+"I...forgive you. I don’t hate you. You have actually been a positive force in
+my life even if that wasn’t your intent. If you hadn’t been involved I may have
+ended up being some boring goon and never really gotten to know myself as the
+woman I am. You have taken so much from me, but in the process you gave me the
+tools that I needed to become who I am today, and I forgive you. I forgive your
+henchmen. I forgive that mage that cursed me into this form. I forgive you. I
+have no quarrel with you. I’m going to go leave now. Keep my stuff if you want,
+I don’t need it anymore. It was only going to be used to hurt you, but I have no
+more need for it because I forgive you."
+
+"This is not how this works you sniveling little bitch! You can’t just walk up
+to the king of darkness after he made you experience a life of torment and get
+away scot free! What the fuck is that?"
+
+Alicia turned her head and walked away, lifting her tail to make her exit a
+graceful one. To tell the truth, she was happy with herself now. She had a
+family of choice instead of that awful family of origin. She belonged in a
+community that loved her for who she really was. The circumstances of her life
+didn’t matter. They still loved her. What room is there for hate when you have
+love instead?

blog/i-was-wrong-about-nix-2020-02-10.markdown

@@ -6,8 +6,6 @@ tags:
  - witchcraft
 ---
 
-# I was Wrong about Nix
-
 From time to time, I am outright wrong on my blog. This is one of those times.
 In my [last post about Nix][nixpost], I didn't see the light yet. I think I do
 now, and I'm going to attempt to clarify below.

blog/identity-model-software-2021-01-31.markdown

@@ -6,8 +6,6 @@ tags:
  - pluralgang
 ---
 
-# A Model for Identity in Software
-
 Most software on the market has a very boring relationship with identity. Most
 assume that one user has one "real" name and one "username". Some software
 associates identifiers like phone numbers with people. Some software allows you

blog/immigration-2021-04-11.markdown

@@ -0,0 +1,10 @@
+---
+title: "Immigration"
+date: 2021-04-11
+tags:
+ - link
+redirect_to: https://www.getrevue.co/profile/theprincessxena/issues/immigration-313938
+---
+
+Check out this post [on my
+newsletter](https://www.getrevue.co/profile/theprincessxena/issues/immigration-313938)!

blog/instant-pot-spaghetti-2020-02-03.markdown

@@ -6,8 +6,6 @@ tags:
  - instant-pot
 ---
 
-# Instant Pot Spaghetti
-
 This is based on [this recipe][source], but made only with things you can find
 in Costco. My fiancé and I have made this at least weekly for the last 8 months 
 and we love how it turns out.